Save a horse, ride a cowboy (jjk) [✔️]

6

【 Good lord woman!  】

"Why do you want to visit the farm all of a sudden...?" I say eating some of the freshly picked oranges from this morning's harvest.

"Um hello?! I'm your bestie and I love you?" Jennie says a little too excitedly for my taste.

Jennie had only been to the farm a total of two times, the first time was because she needed me to babysit her dog, tiny, and the second one was completely by accident.

Of course this was back when they still lived in town, now they live an hour away so clearly she wanted something if she was willing to take the time out of her busy schedule to come down here and stay for a couple of days.

I sigh, "Yes but you usually want something!"

The line goes silent, "I know... you usually are harvesting oranges around this time..."

"You want some oranges don't you?"

"No! Okay yes I do."

I shake my head, "Well you know the rodeo is gonna be in town too, so there's gonna be lots of oranges then."

She hums, "I can just taste them... all in my mouth... I'm such a slut."

Jungkook's eyes widen as he walks in with a plate in his hand and I burst out laughing.

"What's so funny?!"

"I'm sorry... I can't breathe... Jungkook heard you calling yourself an orange slut..." I laugh holding my stomach.

She starts stuttering, "Ab- o- Good evening Jungkook..."

"Good evening... you never really introduced me to your friends y/n."

I stop laughing, "Oh, well this is Jennie, and my other friend is named Lisa."

He nods, "Oh Lisa! I think I remember that name."

I look at the plate, "What's that?" I ask.

"I made... candied oranges..." he smiles setting the plate down.

"Candied— oh fuck yeah I'm definitely coming now!" Jennie shouts, "I can hardly wait to have that juicy citrusy juice slide down my throat—"

"Jennie can you shut the fuck up." I say shaking my head, "It is getting late, sorry I'm more... expressive at night."

Jungkook chuckles, "I know someone else like that too." He smirks and I mouth 'shut up' at him.

"Well I better go to bed now, you'll be seeing me real soon." She giggles hanging up.

"So as you can tell, Jennie is gonna be visiting us sometime next week." I groan, "Cool, for how long?"

"Uh, probably after the rodeo slash fair ends." He nods, "Ok, cool."

I pick up one of the candied oranges, curious I take a bite before leaning back, my mouth being exposed to the sugary goodness.

He smiles, "It's good right?"

"Better than sex."

"I know it can't be that good." He smirks.

"Why don't you remind me again?"

I wiggle my eyebrows at him and he scoffs, "If you insist."

He picks me up bridal style, "I gotta make sure you don't forget this time."

"Oh, I won't."

Time skip

As the hours went on the days went by, my feelings became more apparent.

His smile, his laugh, all of those things bought me joy and made my heart skip, I knew why my brain kept saying I was acting like a schoolgirl with a crush, because I am, minus the schoolgirl part.

There I was, reading a book on the couch, something about star-crossed lovers finding themselves in the perfect moment, I felt all giggly reading the words on the pages.

Ugh y/n it's so obvious what this is!

But... I am ready?

What if last time happens again? Where you're standing at the altar... all alone.

I hold the book in my arms, I know Jungkook isn't like that, but my mind kept wandering.

And you haven't even told him about your exes? Or your past? When are you going to?

I sit in silence, not even reading the book anymore.

What if he doesn't want you.

I feel a pat on my back, "Are you napping?" He smiles at me brightly, I smile back bittersweetly, "No, I'm not."

"Well if you're not..." he says, "Do you wanna... walk outside with me?"

I raise my eyebrows, "The sun is setting?"

He scoffs, "Yeah I know, that's the point!"

He puts out his hand, I take it, I was in a trance whenever I saw him.

We start walking outside, his hand interwoven with mine, I felt my cheeks warming up.

"There's something I wanna tell you." We both say at the same time, my eyes go wide, "Oh haha."

He laughs, "Why don't you go first?"

I shake my head, "Oh... no you go, mine isn't... important."

"Alright." He says, "I wanted to take you traveling with me after my month was over?

I feel my heart drop, "Traveling? You mean, you're not staying?"

He lets go of my hand, "Well, no, I'm not, I can't really... you know I'm a traveling cowboy. It is my job."

"I understand, I just thought..."

I look down, I wanted to cry, I knew it was too good to be true.

I sniffle a bit, "I'm sorry, I suddenly feel sick... I need to go back inside." I hear him say a faint 'wait' before I walk back inside tears running down my face.

Maybe I'm just not good enough.

AN NOTE: ok I'm sorry, I'm a slut for angst and was listening to washing machine heart while writing this