His Beta

Chapter 38

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"Nash, she's in depression."

"No, no, you got be wrong."

"We are sure, I'm sorry."

"How? She was one of the most happiest people on earth."

"Have you seen what's happened her? She's lost so much, we're lucky. . . ."

I droned out the conversation that was taking place right outside my door. They know I could hear them, and they know I don't care anymore. Well at least I know what depression feels like, numbness, pain, sadness, negativity. The past days all I have been doing is laying under my covers, not eating, not sleeping, drinking very little water, and not talking to anyone. I've gone silent, it's like a lost my voice, my hands reached up my lips.

Dry. I rested my hand on top of the pillow beside me and closed my eyes, memories started coming at me and my eyes shot open to stop the inexplainable pain.

This is the reason I can't sleep, the memories, it's too much for me to handle in this state. I haven't seen Johnny since my almost successful suicide, I think he's scared of seeing my weak and fragile figure. Mom has called up my non-biological parents and they're both staying here, at the mansion. I don't want them near me, the pain only gets worse with the more people that are in my past. I just want to die, maybe of dehydration, pain, hunger, something!

Being the happy and devilish girl and in such a short amount of time and now look at me. I'm disgusting, and everybody knows it. Nash slammed the door, but I just lay there. I'm pretty sure he was gonna break the door, and he started punch the wall harshly and walking back and forth, each step slamming onto the ground. I just watched him from where I was. "Why would you do this?" he muttered. I knew he was talking to me, but I was silent. He leaned forward towards me. "Forest, please," his voice cracked, three words left my mouth :

"I love you."

He shook his head. "Then why are you doing this?" He asked, sitting beside my body. "Because I'm nothing, and you dese -" He stopped me quickly, "No one can makes me feel the way you do, without you I'm dead, I have nothing to live for, you are all I need and more." His voice was raspy and cracking, and he hid his face with his hands. "I do want you to be happy," I muttered. How could someone believe that after what I put them through? "Then why are you doing this?" He snapped, gesturing his hands toward me in confusion. I don't know what to say, I didn't say a thing "If you really love me . . . then eat, drink water, sleep, go back to the girl you once were." He sobbed in anger, a tear trailed my cheek and dropped on my collarbone "Don't do that." I whispered, he chuckled "I will, because that's what someone who loves for you does." Now that hit me right in the heart. The worst part about this whole thing is that someone came in. The person who gave me heartbreak and left me.

"Chris?"

A/N: BOOM!!!!!

Sorry for not updating for sooo long, I have been super busy with my final recital/exam.

It's really short, but my editor is gonna help me fix it and make it longer, don't worry.