I don't know what to call this

Unexpected

Jason
Instead of the expected nurse, none other than Ellery walks through my door. He looks rough yet in the way knives often look beautiful when they're rugged. What an ass. Their eyes are darting all around the room, avoiding me. He's just standing there, in the doorway. What the hell do they think they're doing?? "Um- Ellery?" My voice is hoarse but I don't give a fuck. What are they doing here?? He's clearly thinking of something and I want to know what it is. They look pretty pissed, sad maybe? I'm not sure but he's clearly upset. I feel bad. He's shaking up a storm and they look so upset, I'm worried. Why am I worried? Why do I want to help him again? Why do I always feel so drawn to help that bastard? Maybe it's the way his eyes tilt in just the slightest way when they're about to cry. Maybe it's the slight shake in their hands. The way the corners of his mouth move back in his face. Maybe it's the way their hair is falling in his eyes. Maybe it's the way he's standing. Maybe I shouldn't know or even notice these things. I don't know but I hate it. I knew that at some point  I'd have to talk to him but, I didn't think it would be so soon. I knew that I'd have to face them but, not like this. I know I should be so scared and I know this is all my fault. I at least owe him a conversation. And besides, there's no ignoring the fact that they're sweet. There's no ignoring the fact that down at his core they're truly good. There's no ignoring how kind he is and there's no ignoring the soft curl of his hair. There's no ignoring their bright smile and there's no ignoring their stupidly pretty face and their stupid fashion sense. There's no ignoring how protective he is and there's no ignoring his eyes and all the emotion they show. He's walking to me now with a frightening speed. They look pissed. I'm going to get slapped. They look ready to speak but I'm starting to think that maybe, just maybe, talking won't be necessary.

Ellery
There he is. Maybe I wasn't ready for it. I thought I was ready but seeing him here, seeing him laying in a hospital bed wrapped almost entirely in bandages- it's awful. Maybe I wasn't ready to face him, especially in this state, he looks too pained. I'm not sure what's going on. Maybe I wasn't ready. Maybe I'm not ready to talk to him about aster, about what happened. Maybe I'm not ready for this. Maybe I'll never be ready for this. But if I don't do this right now will I ever be able to again?

Jason
I stand up out of my bed. Ellery's almost a foot away and I'm terrified. He's going to hit me. I deserve it. Of course, I don't wanna be hit but oh well.

Ellery
We're so close together. How is he still so beautiful? Fucking prick. I don't know what to do. He looks miserable. I want to tell him that it'll be okay. I want to tell him that I'm sorry, I want to make everything alright for him. I want him to know everything but I don't even know everything. What am I feeling? What am I doing?

Jason
He raises their hand to my face. I close my eyes preparing for the sting. Instead, much to my surprise, the touch is soft. I flinch away at first but his hand gently finds my cheek and just holds it. Wow. Holy- Woa. I don't- I don't know what to say. Wow. I- wasn't expecting this, to say the least. They're so close. He's being so gentle.

Ellery
I'm trying not to hurt him. God, he's adorable in a way I never thought Jason could be. He has completely melted into my hand. I didn't know that this was how I felt. But, it is. HOLY FUCK I AM HOLDING JASONS FACE!! AND HE'S CUTE!!! What!?!?!?! OH GOD, WHAT AM I DOING????

Jason
I don't know how long it's been since I've been touched like this. My eyes are still closed and I'm scared that if I open them he'll pull away. But I do, and they don't. What do I do- OH GOD HES HOLDING MY FACE!! AND I LIKE IT???!?? OH FUCK I'M DONE FOR OH GOD AM I BLUSHING???? CAN THEY SEE???

Ellery
I should say something, he's looking right at me. I'm blushing. I want to pull him closer...so I do. He's letting me??? WHAT THE HELL DUDE STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!!! YEAH OKAY, THIS WASN'T EXPECTED.

Jason
OH MY GOD, THEY'RE PULLING ME CLOSER OH MY GOD OH MY GOD OH MY GOD!!!! I WANT TO KISS THEM AND I THINK HE'S GONNA KISS ME!!! OH MY GOD

Ellery
"Um-" I REALLY WANT TO KISS HIM!! WHERE DID THIS COME FROM. He's looking at me, his beautiful brown eyes are staring at me "-hm?" Okay, yea this is maybe not the best conversation but HOLY FUCK!!! "So uh-" I'm doing real good at conversing with him right now. OKAY, BUT WHO CAN BLAME ME?? HE'S PRETTY AND SO HOW AM I EXPECTED TO NOT FREAK OUT!? He tilts his head in the slightest and holy fuck is adorable. Why is everything he does suddenly so cute?? "Well like- um-" he looks confused and, well, so am I. "Ellery- what is it?" AAAAAAAAA WHY IS HIS VOICE SO PRETTY EVEN THOUGH IT SOUNDS LIKE ITS BEEN THROUGH A CHEESE GRATER????? "I- hi-?" I can see him smile a little, well, smirk, "hey-" I want to kiss him. I don't want to hurt him though, would it hurt? Maybe? "Uh-" He laughs, I can tell he's trying to make it sound cold but it's not. "Um- may I??" He nods and my other hand finds his neck as I pull him in.