Destiny

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"He is about to leave!" I heard eomma yelling from downstairs when I was in the midst of tieing the knot of my footwear. "Just a second." I said while tieing it but messing it up again and again somehow. I heard the screeching sound of the door and without even caring for tieing the laces properly I messily tied it up and ran downstairs. It was one of the... okay most of the worst decision that I take on my usual basis. As I ran down the stairs, I happened to step over the lace and... I mean what could you expect... It got tangled in my other foot and I fell down flat on the ground. I closed my eyes tightly, ready to feel the deadly pain on my nose and god knows where other. "Stupid." I heard a silent mumble as I got the shivers down my spine. It was that... Yes... It was that voice. Him... Namjoon-ssi. I opened my eyes in an instant. "I... I'm..." C'mon Y/N speak something!? Usually I'm that kind of human whom you can't make herself shut her mouth for even a bit... But I don't know what happens when I'm around this man. "You should look after yourself dear." I heard eomma saying and Namjoon-ssi let his hold go off of me slowly, can we stay a bit longer like that? Maybe, no. "I'm sorry I just-" "don't know how to tie my laces." I was cut off by Namjoon-ssi's mocking voice. Ouch... It hurts. "How do you know?" I heard eomma saying when I was giving death glare to this man standing next to me with straight face yet mocking voice. He signed with his eyes towards my feet which was still tangled in the ties of my footwear. "I heard the opening sound of door and I thought he's gonna leave so I just carelessly tied it." My eyes bulged out, with a pouty face and throwing my hands anywhere in the air, I explained or maybe exaggerated. After realising the gesture I was behaving in... I fixed my composure and cleared my throat. "It wasn't my fault." I said in a low tone and looked away in the direction, anywhere but not in my mother-in-law and her son. After a great long silence what I could hear was silent laughs. I could feel my cheeks heating up, they are making fun of me? I looked at them and the duo was laughing hard without any sound. "Urgh." I thumped my legs like 'a child demanding for balloons in a fair.' Storming out of the house I closed the gate and leaned through it. "Tiffin~ Darling." I heard eomma saying with a slight laugh in her tone. It was again pin drop silence, curiousity took the best of me and at the instant when I turned around to open the door to peek inside, I saw Namjoon-ssi standing just infront of me. My heart started racing, I couldn't breathe properly, why do you have that effect on me Namjoon? "I'm sorry for the way I behaved." I said in a single breath but the latter didn't let a word out. He just started walking ahead of me without saying a word, with his poker face, ofcourse! Did I made him mad? Is he angry? No! That can't be!? That's the impression I left on him? I started following him like a lost puppy, fiddling my fingers on the sleeves of my hanbok. How should I make it up for him? Should I dance infront of him? Will it be okay? Or should I joke? A lame joke? But he is an intelligent personality... He will not like it... Should I do something funny? But what if it embarasses him infront of everyone? He'll get even more mad at me. What should I do? Should I do some kind gesture? Like asking him to let me hold the lunch box? Or maybe let him sit on my shoulders so that I could give him a piggy back ride? I can do that? I looked at the latter, 5'11, 75kg... Then I tried looking at myself in the mirror of the clock-shop we were passing by. 5'4, 56kg. No I can't do that. As I was still lost in my overthinking world, I bumped myself into something, something soft, something that smells like lavenders. I opened my eyes and it was pitch black, ofcourse my face was still engraved in whatever that was. I distanced myself from that object and it was my worst nightmare. It was Namjoon-ssi's back! WHY?? I could just hear him sighing and he started walking again. Did I made him even more mad? Great Y/N you clearly ruined his mood now. Now, you carry no chances. No chance with him. He probably thinks you are a mannerless, childish girl, who can't take care of herself. Totally opposite of him. He won't like you anymore. You had a chance of the size of rice grain, and now you lost it as well. Great... Here is your reward. "I'm really sorr-" as i was about to apologise "there is this great place for breakfast, do you maybe want to eat something?" Is he so mad at me that he can't even listen to my apology? Did I annoy him over the limit today? "Mrs. Kim" I was snapped back from the wide ranging, tall waved ocean of my thoughts by none other than Namjoon-ssi. I tilted my head to the side signing him to continue his sentence. "Want to eat something?" I came back to my composure, royal lady that I am. I scoffed. "I don't think I have any kind of appetite-" but before me my stomach had to cut me and complete my sentence with a grumble. I face palmed and turned my face to the side to hide myself from this very embarrassing situation I put myself into. FOOL! YOU HAVE TO DO EVERYKIND OF EMBARASSING STUFFS INFRONT OF NAMJOON-SSI ONLY!? "Just a bit ahead is that shop." I heard Namjoon-ssi. I felt him turning away and walking. Removing my hands from my face to resist myself from bumping into any random stranger and embarassing myself even more infront of Namjoon-ssi, I started walking or maybe following?... him. I looked up to his head and saw his shoulders moving up and down, was he giggling? Is it because of me? Did I made him smile? Every other thought of me embarrassing myself faded and the clouds of happiness covered those thoughts... Namjoon-ssi is laughing because of me? I made him smile? 

