Royalty

confession

Yazid

"Sipped my tea and stared at yazmin
I recalled what fadil said to me last night and I totally agree with him

" yazid you're still joking with this matter, yaseer is taking over, and with the way I saw things ,she likes him more than you, and man I'm sorry when she falls in love with him completely there's no turning back that final you'll loose her forever "

This time fear of loosing her hit me so hard

I have to tell her no matter what happens today

And from no where I felt courage

I stood up and walk to her

"Ahhmm,you remember I was going to tell you something some weeks back?" I said

"Sure" she said and arranged my clothes in the wardrobe
"I'm serious now" I said and turned her over to look at my

Whoooaa!!,those eyes of hers,but I won't loose courage, inshallah, I'll say it today

"Ok,tell me " she signed and gave me her full attention
"Well....ahmm yazmin you know two is a perfect number huh" I stammered

"Sure" she replied

"So I was wondering if two people came together and form a strong bond that beautiful right?" I asked and my hands watered

"Hmmmm,can you just tell me already and stop beating around the bush" she smiled

She still didn't get a clue yet,so I have to say it

"Well... I have fallen head over hills in love with you" I forced it out and we went quite
We stared at each other for some time and the smile on her face turned into nervousness

She quickly looked down and played with the suit she was holding

"Well....I don't know how it happened, I just fell in love you, and I'm sure of what I feel for you yazmin" I said and looked at her

"I don't want to loose you ,because what I feel, I've never felt before,... So I just wanted to let you know" I added

"Why are so quiet, say something" I held her hands

"Well....thank you yazid for ....loving me ,but I'm scared I'll say no" she said and slowly met my gaze

My hrt raced so badly

And everything stopped

Please tell me your joking and the you love just as much

"But why ?,I mean we know each other so well by now,don't you think you can trust me with your heart by now" I said and moved closer to her

"That's not it yazid, love is not my thing at all,I'm sorry if I made you fall in love with, but u can't" she looked down

Somebody wake me up from this night mare

"What are you saying yazmin,you deserve to be happy, and I promise I won't do anything funny with your heart, because I love you and it's really, I will put all the smile on your face ,maybe someone disappointed you somewhere but believe me I won't ,please,just give me a chance to prove it" I explained

"No,you won't understand my reason yazid ,so it's better if we leave this right here,and as for you, you really deserve to be happy and your happiness is not with me,you..,.. Should get a nice girl for your self ,someone who would love you and care for you so much ,I'm sorry"

Goodness!!!!!, she's driving me crazy

"Yazmin....." I paused and she left quickly

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Yazmin

"Ohhhh my goodness!!,he confessed his feelings?, I knew yazid all his life and I saw clearly how he stared at you ,I know something was up but I didn't say a word and now?,he has finally said it" my aunt exclaimed

"Si what did you say after wards" she added with excitement and moved closer to me

She's the only one happy

"I thanked him for loving me" I said without smiling
"I'm then?" She added

"Then I said no" I looked at her

And the smile fell off

"Yazmin what is wrong with you" she asked softly

"Why do you keep doing this to yourself?" She asked

"What else should I do aunt,I can't say yess just to please him when you don't feel it" I lied

"Plus you clearly know my reason" I said and stood up from the bed

"Yazmin you're hurting yourself, by refusing to accept love again, life without love is no life at all" she said and came to me

"My happiness is gone ,it's ruined, no matter how hard I try to forget it ,I can't ,it's already a part of me ,and no amount of live or whatever can reverse what happened to me,I don't want to love anyone aunt ,I refuse to move on from the past ,I don't want to move on ,that my fate I can't change it,so please Aunt let's leave this already" I wiped my face covered in tears

"Ok dear, if you say so" aunt whispered and left the room

I cried silently ,my heart ached,I know what but I can't even have it ,my past hunts me so much and it hurts me just as much

And what hurts even more is how rejected the only man.....

The only man I fell in love with

The man I have eyes for

The one I always wanted to spend the rest of my life with
And I even told him to search for love somewhere as if I'll be able to take it seeing him with another woman

I shattered my own dreams by my self

xxx

"Ahmm,good morning" I bumped into yazid at he entrance,I quickly looked down and refused to look at him

"Good morning" he replied

I won't be able to be comfortable around him for a while

I still feel guilty

I walked pass him and he held my hand,"I hope out discussion doesn't affect our friendship yazmin" he said and my heart ached

"No" I shook my head unable to look at him

"But you're acting strange" he said

"I'm just not comfortable around you anymore, now that know how you feel about me and I'm not able to give what you want" I said

"No please don't do that,please don't stop me from loving you,it's OK if you can't love me in return ,the feeling of falling in love with you is enough for me yazmin,so please,don't try to end things between us, I can't get love at least let me get friendship " he said

And I nodded and looked at him with a small smile

He's eyes clearly tells me how hurt he is and disappointed
And I couldn't look for so long I slowly looked away

"I'll get you coffee" I said and he caressed my hand softly before letting go

"Sure I'll wait in the garden" he added and I left