Lemongrass

If I could tell her

⚠️Trigger warning: Jiro gets really depressed in this chapter⚠️

Jiro POV:
I fake a smile as me and Momo walk hand in hand to class. I really love her, but I don't know how much longer I can take with keeping up the facade I've had since... forever. I'm extremely depressed, anxious, and sometimes even suicidal. A lot of stuff happened when I was a kid and my first year of UA.
    I just don't want to keep feeling this pain inside of me. I wanna tell Momo everything, but I can't. I'm afraid of what she'll think of me, maybe she'll leave me. I hadn't noticed that Momo was calling my name.
"Kyoka! Hey, you've been really quiet and it seems like you're stuck in your head. What's wrong?" She asks in a concern voice as we walk down the hallway. She squeezes my hand in reassurance. I keep faking my smile.
   "I'm fine Momo, just thinking about homework, y'know?" I lie straight to her face. There's a lot of things I won't lie about, but this is one of them. She squints her eyes at me before accepting my answer and we continue walking to class.

~Time skip brought to you by me not wanting to write them being in class~

Still Jiro's POV:
Class had ended and I had to tell Momo I wanted to be alone today to work on my homework from today's class. She was persistent in wanting to come with me but I had finally convinced her I needed my alone time. She had walked me to my dorm and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
"Don't forget it's movie night with everyone," she says as she holds one of my hands. I fake yet another smile and nod.
"I won't miss it. I promise," I say. She lets go of my hands and walks away from my door. I close it and lock it, not wanting anyone to come inside. I take off my uniform and stare at myself in my mirror.
      I look at my body and think that no one can love this. I have scars all over my legs that Momo hasn't noticed because I never take my pants off while we have sex. I put on a oversized sweatshirt and sat down on the floor to start doing my homework.
     I don't even understand half of this shit. I usually don't stress over this kind of stuff, but with everything with Bakugo being a jackass lately, this was the final straw for my emotions. I've been holding stuff in for too long.
    I start to have a mental breakdown and cry. I just keep crying, not being able to stop myself. I think about how much I hate myself, and how disappointed my classmates must be in me. I think about how Momo must just pity someone as pathetic as me. No one can love a freak like me.
I hear a knock on my door and I look over at my clock. Shit, it's 8:30. It's almost time to get going for movie night with everyone.
"Yeah yeah! I'm coming Momo!" I yell as I quickly pull on a pair of ripped black jeans. I take off my over sized sweatshirt and put on a AC/DC shirt with a flannel over the top of it. I pull open the door to reveal my girlfriend standing there in a red and white dress with a denim jacket over the top.
"Hey babe!" She says as she gives me a sweet kiss on the lips. She smiles but noticed my bloodshot eyes. "Kyoka? Are you okay? You look like you've been crying." She said with a frown in her face. I try to keep my smile but I can't.
   I shake my head and bury my face into her chest and start to sob while gripping her jacket. She wraps her arms around me and picks me up as I wrap my legs around her waist. She carries me to my bed as I continue to sob. She gently sets me down so I'm sitting on the bed She sits herself in front of me on the floor.
   "You wanna tell me what's going on Kyo?" Momo says with tears in her eyes. "I hate seeing you crying like this. Especially when I don't know what's wrong. I'm here for you." I look into her beautiful dark eyes and sigh.
    "I had a mental breakdown over my homework. I guess everything that's been happening lately with classes and training as finally gotten to me. Even Bakugo's comments have been getting to me lately. I hate my body and how I look and I just- can't do it." I say stuttering with almost every single word. Momo just simply nods her head and pulls me off the bed and into her lap. She hugs me tightly.
     "I'm so sorry I haven't noticed you being in pain Kyo. I'm always here to help you. Okay? I love you so much babe. And I love you for who you are." Momo said while kissing me on the cheek. I clutch onto her and start crying even more. I need to tell her about my self harming.
     "Momo- I-I need to tell you something else too." I say with sobbing again. I get off of her and start taking off my pants to show her the hundreds of scars on my legs.

A/N
Annnnnnnd cliffhanger! Have a good night y'all
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