Amnesia

Messing around or covering lies?

Have you ever woken up next to someone and felt so safe? Have you ever wanted to live in that single moment alone together for as long as you pleased? Considering I can't remember most of my life this moment seems like the best! Him. His eyes. His hair. His voice. He understands me. Our hands interlock perfectly! I may have only known him a "while" but he makes me happy and that's all that matters. I would give anything to live in this moment again and again! It was at this point while I was lost in my thoughts when Nate moved and I jumped. His reaction was to hug me tight dramatically and apologize. Then we laughed and laughed, which we haven't done in a while so It was nice, but it was rudely interrupted by my phone going off. As I trudged to my phone I couldn't help but sigh, then I read the message from "bæ" that read "Hey so what are your valentines plans?;)" The look of confusion on my face when I read the message made Nate get up, March over and read it. He looked me in the eyes infuriated and full of questions I couldn't answer. "Who is this? Are you cheating on me? Do I know him? How long has this been going on?..." I looked at him speechless and uttered I don't know over and over looking from him to the phone and back. He screamed "ANSWER ME ELIZABETH!!" As he gripped my arms tightly. This is when it began to scare me and I began to cry and when he let me go I fell to the floor sobbing. Nate then walked away for a few minutes and entered the number in his phone and I heard from the other room "seriously! Josiah!" Then he stormed back in the room threw my phone on the ground, and I scream " HOW CAN YOU PENALIZE ME FOR SOMETHING I CANT REMEMBER?" It was those words that made him instantly guilty and ran over helped me up and apologized. He hugged me and said " I'll figure it out and it's okay he might be messing with you." I nodded as he whipped my eyes and kissed my forehead.

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Nate woke me up and said "Josiah was just messing with you, and he didn't know about the accident." I nodded and Nate got this look of guilt on his eyes. I looked him in the eyes placed my arms around his neck and said "Hey babe, it's okay you reacted appropriately. I would've done the same thing." Then I kissed him, but when I went to part and pulled me closer and increased the intensity of the kiss. As we layed down on the couch then my phone rang, but when I saw it was my sister I ignored it. And that's how our day afternoon went; making out, broken up by some cuddling and food. So the best way to spend an afternoon.

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That night he dropped me off. Once I entered the house my parents greeted me, and my sister followed me up to my room bombarding me with questions, most of which I didn't even hear. I simple told her while standing in my doorway "I'm tired and need sleep so my room my rules!" And I slammed the door in her face. She knocked on my door begging to come in for a half hour. Then once it was silent I was able to sleep. Thankfully...

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I awoke the next morning to pebbles being thrown at my window. Expecting it to be Nate I danced over to the window and smiled. Only to realize it wasn't him. I assumed it was Josiah and I opened the window and he asked "Can I come up?" I just nodded still a little confused.

He entered my room through the window, took one look at me, and realized I was confused. Then asked "Do you remember me?" I shook my head no and looked down. He simple came over hugged me kisses my forehead and said "it's okay." I pushed him off me and said " I'm in love with Nate." Which made him laugh and say " You've always been, but we've been doing this since before yall." I was so confused and just said "What the hell are you talking about?" "Yea, you and I we sneak around we hook up, and that's that nothing serious. We liked each other, but I wasn't ready for a commitment and when you tried to break off our fling for him I suggested it." Looking at him wide eyed I asked "And I agreed to it?" He simple nodded then walked toward me wrapped his arms around me and went to kiss me. But I pushed him off me again and said " I may have been okay with this then, but not now. I can't do that to Nate. Plus I have no clue who you are or what our past is. I'm assuming you wouldn't take advantage of me and use my amnesia for a booty call, but this can't happen now." He looked annoyed but nodded. So I asked are you annoyed because I caught you in the lie, or because I won't let our past continue?" He said "Cause you won't let our amazing past continue." Then he left through the window, and I sat on my bed trying to process what just took place. Which of course caused me to shed some tears through guilt. Then I decided it was okay because I'm doing the right thing now....

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