Another day at office, another day of me sleeping in his office... but guess what, what else happened? I got so tired today because of Namjoon-ssi... No, not because of him... because of my stupidity. I was getting bored so I asked him for some work and he gave me infinite of those. fetching papers, fetching these and those... go upstairs, come downstairs... run errands. I swear to the almighty god that I've never ever did so much of work in my life! I got so imerssed in the work that I got so tired and I don't even know when my eyes got glued to close themselves. 

I saw her panting as she was constantly moving here and there... no it's not because I want to trouble her.. it's because I want to see the faces she makes while working, while she gets fed up with me and my demands. The pout, the her flipping her hair, her taking breathes of being done with me after I ask for any kind of help, it's just my selfish want. "Can I-" I was about to keep another work on her shoulders, to burden her but when I moved my eyes from the paper as I didn't hear her sighing or cursing under her breath, I looked at her to only find her laying her head on the table, peace spread all over her face. She fell asleep. A smile was automatically glued on my face as I looked down and shook my head at her adorable self. Her cheek was pressed against the table making her look even more adorable. Some of the strands of her hair suddenly fell down through the ears to her face. With the urge to remove every strands of hair from her face, I extended my arms as my fingers contacted her pale, smooth face. "Namjoon-ssi, I'm tired" I heard her mumbling in her sleep as she pouted afterwards. I was startled that she might wake up, but after having no signs of her waking up I was relieved... I chuckled at her adorable self and looked at her, an unknown wide smile on my face. 

It was the time we had to leave the office but there was no sign that she will wake up any sooner... I shook her shoulders lightly in order to wake her up.. I even called her name but everything went in vain when she showed no sign of waking up. This was the last choice now. I kept my belongings on the floor and picked her up on my back. 

Closing the door "I embarrassed myself infront of him." I heard her mumbling and leaving a breath on my neck giving me shivers, giving me goosebumps. as I was in the middle of the way, I felt something damp on the side of my neck... being afraid that she might have drooled on me I touched the spot only to find her face there... "I want to eat drumrolls." I heard her saying as she kept on doing what she was doing... eating my neck? 

Having a weird yet strangely good way through home, I knocked on the door only to find my mother opening it... Her eyes widened as she looked at both of us. I signalled her to stop making any further noise and she nodded... I took both of us inside as I heard giggles and chattering all through the house. Ignoring everything, I laid her down on the mattress.

I came into the room again with a plate of food, expecting her to wake up by now but I was wrong... I placed the plate on the left to where she was sleeping and covered it with other one. As I did so, I saw her turning to my side... her plump, soft looking, pink lips mumbling something. I think I troubled her way too much today... A slight smile was now visible on my face. Why are you so adorable. Why do I feel like I can't breath everytime I look at you. Why does my heart race everytime I think about you. Why do I always feel like my heart thumping everytime I hear your name. I slid her blankets on her to properly cover her... Keeping my hand on her small face I slid it all the way through her cheeks.

Is it love? What is love?