Snow is falling it's middle July
Just another day here in my mind
Can't escape what's inside
I've been running my whole damn life Years go by but the colors won't change Been so long since
I've felt anything
Feelings fading so fast
Like I'm watching my own life through glass
Black and white only colours I see Sunless sky somehow stuck on repeat But I hold it all down
Don't want anyone to feel this but me
I'm only free from it when
I'm asleep The more I think the more
I feel myself sink Back to this empty place It's a nightmare I could never explain
Can't outrun the cold When it's in my head
It's been getting old Wishing I was dead
I was dead As this overcast suffocates me I'm done waiting on some sign of spring
I would rather lay here in my bed
Than have to face what lives here in my head
Hell just being awake
Hurts much more than I could ever explain
No one sees
But it's always December in me
No matter where I go it's pouring rain
In my head seasons never change
And it's killing me
No one sees
But it's always December in me
Tried so hard to be brave
But the reasons this life is worth living Get hard to remember
When it's always December
