Anna
we're verging on a month and a half of our trip which means we only have two weeks left which is greatly depressing to think about because being here I've became really close with harry's band and his manager and me and harry have become attached at the hip.
I never want to leave him now I don't even remember the last time I've slept alone since we got here, we always end up holding each other at night every night and its adorable in so many different ways especially when harry pulls me in tighter claiming im too far away and hes cold.
I've gotten some really incredible pictures of him and he always complains when I take pictures of him but hes ended up really liking a lot of them except for the ones I have of him when he just wakes up.
he claims he has sleep eyes and he hates how puffy they are in the morning but I think they just make him look incredibly soft and I love them more than the perfect ones I have of him because you can tell how off guard he really was and how natural his beauty really is.
I'm never taking our time together for granted again, I just feel so whole around him. we haven't had a conversation about what's going to happen when we separate again and I don't know what it means for us if im being honest I mean to think about it, would it make sense to have the what are we conversation now, I mean we're gonna go a while without seeing each other and I can't imagine us being together without ever having the opportunity to see each other.
I don't know I just hate how close to the end of this trip we've become.
the first month of this trip has nothing on the past two weeks. the band and the producers have been working none stop and they've even gotten around to recording some of the songs. they ended up writing this beautiful song about a week ago while everyone was just relaxing harry was playing the piano and all of a sudden he just started singing and I started writing it down for him as he continued to go.
"Anna I need you to write for me okay?" I instantly got up from my seat and grabbed his journal where he writes and opened to a clean page as he begun to sing whatever came to mind.
"Just stop your crying, It's a sign of the times, Welcome to the final show, Hope you're wearing your best clothes, You can't bribe the door on your way to the sky, You look pretty good down here, But you ain't really good" Harry's voice always had an easy time sounding absolutely angelic but with this song it just sounded so much better.
"we never learn, we been here before, Why are we always fucking running from, The bullets?, The bullets, We never learn, we been here before, Why are we always fucking running from, The bullets?, The bullets." his voice sounds absolutely beautiful a little rasp behind it and everyone had gathered around the piano as he continues pounding his hands heavily on the chords.
that was last week and they said they wanted to record that one specifically in the studio in LA because of something with a guitar I wasn't paying much attention if im being honest and right now the band are playing around with a recording they have of a song that they really like for the album called 'woman' but they're getting extremely frustrated because its missing something and just cant place it.
I know absolutely nothing about music so I am just peacefully minding my business while they hover over the computer and pick at the song to see what they can do to add to it. I kind of get were they're coming from though because of the parts I heard it doesn't sound right, like it needs something. it sounds to smooth but I've also noticed one line in the song that I've definitely said to harry during our argument a few months ago.
'apologies are never gonna fix this.' when I heard that part of the song I looked over at him and he gave me a sheepish smile and I felt bad that he felt put on the spot so I just shrugged it off.
when I asked about it that night he told me he had been working on that song for a while and he was also writing it when was with 'Daniel' which is ironic because I was never actually with him in the first place but he said the kiss between the two of us despite it being fake made him feel like I was and it fueled it a bit.
I wasn't upset that he thought I was he was entitled to his own feelings on the subject.
"alright everyone lets just take 5." harry sighs out and everyone dispersed leaving the two of us alone in the studio area and I walked over to him and he sighed out throwing his head into his hands that were resting on the table.
"they're right I just don't know what its missing. I need to look at it with fresh eyes and I can't because I wrote the damn thing." I kind of feel bad in this situation but I've only heard parts of it so I could be considered fresh eyes right?
"what if I listen to it? I mean I haven't heard the whole thing so maybe I could help?" I suggest and he is instantly agreeing with me.
"please here put these on." he hands me a set of headphones and I place them on as I hear the intro begin.
"should we just search romantic comedies on Netflix and see what we find?" I shoot him a look and he just has a huge smirk on his face because he said that to all of us about a month ago and since then we've worked our way through just about every single rom-com we could find.
I listen to the song and the beat is incredibly catchy but I do think there could be something added its just definitely a bit more out there and I have no idea how hes gonna feel about it.
I take the headphones off and he gives me a hopeful look that maybe I have an idea and I feel myself get a bit anxious.
"so what do you think?" he questions anxiously and I bite my lip nervously as I decide how to suggest my idea.
"okay so it sounds incredible but what if you add like a moan maybe?" he instantly perks up and smirks and I just shake my head and shove him.
"no seriously like just modify it a bit to go with the beat just a bit better but a moan would add to it and I can't even explain it the song just has this whole vibe to it and I don't know maybe its a terrible idea." I ramble anxiously and just shake my head.
"no its actually not would you do it for me?" huh?
now its my turn to perk up and get anxious because what does he mean by do it for him?
