Shoto's POV
What's going on with me?
Why did I just do that
What was that kiss for
Everything seems like a blur after the kiss I shared (y/n). Everything around us seem to stop. It felt like we stay like that forever even though it was just a few seconds. I don't know what came over me. The feeling of being around her, to touch her. It has never really happen before. To be comfortable to talking to someone so freely. For a few months I've made new friends, more than I ever did in my entire life. And I got to re-meet a childhood friend as well, but something about her is so different. To be driven to someone and feel good around them.
Happiness, excitement, nervous, pleasure, lust?
I feel all this feelings all at once when I'm around her, no body else. I thought I was sick, but when you feel sick you don't feel well. On the contrary I feel better than I've ever been
So when we finally had the day for ourselves I felt euphoria coursing through my body. Her smile, her laugh, the faces she makes, how her (h/l)(h/c) compliments her soft (s/c), her kind (e/c) eyes. Everything about her draws me near like some type of magnet. So badly that I didn't even realize what I've done. My lips gracing her soft lips. At the heat of the moment it felt right, her here with me. A pleasure I've never felt before.
After that we silently walk back to the dorms. I wanted to say something but what can I say. Why did I kiss her. What are This feelings I feel for her. It's a feeling I've never felt before towards no one. It makes me wonder what she feels. Does she feel the same type of emotions as I do. In my perspective that kiss felt amazing, but what does she think i wonder.
Was I not supposed to do that, kiss her.
That's was just a few hours ago. When we got here our classmates were in the main room. Naturally I was tired excuse myself while she stay behind. I was not trying to avoid her but I needed time to think for a moment.
For a few hours I just sat on my desk chair looking straight at the wall.
After sitting there led me to know where. Maybe I can ask Midoriya for help, he seems like the type to know about everything.
Y/n POV
Aaaaaaah
What just happen
I sat at the edge of my bed as my back flop on the soft mattress. After much needed rest from walking all day, I needed to rest. My legs dangle at the edge of the bed. Finally I was in my room after we got back I got swarm by the girls asking for details. Shoto excuse himself and left me with the girls in the common room. I was trying my hardest to answer all there questions but they mention if anything special happened in which I denied. But I'm was not sure if they believe me since my face was all fluster up.
I did notice a certain pony haired girl sitting there. Yoayorozu. She didn't say anything she just sat there as the conversation went on. All she did was glare at me. A while back when she confronted me after school in the hallway. She told me to back of him if I wasn't really interested. I didn't understand it a few weeks back, but I believe do now. Youyorozu has a crush on Shoto. Yeah anyone could have notice that but it took me days to finally realize it. Shoto mostly spends all his time with me he didn't really paid attention to her. Given her no chance to get near him. So she told me to back up.
But do I really want to. I feel it's to early to say, but I believe I also have feelings for the mismatch eyed boy. I don't know but just being around make all types of feelings and emotions to run wild. My heart beats faster and I get all nervous and I never do that with anyone else. He makes me feel at ease with myself. I hate a lot things about myself, yet he always fines a way to make me feel better. And that kiss, it felt amazing. He lend forward and press his lips against mine and my reaction was to kiss back. It felt right, like it was supposed to.
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I love him
I think
As a friend?
No this feelings is much deeper
So much deeper
Why is he the one to make me feel this way
After all the glaring from Yoayorozu I decided to excuse myself and go to my room.
She must have realize she loved for him long ago. Longer than me. And I just came in and step in her way. She must hate me. I mean I would to too. To realize the person you look up to and love doesn't pay attention to you cause his more interested in talking to another girl. I didn't mean to, in fact I wanted to become friends with everyone. But somehow I created an enemy for myself for just liking someone one.
But is it so bad to admit I actually have feelings for him. Anyway does that kiss mean something. Does he feel the same? Or was it accidental and he didn't mean it. I don't know what to think what do say to him now. After that kiss we just walk back silently without a word. Does he hate me?
I don't know what to think. I feel like not thinking about it.
In any case there something I have to worry about more. He's getting suspicious. I was never good at lying so is he getting caught on to my lie.
I wonder what he really knows.
I stood up from my bed
"Stupid Enji couldn't just tell him!" I was so frustrated that I threw my alarm clock at the wall and it broke.
If only he just told him from the start. I admitted my fate because there was no way out. I'm so weak against my mother she threatened me, abuse me, and push me into this stupid marriage!
What does he think Shoto will react when he tells him. I've know him for a few weeks now and i feel like I know how he'll react. Betrayal.
He already has a hard time getting comfortable with people. What happens when the person he trust the most lies to him.
I don't even want to think about it
But I'm the stupid one here
I had the opportunity to tell him but like coward I ran away and lied straight at his face. After all his done for me he doesn't deserve this. I don't deserve his kindness, I don't deserve nothing from him not even his love.
So I should probably just forget about him. Build up the courage to tell him the truth and get this over with and whatever happens, happens. Because I know he'll probably never want me to see me again once I tell him and it's gonna hurt me if I do love in that way.
I laid on my bed and felt myself getting tired. I closed my eyes and felt into a deep slumber before I mumbled out
"Stupid feelings"
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I woke up by the sunlight going trough my window as it layed softly on my eyes.
Hmmmm
I twist and turn trying to get some sleep till I realize something. It's Monday.
I sat up on my bed and stretch my limbs as i put on my slippers and collected my things to take a shower.
After much thinking I was awoken with a horrible headache, nothing serious. The cold shower did help though.
I change into my uniform and step out into the common room.
"Good morning (y/n)! Breakfast is ready" Mina scram out as she place a few plates on the table.
I smile and sat down "Thanks"
