Introvert - Euphoria

Chapter 5: Let it Out

'03 Bonnie and Clyde

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Maddy knew who she was from a very early age.

For as long as Maddy could remember, everybody loved her.

She never knew exactly what it was.

She just knew that she had something special.

Something intangible.

Something immeasurable.

And it gave her confidence.

That's why she loved pageantry, because you didn't have to be the prettiest, or the tallest, or the blondest, or the whitest.

You just had to have fucking confidence.

And she probably would have gone on to win Miss Universe if it wasn't for Marcus Cutler.

The man was arrested on 18 counts of child molestation.

Her dreams were dashed by some random 50 year old creep who didn't molest her, let alone even meet her.

She refused to eat for a week out of protest.

But then she realized how much she liked not doing anything.

Maddy would never say it out loud, especially not today because everybody's so political, but she never really had any desire to have a career or job.

She was just interested in doing what she did, just without school and the other bullshit.

Her mother was an esthetician, which is a fancy way of saying she gave pedicures to rich people.

And her dad was a drunk who was always pretending to hold jobs longer than he did.

She quickly realized that there are two kinds of people in the world.

The people who sit in the chairs with their feet in the the foot bath.

And the people who kneel in front of the footpath.

She used to sit and study the women who came in.

But one woman specifically.

Y/n Y/ln's mother.

She payed attention to what she wore and what she used to talk about. And what she realized was that she actually didn't do anything.

I mean she had a child at home (who she learned was Y/n), but at the end of the day, Mrs. Y/ln literally did nothing.

All of the women in the shop literally did nothing.

And strangely none of them had any confidence.