Are You Aware Of What You Make Me Feel, baby?

Realization

Lena was holding her glass of scotch, she was standing on her penthouse porch watching the night skyline of National City. 
She thought about the events of the day, Kara's return made her so happy. 
She missed her so much, every moment she was in Phantom Zone reminded her she was to blame for it. 
But it's over, Kara is back and at her welcome back party Kara thanked her and told her over and over that it was not her fault, she wanted to believe it. 

At the party Lena didn't take her eyes off Kara, her stomach ached only from seeing her, happy and radiant that all her friends around her. 
Kara even introduced her to her dad, Kara's face was so proud to say 
"Dad,  this is my really good friend, her name is Lena Luthor and she is the one who saved us", there was an official handshake and he made a questioning face, 
"Remember the sun bomb? Lena made it!" 
"Wow, this is the first time I see a woman with an impressive scientific ability like in Krypton."
Lena smiled shyly "Really it's nothing .." 
Kara clung to her and grabbed her shoulder,  
"What are you talking about? You saved me, us! I will always be grateful for that." 
Lena smiled shyly and Kara left her to talking to Alex Nia and Briny. 

If you think about it, Lena now knew Kara's two families, the biological one and the adoptive one.
And now she's also part of Kara's family, the Super- Friend family, and she's very happy about it, she's never felt so familial in her life. 
And she suddenly realized that Kara is her family, she makes her feel that way, and she wants that feeling to be forever. 
She takes another drink to calm her feelings. 
She looks at Kara, and she thinks to herself that she should talk to Kara alone, without any more people, she must tell her how she feels in four eyes.
But she didn't manage to do that because John informed to supergirl that she had a case to take care of and she left. 
The party is over and Lena is back home.  

Lena sipped her scotch and sighed,
when would she tell Kara how she make her feel?  

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Seeing Lena after all this time when she was stuck in Phantom Zone made Kara feel  very strange with Lena .. 
After Alex hugged her she saw Lena in the corner, kara disconnected from Alex and she approached Lena. 
"I guess you saved the situation again?" She smiled at her .
Lena breathed in relief,
"Kara, thank God you're here, I'm so sorry, this...it's all my fault I'm so sorry." 
"Lena Don't talk nonsense, I don't see it as your fault, don't feel guilty for a crime you did not commit..and the opposite! I thank you for saving me!" 
"Is that means that you forgive me ...?" she asked in censured. 
Kara laughed, "Okay I can do this if that's what you want ...." 
"Thank you Kara." 
"What? Thanks? Come here!" She opened her arms and Lena hugged her, both of them closing their eyes in that hug.
Kara felt Lena shiver in this hug, she tightened her grip more and suddenly it hits her, she wants Lena to always be by her side, like that, holding her tight and never letting her go.  

After the party Kara felt she needed to talk to Lena alone. 
She landed on Lena's porch,
Lena sat on the couch, and she heard the waving cape, she looked up from her glass of scotch and saw Supergirl. 
"Hey ... Lena?" She asked hesitantly  
"Kara hi ...." Lena got up to greet her. 
"I wanted to talk to you alone, we did not have a chance to talk alone at the party ..." 
Lena grinned, "Now do you want to talk to me alone?" She sipped her scotch. 
Kara made a confused face. 
"Are you drunk?" 
"of course not" she said with unconvincing face. 
"Okay ... I see this is not a good time ... I'll come back another time." 
She was with her back to Lena when she heard her say "Are you aware of how you make me feel?" 
She turned to her, "What?" 
Is that what Kara thinks it is? Is Lena going to confess her feelings for her? 
"You mean you feel ....-" 
"Vulnerable! Yes!" 
"You are not vulnerable Lena ..." 
"I am vulnerable and stupid and so idiot." 
Kara approached her "Lena, what happened? Why are you talking like that?" 
Lena walked away from her, "Years, Kara, years I feel different with you than anyone else and I just ignored it, like an idiot. 
But then I found out who you really are..... and  I was so busy hating you for what you did to me that I forgot... or ignored... or replaced my feeling for you...I  hated you instead of feeling another thing I felt for you .. " 
Kara stood there and did not move, "Lena you mean you L ....- " 
"I felt love for you Kara! " She said in a broken voice, and tears began to fill her eyes.
"It was so simple ... and I as an idiot chose to ignore it and because of my hatred you get stuck in the worst place imaginable for you..." 
Kara approached her she took the glass in Lena's hand and set it aside. 
"Lena," Kara took a deep breath to say the things she wanted to say as clearly as possible. 
"The feeling you feel is the same feeling I feel for you". 
Lena looked at her, surprised. her eyes still shining with her tears. 
"You're not the only one who felt different, I also felt different with you ... I always felt different with you. You were always there, even when I had other relationships, and I ignored from those feelings, from the feelings you made me feel, maybe I thought it was from my partner I had then, and I didn't understand...I didn't understand that it all came from you."
Kara wiped away the tears that had fallen from Lena's cheek. 
"So .. it means that .... "
"It means I love you too Lena, from the moment I saw you."
Their looks at each other, with a long eye contact, they wanted to see each other as long as possible, to learn each other's face, because now it hits different. 
"Lena, I don't want our first kiss be when you're drunk ...."
"You're right Kara ... I want to feel you, really feel you, and not when I'm like this..."
They clung each other foreheads and closed their eyes capture the moment.