Maraming magagadang bagay sa mundo at isa na ako dun charizz... Ok ulit take 2, Mararaming magandang bagay sa mundo kagaya ng mga paro-paro o kaya ang magagandang scenery ng langit. Sabi nga ng iba, madali nating nakikita ang mga bagay na maganda para sa atin kaya pinapakaw nito ang ating paningin. Ito ba yung rason kung bakit hindi mo ko makita? Dahil pangit ako... wow assumera ka rin noh, feeling pogi yarn haha... joke lang wag ka maoffend baka block mo nanaman ako ihh...
Though you are not wrong, hindi nga ako maganda. Di rin ako matalino. Marami rin akong imperfection and yung balat ko and pruweba doon, it's obvious naman na pati aso magsusuka dahil sa itsura. Kaya it's fine, kahit na patapon mo pa ako sa Bermuda triangle dahil sa kapangitan ko ok lang, basta masaya ka...
Ay cut nga ulit, naiiyak ako HAHAHA... Ok take 3, Alam mo, nagtataka nga ako minsan kung paano mo nagagawa na ivideo call ako ng magdamag ng nakatutok ang camera sa pangit kong mukha. Kapag nga tumitingin ako sa salamin, di ko makaya ikaw pa kaya pero sabagay nakafilter naman ako eheh...
Kahit na ang rami pang ibang babae dyan na kay kinis ng balat at puti, thank you for still being here for me... Naalala ko nga nung una tayong nagmeet eh, di mo ako iniwan sa may Carnival kahit na ang pinagtitinginan na tayo ng weird ng mga tao dahil nakikipag-away ako sa bata dahil sa piso... Tapos nung pumunta tayo dun sa may milktea shop sa tapat ng SM, sinamahan mo pa rin yung kalokohan ko na magnakaw ng mga pearls dahil kulang yung linagay nila sa inumin ko.
Bago kita makilala, I dreamt of doing that with my ex-boyfriend kaso masyado siyang busy. He never spent time with me and I was always alone, he would just ignore me and do other things. Masakit sa akin physically kapag nasusuntok niya ako or nasasampal pero mas masakit yung parang wala man ako. And then he left, he found someone new and left.
My life was surrounded with darkness and pain. I was a mess and hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Nawalan ng direksyon ang aking buhay until I met you. You made me happy again. You made me contented again. Though you would not love me like he did, thank you for being my friend. Nagawa ko na ang mga bagay na gusto kong gawin and I felt loved again.
Wala na akong mga family members, isa kasi akong ampon. Namatay na ang mga stepparents ko and my sarili na ring pamilya ang kuya ko and ayoko siyang maistorbo. Anthony was the only family I had left but guess I was not enough for him.
Minsan titingin nalang ako sa kawalan and iisipin ko kung ano ang ginawa kong mali, may pagkukulang pa ako or is it just because of who I am. Is it just because of my appearance? Nagooverthink ako and something it become too much that I just wanted to stop the sound and everything.
I wanted to stop time but sino ba naman ako para gawin yon? Haha... Time is precious, it is valuable yet indefinite. Time can also define our lives. Hindi natin alam kung kailang tayo matitigok, only time will tell sabi nga eh. That is why, I spent all my time with you.
I became a better version of me whom I could not imagine. I felt different but it made me feel better but we all know happiness never lasts. We spent less time together. Months turning into weeks, weeks turning into days, and days turning into seconds.
Parang orasan na nawalan ng battery, tumigil na rin ang pagsasama natin. I became just another memory. I became just another person from your past.
Parang naging aso ako na sunod ng sunod sa iyo, tinatawag kita, nagmakaawa ako na pansinin mo ko pero wala akong nakuhang reaksyon sa iyo. Other people also ignored me and I don't know why. I was losing myself, my brain trying to find reasons on why this was happening.
Since that day, it has been different. My body felt lighter but my heart was feeling emotions as heavy as a rock. I was going insane, trying to find an answer, trying to find you, trying to find myself...
Nagstatic yung screen and nagmove siya sa bagong clip.
Hey best friend, miss na kita, gusto ko na kumain ng mga street food kasama mo pero syempre libre mo hehe...
Patuloy nanagstastatic and nagiiba yung mga scenes nagplaplay but they were all just a background with her voice. Hindi ko siya makita, there was no around in the clips but she was there in my memory... Kumuha siya ng mga videos sa mga lugar na pinupuntahan namin but I could no longer see her, hanggang sa nagchange yung clip na vinideo niya kasama ako. I was there yet she wasn't. Parang naerase nalang siya bigla sa mundo.
I did not realize that I was crying hanggang sa hinawakan ko ang mga pisngi ko at nakaramdam ng basa ng mga luha ko. Hindi ko narealize hanggang ngayon ang mga suffering niya. I thought that I was alone yet you never left, you were still here beside me and helping me get through life...
Rest in Peace Marie, you will always be in my heart... - Carlo Tubonan
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Author's note
Hello everyone hehe, this is another update and sana magustuhan niyo siya. I got this inspiration from the quote "I'm falling apart right in front of your eyes but you don't even see me". Thank you for all the support and care. Love u goysss < 3 < 3
