Red Wine/// NCT YUTA FANFIC

6

We were halfway through our very awkward and quiet meal when Yuta decided to break the silence. "So tell me about yourself." 
"Like what" I said in a sharp tone, I swear it was unintentional I did not mean to scare him. 
"Well we live together. We are also about to get married in two weeks. It would not hurt to atleast get to know each other." Yuta said in a soft tone avoiding eye contact. 
"Okay. I will ask first then. Can I light a cigg?" I said when Yuta seemed to be taken aback. 
"I would not be very supportive of that but yeah sure do whatever you want...." He said and I ignored the uncertainty in his voice and lit a cigarette. 
"Did this marriage cause any inconvenience for you? Like.... do you have a boyfriend or anything? " His hesitant voice asked me. 
I chuckled at him, "Why? You have one?" which followed a shocked Yuta explaining himself "No I swear it is nothing like that." 
I laughed again blowing a smoke. "Yuta I always knew I would have to marry you. I never bothered to get into a relationship because I know it would hurt them and me at the same time. And I am only 18 so there wasnt much time either. "
His eyes looked like he was pitying me. "Dont pity at me" I snapped at him. "Whats Your story?"
At first he seemed hesitant...... "I Loved someone ....... I would have gone against this marriage if I could..... but she did not leave me the option any longer...." His voice got more and more tense as he spoke.
"Why? She dumped you?" I said in a mocking tone trying to lighten the mood. 
"She passed away...... cancer." He said in a very quiet voice "It was 6 years ago so yeah dont worry about me. I will stay a loyal husband to you...." He tried to make the last part sound funny. 
I did not know what to say to comfort him....... "I am sorry....... I do not know what to say....... " 
I held his hand to provide some comfort, which might have scared him. His hand was warm but tense. 

After the conversation earlier It got more awkward between us as we tried not to be an inconvenience for each other. After dinner I did my school homework in silence and he worked on his laptop, both of us sitting on the kitchen counter. 
"I will drop you off to school tomorrow." Yuta suddenly broke the silence. 
"Alrighty..... but go too close to my school I dont want people seeing you and saying I got a sugar daddy." 
Yuta burst into a laughter before he said " That is fine. I still cannot believe I am about to marry a high school kid." 
"I cannot believe I am about to marry a man a generation older" I immediately barked back offended. But that only made him laugh more. 
I just realised I would have to share a bed with a man I just met a day ago. How awkward would that me. What if I react when he touches me. What if I accidentally touch him and he reacts negatively. 

"You seem to be dozing off. Lets go to sleep. " Yuta said as he got up and kept his laptop and files on the table on the other side. I organised my books in a stack and carried it to the study table in the other room. 

I lied down on my side of bed not knowing what to do. Yuta slowly got under the blanket and looked at me directly on the eye. It felt weird. A good kind of weird. He does not seem like a bad guy after all. He moved his arm towards my head and slowly put his fingers through my hair. He swiftly put a kiss on my forehead to not make things awkward. "Go to sleep now okay?" he said with a smile and turned around with his back facing me. I just realised I had stopped breathing. 

It felt like butterflies fluttering in my stomach. How could I sleep after the stunt he pulled. I closed my eyes and slowly drifted to sleep.