chapter 4
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the air was cool blowing against my cheeks as we opened the door heading out the school . my hands still wrapped around Damian's the boy i didn't even know we walked over stopping next to a BMW almost like Johnny's only this one was black i didn't ask where we were going i didn't want to i was just glad we were leaving . he lead me to the passengers side opened the door and waited for me to go inside . you know what i thought he can be a major ass but he can also be a total gentlemen i looked up at him smiled and got into the car . he shut the door and walked over to the drivers side he settled in put and the key in the ignition, his seats were leather and black , cold . he turned the car on and was about to pull out as it turned over but before he could, i stopped him noticing he didn't have his seat belt " Damian , um seat belt " i made a motion with my hand as if i was buckling and invisible seat belt over mine, his expression became annoyed he rolled his eyes buckled his seat belt and pulled out of east high . i looked out the windows the trees becoming a blur as we drove past them . i turned my gaze to Damian his eyes fixed on the road his jaw tightened just as his hands were on the steering wheel , why is he always so mad i though silently , whats the story behind this bad boy ? . i turned back to the window as the music of cold play played low .
i pushed open the door the brightness of the restroom light hitting my face and eyes making them squint the cooled air swished past me causing goose bumps to appear across my arms . i looked down at the floor that used to be white was now covered in dark red . i gasped stepping back before my eyes caught something next to the shower , a boy sat there his arms lay'd out in front of him his wrist slit in each arm a razor blade sat inches away from his body the dark liquid that covered the floor was draining from the wounds . the boy who sat there lifeless was the same boy who stole my heart the same one who i was searching for . the air knocked out of me but i still managed to get his name passed my lips " Luke !!!" i screamed as i ran toward him i grabbed his arms raped a towel around them my hands shaking rapidly " Luke !!!, Luke wake up Luke please oh my god .... helllppppp !!!" i wrapped my arms around him, his warm blood covering my body. i held him , repeating the same words over and over again " it ok , I'm here , it OK " i sat there till the men got here, taking the boys life-less body away , the boy who i couldn't bare to leave. leaving me with nothing but his blood that stained my body .
" Sara ! , Sara wake up " i opened my eyes where was i ? i sat up my head pounding against my skull like a drum i winced at the pain i slid my head on the seat for support i looked up to find Damian his eyes full of fear and concern then the memory of today flashed in my head and then the dream along with it tears filled my eyes i looked at Damian my lower lip trembling as i tried to apologize for the concern written on his face but sobs slipped through instead he wrapped me in his arms as he cooed me trying to calm me down he didn't ask any questions of why the sudden tears and i thanked god for it i cried into his shoulder my tears soaking his white shirt " Sara its ok Sara , its ok " my heart ached from pain as the image of Luke's lifeless body filled my head causing my head to throb moments later i calmed down it was now raining outside i sat in Damian's laps his warm arms still raped around my body the tears drying away
his heart is beating slow and evenly and as mine seemed to be mocking his . are breathing combining together as we sit there huddled up together on this rainy day . the water streaming down the wind shield leaving a trail of water flowing behind it . " Sara ?" Damian's voice is low and even . " yeah ?" i replied after moments later . he pauses before speaking " is Luke that guy who killed himself this summer ?" my body stiffens my voice unsteady as i speak " yeah " he nods not asking anymore questions just letting the question settle down dissolving into thin air and i cant help but think why he hadn't pushed it further why he dropped it so quickly and i was glad he did .
" Sara we should go on inside " he whispered into my ear .i looked around before i recognized where i was as i saw the little coffee shop that i went to every morning before school . there donuts there were soft melty and sweet i looked up at him his face soft and gentle i nodded in agreement we waited to the rain settled down before heading inside . as i walked in my ears quickly filled with clatter from the plates of food that was either being picked up or served . i walked toward an empty booth, we sat down waiting for our waiter . when something caught my eye it was a girl crying as a boy sat down his face unreadable . i turned trying not to stare but something , some part of me wanted to know i focused on what they were saying she had only known her boyfriend for a year a then he all of a sudden with out warning he stop answering her calls and began ignoring her . after a month or two with out a word from him she began to try and forget about him knowing its useless to try . but she began to get morning sickness , bad headache , and strange feelings in her stomach once she began to catch on she bought a pregnancy test and tested positive . and today she decided to break it to him . he hasn't spoken to her for at least five minutes straight and the anticipation was agonizing . i looked as the boy then wrapped his arms around her setting his hands on her belly she looked up with pleading eyes . he then told her everything was gonna be ok and not to cry he reached his hand to her face as he whipped a tear streaming down her cheek . as she pressed her body toward him wanting him to hold her and never let go i turned away as a tear rolled down my cheek .
