Devotion

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Anna

we're verging on a month and a half of our trip which means we only have two weeks left which is greatly depressing to think about because being here I've became really close with harry's band and his manager and me and harry have become attached at the hip.

I never want to leave him now I don't even remember the last time I've slept alone since we got here, we always end up holding each other at night every night and its adorable in so many different ways especially when harry pulls me in tighter claiming im too far away and hes cold.

I've gotten some really incredible pictures of him and he always complains when I take pictures of him but hes ended up really liking a lot of them except for the ones I have of him when he just wakes up.

he claims he has sleep eyes and he hates how puffy they are in the morning but I think they just make him look incredibly soft and I love them more than the perfect ones I have of him because you can tell how off guard he really was and how natural his beauty really is.

I'm never taking our time together for granted again, I just feel so whole around him. we haven't had a conversation about what's going to happen when we separate again and I don't know what it means for us if im being honest I mean to think about it, would it make sense to have the what are we conversation now, I mean we're gonna go a while without seeing each other and I can't imagine us being together without ever having the opportunity to see each other.

I don't know I just hate how close to the end of this trip we've become.

the first month of this trip has nothing on the past two weeks. the band and the producers have been working none stop and they've even gotten around to recording some of the songs. they ended up writing this beautiful song about a week ago while everyone was just relaxing harry was playing the piano and all of a sudden he just started singing and I started writing it down for him as he continued to go.

"Anna I need you to write for me okay?" I instantly got up from my seat and grabbed his journal where he writes and opened to a clean page as he begun to sing whatever came to mind.

"Just stop your crying, It's a sign of the times, Welcome to the final show, Hope you're wearing your best clothes, You can't bribe the door on your way to the sky, You look pretty good down here, But you ain't really good" Harry's voice always had an easy time sounding absolutely angelic but with this song it just sounded so much better.

"we never learn, we been here before, Why are we always fucking running from, The bullets?, The bullets, We never learn, we been here before, Why are we always fucking running from, The bullets?, The bullets." his voice sounds absolutely beautiful a little rasp behind it and everyone had gathered around the piano as he continues pounding his hands heavily on the chords.

that was last week and they said they wanted to record that one specifically in the studio in LA because of something with a guitar I wasn't paying much attention if im being honest and right now the band are playing around with a recording they have of a song that they really like for the album called 'woman' but they're getting extremely frustrated because its missing something and just cant place it.

I know absolutely nothing about music so I am just peacefully minding my business while they hover over the computer and pick at the song to see what they can do to add to it. I kind of get were they're coming from though because of the parts I heard it doesn't sound right, like it needs something. it sounds to smooth but I've also noticed one line in the song that I've definitely said to harry during our argument a few months ago.

'apologies are never gonna fix this.' when I heard that part of the song I looked over at him and he gave me a sheepish smile and I felt bad that he felt put on the spot so I just shrugged it off.