Tyrell
"What the fuck is wrong with you?" Emmanuel asked when I walked in the kitchen. After driving around all last night trying to keep myself from cursing Bassir out I ended up at his house. No fucking body was home so I drove back home and went to sleep.
I've been up all night thinking about this one nigga. I ain't never been pressed over a bitch so to be pressed over a nigga is mind blowing to me. I can't possibly want to be with him even though that's what every fiber in my being is telling me.
"Nothing nigga leave me alone. All in my shit like you the damn cops." He flipped me off walking away. I'm not in the mood for his shit. I got class anyway and I'm ready to curse Bassir out. I tucked my gun in my pants and left out.
I got to class before everybody else. Bassir hadn't even come in yet. He still wasn't here when people started rolling in. That's not like him.
"Hey I'm surprised you're here on time you usually come in late as hell." A random nigga in class said to me. I glared at him. Fuck is he talking to me for.
"Hi I'm the substitute for today." A short lady said walking in. "Mr. Matthews is out but will be back soon." She was a good looking lady but the fact he was not here today only added to my anger. Fuck this shit I could be doing better shit than sitting around waiting for an asshole. I got up and walked out. She tried to call me back but I wasn't listening.
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I called Luck so we could go over some new hires. Since he's coming I should be expecting Star. They have been getting close but haven't had sex and won't make it official. It's always some shit with them. Always a show of who's more dominant and I think that's why they haven't fucked yet.
"You got food? I'm hungry." Luck said as soon as he entered. I was at my home office because I couldn't stand being around people right now. Anybody but Luck would annoy me into shooting them.
"First of all nigga you not gon walk in my house and not say 'Hi' second you don't live here, you don't eat here." He plopped next to me and pouted.
"Please. Star is starving me at his house. All that man eats is vegetables and fruit like a rabbit."
"Nobody told you to stay at his house or even go with him." He groaned.
"What's wrong with eating right. You guys eat like cavemen, all that meat is not healthy." Star walked in and sat on the chair across from the couch.
"Don't play like you don't eat meat." Luck had a smile on his face. They are already being nasty.
"Okay if y'all gon be here and be nasty y'all gotta get the fuck out." They frowned at each other then back at me.
"What's wrong with you?" Star asked with his thick accent. It was hard to understand his ass sometimes which just added to my annoyance.
"Yeah you acting like you got a stick in yo ass."
"Fuck you." I sat back with a glare.
"It'll help if you talk about it Tyrell." I looked over at him and sighed. I need to vent anyway so I told them about Bassir and my conflicting emotions.
"So to sum it all up I'm confused and don't understand why I feel like I wanna kill him but also protect him." They nodded before they started to think.
"We told you to fuck him the first time you ranted about him." Luck shook his head.
"Nigga I'm not gay." We all went quiet after that.
"Okay I got it. You like him." Luck was the first to speak.
"No the fuck I don't." I spoke as soon as he said it. I don't like no fucking man I'm not gay. Fuck outta here.
"No Tyrell, I think Chance is right. I'm going to ask you some questions you answer honestly. Do you find yourself thinking about him often?" I nodded. "Do you like being around him?" He is all I think about. I like being around him even though we argue most of the time.
"Kinda. He's an asshole but not that bad to be around." He's funny and smart and he doesn't judge me.
"You were mad when you saw him with another man?" Luck asked.
"Yeah I mean he's a bitch for that one." I nodded.
"Okay Tyrell it looks like you like him." I was about to curse them out but I paused to really think about it. I think I might actually like a male. He makes me feel angry but safe at the same time and I get a strong urge to protect him and his son. I like looking at him, being around him, and his smile makes my day better.
"Okay but I'm not gay."
"Well it's only one way to test that." Luck said with a smirk on his face.
*~*~*
"What the fuck are we doing here?" They took me to a fucking gay bar. They forced me to get dressed, and dragged me all the way to a gay bar.
"It's a test to see if you like men or not." Star was smiling and leading us in. "I own it so we should be fine." We passed the bouncers with no problem.
Once I got inside I was ready to turn back around. Men were all around shirtless and dancing and laughing. Niggas was kissing and grinding on each other. I'm not feeling this at all.
"Oh hell no. I'm not gay this shit got me sick."
"Come on bro you never know. Look just go sit at the bar and try to tolerate it." Luck pleaded. I sighed and did as he said. I was sitting for a while before somebody decided to come up to me.
"I haven't seen you around here before." A guy sat down next to me. He wasn't ugly I just don't like niggas. Well I think Bassir is nice looking. Who doesn't though.
"It's my first time here."
"Oh you just came out." He had a sneaky grin on his face. His eyes were playful but I hope he knows he is not getting what he thinks he is.
"I'm not gay." He laughed. What the fuck is funny?
"Your in a gay bar. I saw you walk in with two dudes who are now making out in the vip lounge." I looked over and sure enough Luck and Star was battling it out with their tongues.
"Yes well I'm here for them not because I want dick." I was starting to get irritated and I just wanted to go home or call my best friend. I miss him.
"Don't be like that once you try it, I'm sure you'll like it." He touched my arm and my reflexes were so quick I punched him without thinking. He was holding his now bleeding nose.
"Don't fucking touch me." I backed away from the man. I need to be anywhere but here. I quickly got in my car so I could go handle my problem.
*~*~*
Bassir
I'm so damn bored. Romero is still at Charm and Chad's place. I think they are stealing my baby from me. Josh is out of town for the weekend taking pictures of kangaroos or something. So I'm stuck laying in bed buck naked bored out of my mind.
I had to work today at the actual office space. Beau was there to make me laugh at least but other than that I've been bored all day. It was hard staying focused when all I thought about was that dream from last night. It's been on my mind all day and every time I think about it I get turned on and mad at the same time.
