Breathe (Cheryl Fanfic)

Chapter 115

Athena's P.O.V.

Sirens...

Worthless!

They forgot you existed!

There it is again. Voices. They never left, I can hear them everywhere I go. Sometimes whispers and most of the time shouts of swearing and cursing mostly at night.

You can't do anything right!

I'm learning to live with it but sometimes they really get to us separating me from reality. I have flashbacks and blurred memories of my dark times, reminding me that I had to go through that and it really made me want to disappear forever.

"Sweetheart!" I looked up with all of them just looking at us making us realize that I probably zoned out again.

"Yea?"

"I just asked you would you want to go to the live shows with us?" Dad asked and it made my eyes travelled to my mother who is quite uncomfortable with the situation looking at us with worried eyes.

"Oh please Athena please" My brother looked at us with puppy dog eyes and it made a smile on my face. Eric is the child I wish I had been and with that I would do everything for him to have that.

But am I ready though?

"Honey, its okay if you don't want to-"

"But mammy, I want her to go with us" My brother whined before looking at us again with eyes full of hope and I found myself staring at those

"Bubba, if Bella ca-"

"Okay" I blurted not thinking it through. Silence filled the air until my brother cut it cheering before he puts his arms around us making us smile before looking up to see my parents shocked looks.

"Bella are you sure?" Mam said after a long pause. The truth is I'm not so sure but the happiness I can see in my brother makes us somehow forget what will I go through the arena. Seeing him like this is far more important to us now maybe cause I've already taken the attention he should be getting for this past months.

"Yea" I smiled but breathing a heavy sigh. I have to get ready for what is coming.

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"What were you thinking even asking the idea to her, I already told you she can't come"

"She says she wanted to come if she knows she's going to have a hard time she wouldn't have agreed with it Cheryl"

My parents have been fighting over the fact that I agreed to coming to the lives tomorrow night. And its not making me feel so good about my word.

"Simon you can't always have what you want, you have to consider things maybe the fact that your daughter was kidnapped in an arena!"

Kidnapped. I was kidnapped in the arena back in London. Its all a blur in my head actually but voices were there clearly living inside of my head.

"I'm gonna be there, you're gonna be there. I won't let anything happen to her. You know that"

"I know but that's not the point Si! It might trigger something..."

I was done hearing them. My mind was not letting them in. It totally shut them out and the only thing I can hear are my own voices which was worse.

You caused another trouble young lady

Said a voice. Its sad but its true though. I'm the reason why my parents fight or argue. I took the love and attention that my brother needs. My episodes caused way too much negativity in our home. Even though I hate to think about it and admit to it, I know all of this is my fault.