Crazy • Tupac Shakur

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|Nova Simone|
I wasn't sure where I was but I loved it here. It was such an ethereal environment and I truly felt like the best version of myself. I also wasn't sure how long I'd been here but I knew I wouldn't be able to stay much longer. I was sitting on a tree swing going through a notebook of all the poems Pac had written to me, these weren't even half of them I was sure these were just the ones that I had reserved in my memory.
I missed him. I even missed my mama. I would stay here forever but I didn't want to put them through that kind of pain. I sighed closing the notebook taking in my surroundings one more time, letting myself appreciate every detail.
I closed my eyes taking a deep breath and opened them in a hospital room. I looked around seeing my mother sleeping in a chair and seeing the room was pretty decorated with flowers. I opened my mouth to speak but there was a tube down my throat making me cough which made my mother wake up. She hit the nurse call button and smiled at me. They came and removed the tube and gave me some water.
Mom: Don't ever scare me like this again Nova Simone, I mean it.
Nova: I'm sorry mama...where's Pac?
Before she could open her mouth he was walking through the door eating some chips. I felt like I was seeing him for the first time.
Mom: Imma give y'all a minute
She stepped out and Pac came and stood next to me. I wish I would've thought of what I was going to say while I was in my other world.
Nova: I'm so sorry baby...I-I just had so many people who wanted me to be better and I didn't want to disappoint nobody. I know that's a bad excuse and I know this not what you signed up for so I understand if you don't wanna be with me no more
Tupac: Superstar I done had 3 months to leave, I aint going nowhere. You crazy for real if you think you ever getting rid of me
I smiled as he leaned down and placed a kiss on my lips which filled me with a feeling I couldn't even replicate in my other world.
Eventually I got back home and I had gifts galore from Mr. Shakur. He had birthday gifts and welcome home gifts basically throughout my whole house. After this experience I truly did start getting better. I really wanted to get to a point where I could go without pills, I didn't like how they made me feel, and I'd been successful. When my mother found out she was quite upset expressing me being off of them is what sent me on a spiral in the first place. She was too angry to try and listen and understand and we hadn't talked in a couple weeks since that conversation.
I was taking a break from my career because that was really the root of all of this. I now had plenty of time to focus on myself and things that made me happy such as my relationship with Tupac. Life was genuinely good, it was finally to the point to where I thought maybe, just maybe I'd get my happily ever after.