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Birthday letter

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A/N: Another letter from Evie to Mal. It kinda explains itself, so no real backstory needed. I hope you like it!

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Hey Evie,

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No real reason for a letter to be honest. I'm just bored. I have a lot of shit to do for school and stuff, but I'm procrastinating. It was your birthday yesterday. I hate birthdays. They put so much pressure on one day. It's like, this day has to be perfect, because on this day you were born a few years ago. I don't like it. Especially your birthday. I want to make you feel so special and happy and appreciated, but I'm not allowed to. I just have to say congratulations, give you a present, and then that's it. I want to spent a whole day with you! I want to go on an adventure with you! I want to eat a whole cake with just the two of us, I want to make music with you, I want to give you the most amazing birthday you've ever had every year again. But I can't. So I just stare at you and dream about those things instead.

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It hurts me. It hurts me to love you. It hurts to look at you, it hurts to think about you, it hurts to want you. I love you, but I hate that. I wish I didn't. It's like this. Every time that I'm with you, I'm so happy, but as soon as you leave, my whole heart misses you. Because I know that you will never enjoy being with me as much as enjoy being with you. Because I know that even though, thinking about you calms me, you would never calm me in real life. It makes me cry. Every love song that I hear is about you, Evie. Every dream, every story, every song that I make myself. Every letter, every page in my diary, everything. Everything is about you. But nothing is about us.

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Guess there was a real reason for this letter huh. Thanks subconscious. I hope you have a good day today Evie. I really do. I'm gonna get on that school stuff I have to do. Love you.

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x Mal

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A/N: Well that was it! I hope you liked it :) Thank you for all the votes and messages. It's the biggest compliment to me. I'm so thankfull people are even reading this. I hope you're doing okay and staying safe. Try to be kind to yourself today. 

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