Sir. [hotch x oc]

Ch. 5

I got up from my hotel floor as I heard my phone buzzing, I had thrown it on the bed after I got off the phone with Spencer. I crawled on the bed and picked it up to see who was calling.

'Incoming call from Aaron Hotchner'

No. I couldn't answer it. He literally just broke my heart. There's no way I could speak to him without either sobbing, or getting myself fired. I let the phone ring until it shut off. I went to the bathroom to wash my face off and cool it down. It had gotten really red and hot after crying for nearly an hour.

I went to the bathroom and saw myself in the mirror. My mascara was running and my eyes were bloodshot. I was a mess. I turned on the faucet and threw some water at my face, washing it off. I had to put on a whole new face of makeup now. I quickly did my makeup routine. I was about to plop down on the bed and relax, but I heard my phone buzzing again. It was Derek this time. I answered the phone in relief.

"Hey, pretty girl. You alright? You seemed upset in the car."

"Hey sexy, I'm alright." I say as I let out a small giggle at the names we called each other.

"Let me know if I can help you with anything alright? Plus we need to get to the police office, they want to talk to us about a potential suspect."

"I'm on my way."

I hung up the phone and sighed, knowing I'd have to face Aaron again. I grabbed my bag off the bed and started heading to the car waiting outside for me. 

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We talked to the local police officers and we had our key suspect. We were sure he was our unsub, all we had to do was find him. This case had been surprisingly easy. I tried to distance myself as far as I could away from Aaron the entire time, standing close to Spencer. It was around 8 pm as I was walking out when I felt a hand grab my arm. I turned around, it was him again.

"Hotch, what could you possibly want? You've embarrassed me enough haven't you?"

"Anna, you didn't let me finish in the plane. I was going to say that I didn't think we could still work with each other if we were together."

My jaw dropped. Was Aaron Hotchner saying he felt the same way?

"What are you saying Aaron?"

"Anna, I feel the same way." He said, stepping closer to me. 

I felt my face get hot, really hot despite the cool temperatures from outside, even though it was Arizona.

"Wait, what do you mean you're not sure if we can still work together?"

"I'm not sure how Strauss would feel about us being together and working in the same team."

I sighed as I realized she probably wouldn't like it.

"I think we should be fine as long as it doesn't affect our work performance." I take a few steps closer to him, smirking. 

"I understand, but I'm still not sure."

"We could just... not tell anyone." I say, slightly smiling at the thought of keeping a secret like that.

"I don't know. It seems like the whole team already knows how you feel."

"Yeah, how I feel, not you. We could just say you didn't feel the same way."

"I'll think about it. Do you want me to drive you to the hotel?"

"That'd be great." I say giving him a big smile.

Oh. My. God. AARON FEELS THE SAME WAY?! Just a few hours ago, I thought he would never feel the same. Now here I am. 

I got in the car's passenger seat. It was only us in the car, everyone else had already left the station. I looked over at him, smiling at the conversation we just had. Soon looking down at his hands on the steering wheel.

I want them around my neck.

I quickly snapped out of my daze, eyes widening at the thoughts that just crossed my mind.  I palm my forehead with my hand and look out the window, still smiling. I sat back in my seat a bit, but I soon feel my phone buzz from underneath my thigh. It was Spencer.

Spencer 8:29 pm - How are you getting to the hotel? I kinda left you there, I'm sorry. I went back with Emily and Derek. 

Anna 8:29 pm - Aaron is driving me there, I've got a LOT to tell you tonight

Spencer 8:30 pm - I thought you hated him now??

Anna 8:30 pm - No way.

I put my phone down, still smiling.

"What's so funny?" Aaron says, looking over smiling at me.

I smiled back at him, I loved seeing him smile. It was really heartwarming. He never smiled unless he was with Jack.

"Nothing" I smile back at him, looking out at the window.

We eventually made it back to the hotel.

"Aaron." I got out of the car, stopping in front of the hotel doors.

I stepped closer to him

"Swear to me you feel the same way."

"I swear, Anna." He put his hands on my waist and pulled me closer to him.

I had to look up at him now, he was basically towering over me. His hands on my waist made me some way I'd never felt before. I had butterflies, but it was over my entire body. Especially between my thighs. I stared up at him for about 30 seconds before he took his hands off me. 

"You can tell Spencer, I know you will, but we have to keep this on the down low until we're sure we won't get fired."

"I promise. Goodnight Aaron." I started walking in the hotel.

I hurried to my room, calling Spencer on the way. 

"Spence, you won't believe what just happened. I swear to god it was like I was in a movie or something. Come to my room, you can still bring the ice cream."

"Gotcha. On my way now."

I hung up the phone and unlocked my hotel room door with my card.

I walked in and something didn't feel right. I felt like I was being watched. My happy, euphoric mood very quickly fading away. I hurried over to the window and took a quick peek outside. Everything seemed like normal, I didn't notice anything out of the usual. I closed the blinds as I heard a knock on the door, making me jump. I run over to the door and open it.

"Hi Spence." I say in a unsettled tone, still trying to convince myself that I was just being paranoid. 

"I come bearing gifts!" He pulled out a tub of ice cream and a couple large spoons from a bag he was carrying. "I found it in a freezer in the lobby." He said, smiling like a goof ball.

"Spence, you supposed to pay for it." I say, standing with my arms at my side, surprised by the fact that Spencer probably just stole some ice cream from a five star hotel.

"Oops." He says, doing the same pose as me. 

"Whatever, give me a spoon." I say, smiling and snatching a plastic spoon from his hands.

I sat down on the bed, pulling some of the covers over my legs, him doing the same thing. I grabbed the remote on the nightstand and flip to a channel playing a Christmas movie. I grabbed a spoon and popped the lid off of the tub of ice cream. 

"Ah ah ah, wait a second, you still need to tell me what happened." Spence says as he nudges me a bit.

"Oh you're right. Ok so basically-"

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"No way. He told you you could tell me?"

"Is that really all that you got from that?" I say smiling at Spencer who seemed very excited at the fact that I was only allowed to tell him.

"I'm basically dating our boss now. I think anyways. It's honestly kind of confusing. He doesn't want Strauss to find out in case she doesn't like that we're together like that. But the way he held me, it just felt genuine. I don't know how to exactly feel. It happened kinda fast." 

It had only been a few days into my return and I was secretly seeing my boss. 

What the fu-