Chapter 47

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Louis' POV

I wish Allison would have woke me up when she got up. We could have talked about everything. She seems like she doesn't want to right now. I understand if she doesn't. I'm just happy she's feeling better now. She did sleep most of the day. Maybe that's mainly what she needed.

I pulled away from our kiss. I noticed her smile a little before starting to get off of me. She's still just wearing my button down shirt from yesterday. I love seeing her wear it. She looks extremely sexy in it. I don't think she'll ever understand that. She grabbed my hand, "Do you want to come eat dinner with me?"

I smiled as I got up. I pecked her lips and lightly squeezed her hand as we started walking out of the room towards the table. I noticed that the food was already set up on the table. A guy better not have brought this up. No other guy needs to see her dressed like this. She started to sit down when I tightened my grip on her hand. I kissed the top of her head, "Did a guy bring any of this up?"

She shook her head and looked up at me, "No.''

That makes me feel a little better about it. I still don't want anyone else seeing her like this. I can't be mad about it. I was asleep and she was trying to be nice getting us both dinner. After last night I don't even deserve that. I pecked her lips before pulling my hand away from her's. I sat down across from her and started eating. We both ate in silence. She doesn't seem upset by that. She seems kind of... happy? Maybe. I don't know, maybe, content.

I finished eating and saw that she still wasn't done. I reached over and intertwined out fingers. I noticed her start to smile a little. I can't help but smile seeing her like that. I love her smile. I can tell she's happy. That's all I want for her. I'm sure she knows that by now. After a few more minutes she finished eating. She let go of my hand and I looked at her a little confused. She got up and walked around the table to me. I moved my arms and she sat on my lap. She wrapped her arms around me and I wrapped mine around her. I love having her like this. It just feels right. I would never let any of those other girls be like this with me. I didn't love them though. I love her. I never thought I could love anyone. Everything with her is different. I had to learn how to just go along with things with her. I don't mind it. It was probably for the better. Well I know it was.

She interrupted my thoughts by pecking my lips, ''Are you okay?"

I nodded, "I just want to talk about last night.''

She lent her head against me, "We don't have to if you don't want to.''

I started running my finger tips up and down her back, ''I want to, don't you?"

She mumbled, "I'm not sure.''

I kissed the top of her head, "I'm sorry about last night, love. I know you wanted to be with me last night.''

''I still do.''

I can't help but smile a little, "I'm so sorry about it, love."

She sighed and moved so that she was looking at me again, "I know there was something off about last night. I know you want to talk about it so let's talk about it.''

''Are you sure?"

She nodded, "What was going on with you last night?"

I shook my head a little, "I don't know. I wish I did but I don't.''

I felt her move some of my hair, "What do you remember then?"

''I just remember thinking how I used to when I was with Jace and Joey. I don't understand how it randomly happened. It was sort of like I was blacked out. Almost like how I was when I was with those other girls. I didn't like them touching me in anyway. I do remember you saying stop but I couldn't stop myself and I don't know why. I would have if I could. Then the next thing I remembered was me sitting on the side of the bed with my face in my hands. I still didn't have any clothes on then when I looked at you, you were already asleep.''

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I looked back at her. She doesn't really look upset. She's not saying anything though. She looks like she's thinking. It didn't take her very long for her to lean into me and mumble, "I love you.''

I smiled a little hearing her say that. I didn't expect her to say that. I kissed the top of her head, "I love you. Do you have anything to say about this, love?"

She mumbled, ''I mean it was something you couldn't control. I still love you and still want to be with you. Something like this isn't going to change that.''

''I don't want it to happen again. I don't even know if there's a way to to stop it from happening.''

She moved back so that she was looking at me, "It was the first time it's ever happened though.''

''I know. I don't want it to happen again.''

''How are you going to keep that from happening again? Are you just not going to be with me like that anymore?"

''If it means I know I won't hurt you.''

She started to shake her head, "Louis I trust you. I know you won't hurt me. Honestly I don't know if I can go without being with you like that anymore.''

