Is happines real?

Chapter 7-Can love help us?

They hugged each other and kissed also and all of a sudden they realised it started raining but they didn't stop.They stayed in the middle of the road kissing.

Otias: Niri,you know it started raining?
Niri: Don't be stupid. Don't ruin this moment please. I want to stay this night with you even though it's raining on Christmas Night.
Otias: My father is alive.. What should I do?
Niri: Can't you think of a possibility?
Otias: Everything from him is lost, I don't have anything from him.
Niri: We will fix this, trust me.
Otias: It's ok Niri, I don't have to fix something. I'm happy he is alive.
Niri: Haha you really loved your family.
Otias: It's the only thing that kept me alive all this time.
Niri: You know I love you, so I don't keep you alive?
Otias: Yes, yes you do.
Niri: So you won't go after him?
Otias: I guess not..
Niri (in her mind): Should I kiss him? Would that be strange?

Niri approached Otias slowly, grabbed his hand and tried to kiss him. Otias looked a little sad. He backed off because of the kiss.

Otias: Is something wrong? Why kiss me all of a sudden?
Niri: Cause I love you, are you dumb?
Otias: Should this be a fine reason for me to kiss me like that?
Niri: What is wrong with you?
Otias: I don't know, I just hate my life right now.
Niri: Why?
Otias: Because I do. I just don't wanna see you anymore. I can't do anything for you.
Niri: What happened? Tell me!!!!

Otias pushed Niri down. She started crying... She thought she did something to Otias, but he didn't want to talk about this problem at all. Niri got up and started walking slowly towards her home. Otias was sad in a weird way, but he did something so awful to Niri because he couldn't do anything to help her.

Niri shouting loud: Don't ever talk to me again idiot!!!
Otias: I won't, but you have to promise me one thing. You have to live your life to the fullest.
Niri: Why would I do that? Why should I listen to you?
Otias: Just do what I told you.
Niri: Ohh so now I should believe you? Did you ever loved me like you said?
Otias: Yes, I love you even now.. But I can't stay in your life. I won't do you any good if you are together with me.
Niri: If that's what you think then it's your choice. I can't force you to do something you don't wanna do it. Just stay safe.. We could just remain friends if you want at least that.
Otias: I guess I can try be just a friend. I guess this is goodbye for now.
Niri: I thought you are the one for me but...I guess not. Bye..
Otias: I guess this is it...

I guess this is it.... I sat in the rain for a couple of hours just crying. Is this life? I don't want to live like that.. I should better be dead. I'm not even good enough to die so it's useless.. Everything in this world is just wrong, EVERYTHING. I should've been happy with her, but I'm not good for her.