Historia. | Kuroo Tetsuro

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trigger warnings: mention of suicide, rape and self-harm.

"How are you?" The usual question, but I somehow always end up answering something else. "You've been coming more often, and I'm quite happy."

"I'm doing fine.... Uhm.." I want to talk about the fashion show. "So uhm... I watched her fashion last time, and she had a speech.. and she was... She cried. The comments were all about hate.. about how she abused her position as the daughter of the CEO of the entertainment she was under. I had a feeling that I should comfort her right away, and she asked for me when Kenma called her... and she was crying."

"You suggested that you call her?" I nod. "As for the rules, with them in hand, you made someone else call to comfort her, but she asked for you?" I nod again. "How do you feel?"

"I'm here to ask you.." She chuckles and shakes her head. "I mean.. She also suddenly said that she misses me too, maybe because of the call I made saying I miss you just for show... but she said it, and... I was surprised.. But about how I feel, I don't know.."

"Okay, let's talk about something else. There is a reason why you can't say it though you can feel something, and it must be something that holds you back. We need to dig them up, so we can talk about your relationship with her. Is that okay?" I nod, and she slides a cup of tea to me.

"Should I... just tell you?" She smiles, and takes a folder and simply reads its contents. "Well.... My mother committed suicide in front of me, hung herself and I was traumatized since I was just a 2 year-old... was even just turning 2. She always had cuts on her arms, never lets Dad treat them, and I ended up hating him because she died.. I think I'm hung up on that.."

She gestures me to continue, and I drink the tea before speaking. "(Y/n)... was probably reminding me of my mother... Well, I always knew that but I made excuses... because I liked her. I saw her at an orphanage and she had bandages around her arms, and she was pale.... It reminded me of my mother, and then when she was taken in by my grandmother.... the first thing (Y/n) tried to do was hurt herself.."

"And once again it reminded you of your Mom?" I nod, and a sad smile forms on her face. "What else?"

"I don't know what exactly triggered her to do this...... but, she attempted suicide by trying to jump off the building.... From what our friends said, she was standing on the concrete and slipped when someone happened to arrive, and if I hadn't gone to get her...." Why am I crying? "She could've died.. right in front of me again.."

"So you nearly witnessed death twice?" I nod, and she hands me a pack of tissues. "I think there's more."

"Uhm... how do I...?" I don't know if I should say this. "When I got to college, we moved out and lived together... and uhm... things happened.. She started modeling around that time, and she was busy. I uhm failed my classes in college... because of worrying about (Y/n).. I was invited to drink and.. I got home and.. raped her.."

I whispered the last part and even hid my face, but I think she heard it. "Anything else you want to tell me?" I look up, and find an assuring smile on her face. "If that's all you want to tell me, I'll start talking."

"No uhm.. there's more.." She nods, and I take a few deep breaths before speaking. "Misaki, her best friend, got into an accident and that was what..... had (Y/n) reconciling with me.. just because of her we got back together.. Then during that time.. my grandmother died. But ever since I violated her.... nothing was exactly great. Our engagement also seemed like me just chaining her to me... But, she still manages to run away.. and uhm... my conditions got worse.."