Chapter 22

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Kongpob was quietly eating his breakfast when he saw Arthit sat next to him, he kept the fork on his plate. It has been quite a while that they sat like this. Together. Honestly, he was missing all these small moments of them, he still remembered how they used to share small details of their each day, by all this they were growing more closer, but unfortunately not anymore. He started to wonder how they end up like this.

Can I change everything like it was before?

He stared deeply and searchingly into Arthit's eyes who was zoning out, actually Arthit was thinking from where to start the things he wanted to share.
Kongpob was still watching him, he doesn't know if he still trust him or not. He doesn't know whether Arthit still care for him or not. Last night he got a nightmare, he doesn't remember what happened exactly, but at the next moment he was sweating. Then he remembered how he faced this when his parents left him, when no one was there by his side. He was scared, frustrated, exhausted. He was feeling the same he felt few years ago.

Suddenly Arthit broke the silence bringing Kongpob back from his deep thoughts. "How are your studies going?" Somehow he started. Despite feeling irritation from his side. Arthit again asked the same question and of course it was irritating for Kongpob, but still he tried to calm himself.

"Good." He replied back, but his eyes stayed on the food, his tone sounded forced.
He didn't know that Arthit has only this one topic to talk now a days.

"You have to work hard Kong and find a job in one go." Arthit spoke watching him, his voice slightly trembled while speaking. As he finished Kongpob looked up to see Arthit.

He handles me as if I couldn't do anything.

"Arthit you are treating me like I am a kid. I am not a kid, I am an adult, you don't have to tell me something like this...you are making me feel like...I don't have my own brain. I know I am 3 years younger than you, but that doesn't mean that you have to tell all this. I am not frivolous, empty headed person. I know what to do and what not to..." Arthit heartbeats raised, he looked into his eyes. It only reflected frustration and annoyance, but he was saying all this because he was concerned, about him, about them, he was worried about his career, because he cares for him.

"Kongpob I say all this because I want you to study well I care.." Kongpob slammed his hands against the island and stood on his feet. Arthit eyes widened, seeing him like this.

"But I don't like it when I say this. It's not like I am saying something bad or it's not like I am telling you to do something wrong." Arthit eyes remained fixed with his while speaking.

"I don't like because I am not a child and I know I am dropped out student, but that doesn't mean I can't study anymore."

"What's wrong with you Kongpob? I never thought that, I just want you to study hard and find a job, that's it. I am not asking any expensive thing from you, am I?" He questioned him, the question was valid though.

"You are saying all this because you earn money and I am jobless that's why, am I right Arthit?"

"No...I never said that." Arthit defended himself as the things Kongpob was saying was not true. Not once this thought came into his mind. He doesn't know where all this was going but he was shocked how Kongpob was speaking. He never saw him like this before.

"Then say, all these days you were ignoring me, because now you must be tired of me. Have you found someone else with lots of money. Who is Tew?"  There was a hit of misgiving in his voice, the words that came out of his mouth, he didn't realised what he spoke in anger, but the time when he will realise it, he will curse himself. 

"KONGPOB." Arthit couldn't take it anymore. His voice raised, he lifted his hand..like he was about to slap him, but stopped in the middle. He was breathing heavily. Kongpob who was stunned by the sudden move was looking neutrally into his eyes.

          

"Why did you stop Arthit? Just continue..slap me. Why did you stop?" He spoke in trembling voice. Arthit balled his fist and walked into the living room, Kongpob followed him, his eyes lingered on him for a moment too long before he gathered all his stuffs and reached in front of the door.

"Our love Arthit, is it still the same?" Without replying he opened the door and walked outside.

"Arthit----" A slam of closing door cut his voice. Kongpob was standing bumb at a same place. He gripped the armrest so tightly that it started hurting him. His knees got weaker and he collapsed on the floor.

He didn't answer, what am I suppose to think?

Tears ran down his cheeks his eyes closed

He doesn't love me. I am burden on him.

"Why Arthit, why did you come into my life? Why did you mess with my heart and mind? Why did you made me fall in love with you, now you are my habit. How I will be able to change this habit of mine." He still didn't realise what he did just now, he kept blaming Arthit.

