pessimistic ( Taekook)

chapter 2

I will just pretend to hug you until you get here with me with all you love again 😔

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Staring at the door for a while I pick hand up to knock after three gentle knock. I waited   for some seconds for  someone to open but no one came.

Again rising hand to knock but before I could do some one open it .When the door opened the man who I was hating with my all will is standing infront of me with redness evident in his doe eyes messy hair bangs covering those doe eyes but still redness are visible ,red nose , parted lips taking breaths with open mouths as having difficulty to breathe from nose after excess cry .

Our eyes met for a little while but instance he moved a side giving me some space to be in the apartment . without any hesitation I started my step towards the TV louche . Taking each step with heavy heart and eyeing surrounding . the views make my heart ach . Shoe rack was a mess . Taking few steps I reached to TV louche . The apartment is small but cozy with small TV louche , small open kitchen where hardly more than two persons can stand comfortably, right side to the kitchen are two beds room with attached washrooms most attractive part of apartment is window that is the main source of positive energy which we thought .

Eyeing TV louche where dust is evident that no one have ever touched them as they where used to be touched by the owner .Pizza boxes vines bottles are all over the place , even nears the window sides all you can see are vines bottles and not doubt whole apartment is in aroma of Alcohol .

kitchen sink is Full of dirty dishes as they are not washed about long time. Hearing the name that he used to call when we are deadly in love make me want to cry and hug him tightly I turned towards him . He called again but this time with little bit shivering and tears are already on his cheeks.. approaching toward me " Tae"but stopped in his track when I show him palm to stop .

Reaching toward sofa and pick up some used up clothes and towel and put them aside to sit . The guy just stand beside the sofa nothing exchange between us ... feeling suffocated I show him the paper I was holding .

The man just stared blankly  between the boy then again on paper.

After while with shivering voice "awww no no no baby no "

Taking deep breath

"How !!can you do this ........(silence) that was ours Baby . He have done nothing wrong you can't do this" the guy exclaimed as he hold one hand of the boy he loved dearly "Tae baby just tell me you have not done anything to our child hmm tell me please, love.........(silence) you can't do this". The boy was already in to much pain he lost someone whom he was dream for to long .

The Boy  just nod his head in agreeing that he have done the abortion without any regret.

The guy rise his voice by crashing the all the vine bottles and boxes from the table "That was ours you can't Abort like that "(with loud sobbing cry ) he just lost every word . Pain , heart broken, betray was evident In his voice

Making herself at his knees infront of the boy holding his hand in her hand and feeling the warmth of his  hand which he was craving for too long . without the warmth of his lover he is nothing just cold blooded body .

" Just tell me the truth that you have  done anything like that; you know how much I love you I promise you no matter how much we suffer but we will never be apart we.......".

But before he can complete his word the boy just removed his hands from his hold spoke , "Jeon jungkook we are done from here onwards we owe nothing from each other you are free to live your life as I am now ".
Maintaining his cold emotional less face he said and pick her self up and move toward the door he can hear the guy pleading voices , his sorry but it's too late to be sorry now .

Holding the door knob he turn towards the jeon last time and inquired " have you ever love me!! .How can I trust you now give me a favour leave me alone" Saying that he  opened the door and moved out before he can say any thing and closing the door behind . he moved toward the exist as fast he can ......it's late but not too late. I can make my mistake ,to heal me now .