My Bully

part 139

Kobe: i'm just trying so hard for her all i want is another chance but i'm scared i'll fuck up and she'll never even look at me the same when she looks at me i feel safe and like i can be myself but when she looks at me when i mess up i feel ashamed and disappointed and that dark feeling comes back and i feel suffocated i can't keep letting her down
Cherry: love comes with pain even if it's the kind we don't want that's life and it's going to kick us in the ass a few times before it lets us be happy but there's nothing you can do about it and it's not gonna change for you so you gotta use what you have with what you got
Kobe: what do i have huh
Cherry: you have the love and the jokes to make her the happiest girl in the world but if you keep downing yourself about everything you do not only are you gonna hurt yourself but you're gonna hurt her again and again and again and let me tell you after a while you just give up and walk away soon you get tired of the hurt tired of the apologizes the lies the arguments the nights you cry alone soon all of that starts to become too much and you give up on the one thing that made you the happiest you've ever been it's harder to walk away from something than it is to get into it so trust me if you think y/n leaving you was any easier for her than it was for you then you're totally wrong if anything it hurt her more
Kobe: i'm not even sorry for anything anymore i'm just sorry i let her down i feel like i failed her i was supposed to be the one to make her happy and give her the dream life like i promised her but i lied and all i did was break her heart
Cherry: you think you were messing up but she thought you were perfect she thought everyday argument or not was gonna get better you were too focused on the bad while she was focused on the good but soon the bad became too much for her to handle and she felt like it was all crumbling down so you know what she did she went to something else that felt stable and felt like it wasn't going to break she found stability in another man because the one who was supposed to give her it the most wasn't even giving her the time of day i'm gonna tell you this because i don't want to see her hurt again but if you want to keep her act like it
Kobe: how
Cherry: if she's sad make her happy if she's mad make her happy if she's insecure give her clarity and make her happy kobe the answer is just keep her happy then if anything happens you know you did your part and maybe it just isn't meant to be but if you keep doing this what you're doing and expect everything to last then it's not going to happen women need clarity not more confusion and i promise if it doesn't come from you then there's other guys lined up that want to so either you give her happiness or lose her and also you gotta work on that
Kobe: work on what
Cherry: acting like you don't need anyone with that mentality she'll feel like not only do you not need anyone but you don't need her and she'll start to distance herself accordingly then you don't have to worry about hurting her because she's gonna hurt herself the most when she has to walk away
Kobe: i'm gonna do the best i can to keep her happy i just need the chance to get her back and when i have it i promise i'm gonna do right no matter what i have to sacrifice when we broke up i thought i was touch deprived so i did dumb shit to try and get it back but i still felt like something was missing and nothing worked and i realized i needed y/n i wanna love her for the rest of my life no matter if she hates me or doesn't want me back but i have so many stories i can't wait to tell to amerie and hopefully other kids we have when i got into that wreck i thought i was gonna die and it's crazy because when i got to the hospital that's the mentality i had i just knew i wasn't walking out of here but then it was like i felt her presence and i wanted to do better i realized i had to do better or i was never going to see her face again and a life without her is not one that i want to live now i just gotta get her to know that
Y: would it be crazy if i told you i stood here listening
Kobe: how long were you standing there
Y: the whole time i knew there was something you wanted to tell me but you wouldn't so i got cherry to make you tell me
Cherry: sorry she comes first
Kobe: you tricked me
Y: and i'm glad she did
Kobe: well if you heard all of that do i get one more chance please
Y: it was pretty convincing i just feel like two more people should help me decide
Kiya: i say yes that was cute
Vanessa: i second that
Kobe: and i'm embarrassed
Cherry: see being embarrassed for talking about your feelings work on that too
Kobe: oh shut up traitor

everyone laughed then y/n walked to kobe handing amerie to cherry and she put both hands on the sides of his face kissing him while he grabbed her face kissing her back

Vanessa: reminds me of me and your dad the day before we decided to try for kiya
Kobe: oh come on that's just nasty
Kiya: i could've lived my whole life not hearing that

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