Change!

"You said to that you and I will never change." He screamed loudly.

It was a nightmare, he thought that when he will wake up Arthit will be there by his side, he will caressed his back and hug him tightly and he will be relieved, but the fact was it was not a nightmare it was a painful reality.

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Arthit reached his office, the things that happened still replayed into his mind, he never thought that Kongpob, his Kong will doubt his love for him. This was a height of his possessiveness, he was scared the most.

He was deep into his thoughts when he felt a hand on his shoulder. He looked up and saw Knot who was happy, the happiness was all over his face, but Arthit couldn't control his emotions he got up and hugged him.

"Knot." Tears pooled in his eyes before they streaked down.

"Arthit what happened?" Knot was thankful that his bestfriend helped him to talk to Tew.
Yesterday they both went to drink a coffee, they decided to know each other first, as they want to take it slow.

He patted to calm his friend." Arthit why are you crying?" They parted,

"We fought. He doubted my love."

"Arthit sit down first." He made him sit,
"Tell me what happened." Arthit told everything that happened half an hour ago on which Knot spoke instantly,

"I adviced you to tell him everything, but you didn't listen to me."

"I didn't want to hurt him."

"He is crazy about you Arthit to the point I haven't seen it in most of the couple." He paused,
"You ignored him, he got frustrated and this is the outcome. You need to talk Arthit."
Arthit wiped his tears, his mind was in a turmoil.
"Take a half day and go."

Agreeing to Knot he tried to take a half day leave, but he had some urgent work that he had to complete. Though there were many thoughts running into his mind, he couldn't ignore his work, his job was always important for him.

Finally fighting his inner thoughts that he will not call him, durning the lunch break he tried to call him, but it was unreachable.
Was he that bad? He knows that he was strict, maybe a bit harsh, but he felt like it was necessary to act this way.

After his office he immediately made his way towards their home. Yes, at first it was just a condo for him, but now it was their home. Honestly, he was feeling like he needs to tell Kongpob everything, he was still angry upon him for doubting his love, but he decided to keep his anger aside and tell him all the truth even though it hurt him.

In the evening, as he entered,
"Kong." He called his boyfriend loudly, all the lights were off, he turned on the lights and again searched his boyfriend in every room, though he knew that he was not there as the lights were off.

"He should have come from the cafe." He murmured to himself, when his gaze fell on the coffee table, his eyes sparkled in happiness, he beamed. When he saw a chocolate he almost ran there. After that he also saw a small paper sticked beside it.
He thought it was an apology letter, with a relieved smile on his face. He sat on the sofa before opening it, but little did he know that this happiness will not last long.

Arthit I don't know what's wrong with you lately, I tried to talk to you, but you didn't tell me anything. The worst part is you don't trust me anymore. You promised me that you and I will never change, but then I remembered that you are not good at keeping promises.
I am hating all this, the way you are behaving with me, I am feeling like I am burden on you and I don't want to be one. I am feeling like you don't love me Arthit, but you are my first love. I love you and will always do.
There's chocolate on the table. Maybe a last one. Goodbye Oon. I hope you find your happiness.

As he finished reading, he stared at the paper for 5 minutes, his brain has a short circuited. Then he read the text again to confirm it. The paper fell from his hand, few seconds ago he thought that everything would be like as it was earlier, but it was festering.

"No. KONGPOB. I haven't changed. Where are you?" He wiped his tears which were falling heavily without his permission. Suddenly a thought came into his mind.

"Last one that means.." He bolted into Kongpob's room there he didn't find anything. He then went to his room to see the closet, as he opened there were no clothes, he moved some of the hangers so that he could see something that belonged to Kong, but there was none. Then his gaze fell on a simple white shirt which he picked up in his hand thinking about that Kongpob must have forgot. He hugged it tightly before inhaling the scent, the cologne mingled in his senses...

"Shit!" He closed the door before resting his head against it.

His phone vibrate, he immediately took it from his pocket hoping that the message would be from Kongpob, when he checked it, he sighed.

I can't lose you, because I love you Kong. Please come back!

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