they remined me so much of me and Luke . life goes by so fast sometimes you just forget the meaning of it . i whiped the tear away so Damian wouldn't noticed i was crying . " what can i get for you today ?" i looked up to find a familiar boy looking at me his hair was a light brown with radish mixed along with it . his eyes where a dark blue fallowed by his long eyelashes his skin looked like tiny specks of diamonds . Kevin . he was Luke's older brother though i only met him once they had the same mom but different dads . his face was restless ,he was away for collage . guess he came back when Luke ..... his eyes darted from me to Damian . Damian stared at me with questions " Sara .... " he spoke angrily through his teeth . but why ? i then noticed how his eyes threatened Damian . did he think we were together ? oh god no he wouldnt think i was that kinda girl , would he ? . " Kevin its not what you think i'm no- ...." his body began to shake with anger as he spoke through his teeth " Sara how could you !!, hes only been gone two months !!!" he screamed . the eyes of several strangers darted up at us Damian stood up with warning but did not speak my throat began to become dry " it not what you think Kevin " i croaked my voice unsteady and about to crack . Kevin looked at me fiercely " whatever " he replied , before looking at Damian and walking away . i stood there lost in my own thoughts asking my self what the hell just happened ? it was all so fast i couldn't even comprehend half of the conversation .
Damian sat his hand on my shoulder as he spoke through his teeth his gaze fixed on the back doors that had a sign that read employes only . " ass hoe , com'on Sara lets get out of here " he grabbed my hand and lead me out the coffee shop . i hadn't noticed it began to rain and neather did Damian guessing by how he cursed as the water poured down on us . the water was cold and fresh as it reached my skin , my heart began to beat rapidly as it soaked into my clothes i sat my hands out i beside me as if making a snow angel i spun around enjoying the cold water breaking through my skin . " Sara come on your gonna get sick " Damian said Sternly i stayed just as i was before walking into the warm car and heading off . where ? i have no idea ." Sara , wake up " i opened my eyes sightly . we were now parked . crap i fell asleep . again . i sat up off the seat , my blood burning on cheeks . i turned to Damian who looked annoyed . " come on " he said getting out the car and heading up the driveway . i sighed . as i got of the car i caught sight of an enormous mansion standing rooted before me . i gaped in shock . i cool so hes rude and rich just my type . i walked up the long drive way noticing the grass was s lime healthy green followed my roses that were planted . i stepped in front of Damian . who was staring at me as he opened the door . the house looked better on the inside just as much as on the outside . the floor were marbled and beautiful the leaving room looked like a kitchen . i followed him up the stairs and headed toward a long hallway . followed by rooms we stopped by the fourth the door and he held it open slightly signaling me to go first . i smiled and nodded . " this is your room ?" i said in shock the room was nothing as i expected it was organized clean and decent . not a single poster of half naked girls like i thought .
the walls where gray , a book case lay on the far right corner along with a desk and a radio system . a flat screen lay across the room . and the bed was made. totally opposite from mine . i blushed " yeah " he replied moments after i shifted my gaze from the room to him . " its ...... cool " he smiled . i walked over to the bed as he watched me settle into the blankets he walked over and layed down next to me . we stared at the walls silently . " Sara ?" he asked low . " yes " i breathed out . he paused and continued " what happened ?, i mean with you and Luke ?" i froze at the question remembering the those days i choose to forget . i swallowed hard before speaking " i -i ... umm .. we .. i loved him " my voice cracked at the end tears rolled down my cheek Damian looked up at me and noticed i was crying . he gathered me into his arms and held me . just as before . i listened to the rhythm of his his heart pounding against his chest . it was like a drum . my eyes began to become heavy and his arms became suddenly warm i closed my eyes as the beat of Damian's heart settle steady into a sleep his breath become slow and deep as mine . we drifted off to sleep letting the worries await us in the morning .
