(first off,sorry for the break since the last chapter. I had to get a new phone and stuff.)
(And Also,I will be ending this Story at Chapter 26)
My Eyes widened. This took a turn and it made my stomach twist. I looked down at my hands. All the sudden I'm a idol and now everyone wants me. It was unsettling and scary almost.
"Can I think about it?' I asked. At this moment,I just wanted to start working on the song.
Yoongi tilts his head a little. Then opens his mouth,as if he was going to give me a lecture. But he didn't.
"Of course" he said replied.
He then turned his eyes back to the computer."So,I typed out a few lyrics already. It isn't about love." He said.
"What is it about?' I asked.
"Insomnia" Yoongi replied. "you and me deal with it. So I figured."
"I think it's a good idea" I said."Wait,how did you know I have insomnia?' I then asked.
Yoongi looked back at me.
"Namjoon told me" he replied."You and his girlfriend are friends so.'
"That makes sense I guess.' I said,looking away from him. That's weird,I don't think I ever told his girlfriend about my disorders and illnesses."Let's take a look at the lyrics you got"
I looked at the first few lines of the won't.
They were really deep and personal,I wasn't surprised though. BTS isn't afraid to tell their fans their feelings. And what they deal with personally.
"Those are good." I said.
Yoongi nodded in response. Moving a bit of his white hair out of his face.
We spend at least 3 hours thinking about lyrics and who should sing or rap what. I almost forgot how hard working music is.
I finish typing the last few words of the song.
I then moved away,cracking my fingers. Learned that from Tokyo ghoul. Though the anime was trash,the manga was good.
I leaned back into the chair,tired out of my mind as I could barely keep my eyes open.
"Do you want some coffee before you leave?' Yoongi asked. Looking over at me,noticing how tired I was.
I didn't even notice he had a coffee machine in his office/studio.
"Sure,if you don't mind." I replied.
He nodded and got up from his chair and headed to the other side of the room. Turning on the coffee machine.
Growing up,my liking towards coffee grew. So I drank a lot of it. Though,I dropped energy drinks a long time ago. Got tired of them.
Yoongi makes 2 cups of coffee,putting a lid on both of them so they don't spill.
He walks back over to me and hands it over.
"Here.' he said.
"Thanks.'
He nodded as I got up from my seat to leave. I then headed for the door.
"It was nice meeting you' I said
"It was nice meeting you too,just remember what I said about Loren." He replied.
I nodded a bit. I was hoping to forget that conversation but then he just had to bring it up.
I left the building and got back to my managers car. I began to think about yoongi. And then Loren. If I remember correctly. They know each other. I at least thought they were friends. Maybe not.
Thoughts rushed through my head,causing a headache...
I don't even know if I'm ready for a relationship yet. Loren and I are just friends with benefits.. I think I like him but,I just don't know when it's the right time.
My manager dropped me off at my apartment as I didn't have any else to do. I closed the door and looked around. Loren wasn't back. He must be busy.
A few hours later...
It was now 11:00 pm.
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retty late..
I was laying in bed,talking with Rosé.
'is Loren there?' she asked. Looking at the camera, at me.
"No' I replied.
"No? He left the building like 3 hours ago.' she said in a confused tone.
"Oh" I said. I wasn't the type to worry about where someone was at. Except for Rosé. She's like my sister.
"do you love him?' chaeyoung soon asked.
"What?' I asked. Shocked by her sudden question.
"Do you love him?" She repeats,shrugging her shoulders.
"Well,I don't know. I really don't. I think I do.." I said.
"You should tell him before it's too late.' chaeyoung added,brushing her wet hair as she got out of the shower recently.
I nodded a little,listening to her. Soon ending the facetime call so She could get some sleep.
I laid there for a few minutes,thinking about what Chaeyoung said. Maybe she was right. If I wait any longer, he'll find a new girl to date.
My head soon perked up,hearing my apartment door open. Probably Loren.
I stood up from my bed and went to the living room.
Loren looks up at me,as if he just noticed I was standing there.
"Hey' I said.
"Hey' He simply replied back.
"Can I talk to you?' I soon asked after a moment of silence.
Loren looked at me,then at his phone.
"Yeah sure,I just have to make a phone call.' he said.
I nodded."Alright.' I replied.
Weirdly that phone call lasted all night.
When I woke up,he was gone again.
This repeated for many days. He always came back so late that I was asleep 100% of the time.
After some more days passing,it started to get suspicious and confusing..
One day,on a Saturday,Rosé,Lisa, Jisoo and Jennie invited me to go to the club once again. The last time wasn't all that bad I guess. But hopefully this Time Will be 100% fine.
Jisoo and Jennie were already there a hour early so me,Lisa and Chaeyoung went and ate. And then headed to the building.
I walked in,The girls on each of my sides as we walked a bit to find the others.
Looking around a bit,I couldn't find them. Too many people. I tried to think of places they would be. So I headed to the bar area.
Jennie was standing beside Loren,Who I didn't know was here.
She was all up on him and being all smiley.
I couldn't believe my eyes. My headache soon came back. No,more like a migraine this time.
I soon walked up there with a calm look."Hey jennie" I said.
"Oh hey Y/N" Jennie replied,smirking at me.
I suddenly felt a pit in my stomach. How could Jennie do this to me. I thought she was already in a relationship,According to the other girls.
I feel betrayed,Lost,heartbroken,Drowned,Suddenly tired,hurt.
So many emotions was bubbling inside me,I couldn't explain in words. What hurt me the most,was how Loren looked like he was enjoying Jennie being all over him. He was smiling.
Maybe Yoongi was right.
