You woke up on the table in the middle of the room, shit this is embarrassing.
You looked around and saw everyone crowded around you, then, you felt a pain in your head. I must have hit my head. You began to sit up but your dad said, "Maeve, lay back down, relax for a minute."
You continued to sit up and you pushed him away, "No, I'm fine."
No you weren't.
You still felt faint but you tried your best to hide it. You got off the table and said, "I'll be ready in just a minute-"
They knew best to leave you alone since you did have a bit of a temper. You went to the bathroom and splashed the water in your face and whispered to yourself, "Get it together Maeve! You idiot!" You then looked at yourself in the mirror and hit your palms on the edge of the sink and yelled furiously, "Damnit!" You began to pace around the room, "Pull yourself together! This is the least you can do, ungrateful bitch!"
You then began to hit your head on the wall in hopes that you would pass out again and hit your head on the way down until you heard a knock at the door, "Maeve, can I come in?" It was JJ. You mumbled an answer and she came in. She knew what you were doing.
You gave her a look that told her, 'I can't do this anymore.' You tried to stay calm and say, "I'm sorry, I'm ready-"
As you walked towards the door, she said, "No. Get out all of your emotions. Don't bottle them up, it'll make it worse. Just let it out now-"
You looked at her confused and asked, "What?"
She sat on the floor and said, "Let it all out."
You said, "I don't know-"
She answered, "Yes you do. Now tell me, what's making you upset, what is the core of it-"
You began, "I'm just mad that I'm having to do this. That's all-"
She began to speak with more enthusiasm, "No, it's more than that. Explain what you mean by all of this-"
You began to pace, "This! I'm tired of having to deal with my mom! I don't want to talk to her anymore!"
She said, "Keep going-"
You began to speak loudly, "After- after she left me with those men- who...who raped me- and beat me! And now I have to still deal with all of her bullshit! She's the one who caused all of that and I thought I would be free from all of that after I moved in with my dad but she just has to screw everything up!"
She nodded and you yelled, "I'm tired of cleaning up her own goddamn messes! I always lose to her! She always tortures me somehow...mentally and physically! I just want her to die! And I don't- I don't want it to be quick-"
She stood up shocked and put a finger over your mouth, "Maeve, I know you're mad and you have reason to be, but you have to keep that part to yourself."
You looked down in tears, "I'm sorry it's just- I'm tired of her coming back into my life and I just want her to be gone-" She noticed you clench up your fists and she just brought you in a hug in hopes to calm you down. S
he whispered ever so calmly but seriously, "Don't tell anyone about that. Keep your cool...we can't have you in prison." You nodded and she said, "You ready? The jet is about ready." You nodded and followed her out of the bathroom to see your dad standing right there.
He gave you a hug and whispered, "Maeve, I know I keep telling you I'll get you away from her but she is good. So, I can't promise anything, but I'm hoping she will just tell us who it is and this can all be over-"
You lightly sobbed, "And I can have a normal life?"
He nodded and said, "Okay, we've got to head to the airport." You followed him out to the car where he got in the driver's seat, JJ got in the passenger, and you and Henry were in the back. You felt your phone buzz and you checked it.
It was a text from Henry, "I'm glad you're okay." You looked up at him and he smiled at you. You smiled back and then looked out the window to try to slow your breathing. Once you got to the airport, it was dark. You got in the plane and sat on the couch and just stared at the floor.
Everyone knew that you weren't in the mood to talk so they just left you alone.
Your dad handed you a blanket and said, "Get some sleep, it's getting late." You didn't want to start any arguments so you decided to just lay down and close your eyes.
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You woke up to a bit of turbulence but you just kept your eyes closed because you were so tired. You then heard JJ and your dad talking. Your dad laughed, "Yeah, they would be good for each other!"
You heard JJ laugh and say, "I think so too."
You then heard JJ's voice get quiet, "Spence?"
You heard your dad ask, "What is it?"
You then heard JJ say, "Has Maeve gotten better? I mean, she's gone through so much and-"
Your dad answered, "She's better. I think her thoughts have gotten better now-"
You heard JJ interrupt and say, "I don't think it would be best if she went in to talk to Cat-"
Your dad asked confused, "What? Why? She's probably the only one who can get it out of her-"
JJ then directly answered, "She wants to kill Cat." After that, you heard your dad get up and then JJ along with him. I guess they knew you were awake.
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You woke up again, but this time, the plane landed. Your dad rubbed your back lightly and whispered, "Come on Maeve, we're gonna spend the night at Quantico." You got up slowly and stumbled getting your bags. Your dad took the bags and asked, "Are you okay?"
You nodded and said half-awake, "Yeah." Then, the four of you walked back to your cars.
JJ then said, "Are you going to headquarters?"
Your dad answered and said, "Yeah, just until we catch this freak."
She nodded and said, "We probably will just in case too." Your dad nodded and you got in the car with him.
He began to drive and he asked, "Are you feeling okay?"
You answered annoyedly, "I'm fine! I'm just tired."
He looked at you shocked and said, "No, about seeing your mom."
You looked away at the floor and said, "I spent a whole day with her...this won't be any different-"
He stopped you, "Maeve, you know it's different every time you see her."
He then paused and asked discreetly, "Maeve, do you have thoughts about killing your mom?"
You looked at him shocked and you had tears in your eyes, "No!"
He then said louder, "Because, it's normal for you to hate her but having thoughts of killing her-"
You yelled back, "No! I just hate her! That's it!"
You looked back down as he said loudly, "Maeve, don't lie. JJ told me that-"
You cried, "Okay! Yes! I do want her dead! I want her to die...slow! I want her to die a slow death, it needs to be torture because-" You began to hyperventilate as you let out, "THAT'S WHAT MY WHOLE LIFE WAS! MY WHOLE LIFE WAS TORTURING! AND SHE CAUSED IT!" You then calmed down and said, "So forgive me...if I want to kill my own mother, but you know I have a damn good reason for it-"
He looked at you shocked as he pulled up to Quantico, "Maeve, there is a grave difference between hating and wanting to kill someone-"
You interrupted him seriously, "You don't think I know that. I don't just hate her, I want her dead."
He looked at you speechless, "Maeve, you have to promise me that this stays between us. Because if you don't, you're gonna go to prison...just like your mom."
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