"what do you mean?" I give him a look to tell him hes fucking insane.
"the moan. can you do it?" he asks and I feel my cheeks get crimson and he must've noticed because I hear him laugh a bit.
"only if you're comfortable darling. if not than just forget it ill do it or something." fuck I lost all my resolve because im gonna cave I already know it.
why does his pout have to be so cute?
"fine." I mumble and he starts to get all excited and his smile grows as he jumps around the room.
"okay so here you're just gonna sit here and the mic is turned on to record so all you have to do is just moan into the mic. I need one good one and thats it." I feel the anxiety take over and I try but I end up giggling a bit and the second time I hear the way it comes out and its just too stiff it doesn't sound natural.
"Anna you aren't actually moaning you sound too stiff and it just doesn't sound natural." I give him a deadpanned expression because I obviously know that.
"I know I just feel so awkward I don't know." I sigh and he gets closer to me and I give him a confused look thats only meet with a smirk.
"you want help?" he has a smug expression on his face and I roll my eyes and just sigh at how annoying he is.
"be serious." I tell him and he just chuckles a bit.
"I am being serious, everyone isn't here let me help." he places a delicate kiss against my jaw as he moves closer to my ear.
"can I help darling?" I nod my head before I can even think but I hear him tut stepping further back from me.
"not gonna work you know what you have to do." I roll my eyes and sigh.
"yes you can help." he moves back closer to me and begins to suck against my neck laping his tongue against the skin being careful not to leave marks but also making it feel beyond incredible and I gasp a bit at the sensation as his hand moves to my thigh.
wearing a dress today might've been incredibly stupid or incredibly smart. we're about to find out.
his mouth continues its attack on my neck slowly moving down towards my collarbone as his hand moves higher on my thigh and grazes against the damp clothe thats covering my core and the second I feel it I whimper slightly at the sensation which has him smirking.
"you can do better than that." he mumbles as he moves my underwear over to the side and places a finger inside my slit and moves it to collect some of the arousal thats begun to form because of his assault on my neck.
"fuck." I hear him groan next to me before he begins to move his finger towards my clit and I let out a quiet moan at his touch feeling desperate for him to begin to move against my clit and as he does he quickly adds another finger that has me moaning instantly.
"good girl." he shuts the mic off and in an instant hes standing in front of me placing his lips on mine and beginning to take the two fingers that were originally against my nerves and moving them inside of me as his thumb is on my clit now moving in circular positions while his fingers curl up looking for that spot inside me that will have my coming undone in under a minute.
"fuck." he growls against my lips as the kiss becomes just a clash of tongues and pants as he finds the spot he was looking for and begins to make me moan his name louder.
"oh god harry." his fingers begin to curl quicker hitting that spot over and over again and I feel myself squirming as I stand in front of him and I hear him groan at the sound as he presses himself against my ass and I feel the hardness forming in his pants.
"when you come I want to hear my name understand?" he pants into my ear clearly getting off to my reaction. I nod but he begins to move his fingers to stop.
"I said understand? Anna don't make me repeat myself a third time." he states and I mumble out a mindless yes and he quickly begins his aggressive pace that has me coming undone so quickly in front of him. I moan his name in broken chants as well as mindless curses as he wraps his free hand around my stomach to hold me up making sure I dont fall as I came. I feel a sort of bliss as he continues a slow pace that allows me to ride out the high I'm on.
he pulls his fingers out after a moment and places them in his mouth which makes me whimper as I watch him do it and I see him readjust himself in his pants which makes me confused.
"it was about you darling, now come here I want you to taste yourself." he moves closer to me as he begins to kiss me sloppily and I let out soft whimpers at how intense the kiss is which has him smirking into it as well.
after a few moments I hear everyone coming back down the stairs so I readjust myself so I don't look like what me and harry just did and he moves over and begins to cut and tweak the audio adding to it and making it sound a lot cooler.
the first thing he did was modify the speed of the clip and I found myself blushing at the sound of my moan which I saw had a affect on him he definitely did not want while his friends we're about to be in the same room as us.
"fuck I think I got it, holy shit I could kiss your brain right now Anna." he adds the clip into the song and it hits every beat and as everyone comes in they just look at him confused.
"it kind of sounds like a duck?" Mitch says and everyone agrees and I feel myself blush at the very obvious thing to me and harry that it is in fact not a duck but no one else knows that.
"it sounds incredible though, how did you figure that one out?" Jeff asks harry but he just points over to me.
"I deserve none of the credit she came up with it and executed it." I look over at him in shock and hes just smirking while he looks at the editing equipment and everyone else seems to get rowdy as we all listen to the song that now has my moan in it.
harrys shit eating grin is annoying me but still I can't help but focus on how incredible me and him can be when we work together.
