First Snow.

I love dark. (Chapter 15)

I tried to shake the thoughts of Nathan from my mind as the sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach was making me feel sick. I don't understand why I feel this way. I've done nothing wrong. It's normal to be attracted to other people even while in a relationship. Love may be blind but it doesn't make you blind. It's just intense when you're around people who are not only beautiful on the outside, but beautiful on the inside as well. Then it's not just physical attraction, it's more. I cleared my mind and held my hands up to my mouth, giving my hands a quick huff to warm them up before heading back out to winterland. I grabbed the front door knob to turn it when it it started to turn on it's own and I backed away.

Chan stood in the doorway with two duffle bags thrown over his shoulders and a luggage bag in his left hand. He was wearing a leather jacket that seemed to glisten from the melted snow that had fallen atop his arms and shoulders. "Oh shit! I'm so sorry, Bee! I didn't hit you with the door did I?" Chan asked with a concerned look on his face reaching out his hand to comfort me. I put my hand out and caught his, lowering his hand down and shaking my head. "No, you didn't hit me. You're fine. I was actually coming outside to talk to you." I said calmly. Chan sighed with relief. "Well, thank God! I didn't want a repeat of yesterday. One more hit to the head and we really would have to take you to the hospital." Chan said jokingly. "Oddly enough, I was actually just about to come find you to talk. I just need to put this stuff away real quick and we can talk, yeah?" Chan asked giving me a reassuring smile and weaving around me after I nodded my head yes. I turned around to catch him before he headed down the hallway.

"Is that all your luggage?" I asked in disbelief. "Huh? Oh, no. It's mine, Han, and Felix's luggage." Chan said giving the bags a little shake. "Oh, okay. I was about to say!" I commented amused. "Well, you can just put Felix's stuff in my room after you put Han's stuff in the guest room. He's gonna sleep in my room tonight." I said casually. "Oh!" Chan responded with a confused look on his face. "Oh, umm. Okay! Not a problem, will do." He said swiftly. I noticed the look on his face went from confused to striking reality. His eyes had turned completely dark again as he tightened his grip around the luggage. Great, just great! I thought as Chan turned around and walked down the hallway. He's upset, AGAIN. I've never known someone to get so jealous and pissed off so easily. Binnie and Felix told me that he's not normally like this but I'm starting to think they lied. I can't put up with his passive aggressive drama any longer. I won't.

I walked down the hallway to finally confront Chan after taking a few deep breaths to calm myself down. I'm not the type of person to get confrontational. My friends even tell me all the time that I need to grow a back-bone. So, this is very out of my element and I'm not gonna lie, I'm super uncomfortable. However, it needed to be done. I continued my walk down the hallway when I overhead Chan speaking to Bin and slowly backed away from the bedroom entrance. "What are you doing in here, Bin?" Chan asked to Changbin with a confused look on his face. "Sup? What do you mean?" Changbin asked. "I'm just putting my stuff away since I'm staying in here." Changbin responded while lining up his shoes on the floor in my bedroom closet. "Oh, you must not know then." Chan said. "Know what?" Changbin asked turning his head back to glimpse at Chan. "Oh, just that Felix is staying in here now. Sounds like Bee gave you the boot." Chan said with a light chuckle like he was slightly gloating.

"Oh that! Yeah, I know. Bee already told me. We're all just gonna sleep in here tonight. Her bed is big enough for the three of us." Changbin explained non-chalantly pulling a black Chanel sweater out of his bag. He put the sweater carefully on a satin hanger. Of course he would actually bring satin hangers from home. "Oh, well, that sounds like fun. It's awfully close quarters though. You sure she will be okay cuddling up next to the both of you? It could get pretty cozy." Chan asked while raising an eyebrow and dragging Felix's luggage over to the side of the room near the dresser. "Seriously? Why does your mind always go right in the gutter, hyung? How many times do I have to tell you? There's literally nothing sexual going on between me and Bee, or anyone for that matter. We're all just gonna watch movies and go to sleep. You know I haven't been with anyone since Ellie." Changbin explained in a low tone with his hands rubbing his forehead in frustration.