I don't even know if I can go without being with her like that either. I just want to make sure she doesn't get hurt. That's probably one of my biggest fears other than her just deciding to leave me one day. I don't even know if I would be able to deal with any of that. ''We might have to try to, love.''

She shook her head, "We both know that won't happen. It was one time. It might not even happen again. Also, we didn't even get to finish last night.''

''It might not happen but it could. I don't want to do that to you again.''

She moved one of her hands up and cupped my cheek in it then started caressing it with her thumb, "Louis, we both know it could but it probably won't. If it does I'm still going to love you and I'm still going to want to be with you. Please stop taking this so hard.''

I know she's right. She's proved to me that she's not going anywhere. ''Are you sure about that, love?"

She nodded, "I don't want to be with anyone else. I'm engaged to you for that reason. We're getting married in less than a month now.''

I know she's right. I shouldn't be taking this so hard. She's going to be the person I'm going to be with for the rest of the night. I know I won't be able to not have sex with her for the rest of our life's. I need her. My thoughts were interrupted by her pecking my lips. I felt her move her hands down to the bottom of my shirt, "Are we staying the night here?"

I nodded, "Yes, it's too late to be going back home tonight.''

I noticed start to smile a little, ''So, we can finish what we started last night.''

I started to shake my head about it, ''I don't know...''

Before I could really say anything else she pressed her lips against mine. They were so gentle against mine as they moved in sync like they always are. I felt her start pulling my shirt up. I want this. I just don't want things to end up like they did last night.

Allison's POV

I'm happy Louis told me what was going on with him. I can't be upset with him about it. Honestly I'm a little upset we never finished last night. We deserve some time together like that before we go back home. We have so much going on. I feel like I'll hardly have time to enjoy just being with him. I pulled away from the kiss and finished pulling off his shirt. I threw it on the floor. I looked back at him. I can tell he's thinking about all this. I know he doesn't want anything like last night to happen again. I pecked his lips before moving off of him. He looked a little confused. I grabbed his hand and tugged on it a little. He got up and started shaking his head, "Allison, I don't know if we should do this now.''

''It's fine.''

I pecked his lips before pulling him over to the couch. I pulled my hand away from his and grabbed onto his sweatpants. I pulled them down and he stepped out of them towards me. He put his hands on my hips and pulled me closer to him. He pecked my lips, "Are you completely sure about this?"

I nodded, "I'm sure about everything with you.''

I noticed him smile as he moved his hands up to the top of his shirt that I've been wearing since last night. He slowly unbuttoned the shirt and slid it off my shoulders. He lightly kissed my lips, "I'm going to make last night up to you.''

''I just want to be with you.''

He lent down and kissed me. His lips were just as gentle against mine as they always were. I can he doesn't want to hurt me. I know he won't. I felt him move his hands to the back of my legs and gently laid me down on the couch. He moved over me, not breaking our kiss. He pulled away sooner than I wanted him to. He mumbled, "I want to take this slow.''

Before I could say anything he lightly pressed his lips against mine. They slowly moved in sync. I felt him start to push himself into me. I couldn't help but moan into our kiss. I felt him smirk against my lips but he didn't pull away. He started moving slow. This time feels so different. I don't think he's ever gone this slow before. He wasn't even this slow our first time together. Honestly I love that he's being like this. It shows how much he loves me. I felt him grab one of my ankles and move my leg up so that it was wrapped around his waist. I couldn't help but moan feeling him going deeper inside of me. I've missed being with him like this so much. I know I was with him like this last night but it wasn't the same. I felt the pit in my stomach start to grow. I moaned into the kiss. He pulled away sooner than I wanted him to. He kissed from the corner of my mouth down my jaw line to my neck before mumbling, "I love you so much.''

I moaned, "I love you.''

He softly kissed my neck before moaning. I love hearing him like this. I just love him. I need him. I need him way more than I thought I would ever need anyone. I know he feels the same way about me. I moved my hands to his back as I felt the pit in my stomach start to grow more. I lightly started to dig my nails into my back as I moaned his name again. He lightly kissed my neck, "You're so beautiful, baby.''

All I could do was moan in response. The pit in my stomach grew bigger. I know I'm getting close. Soon I moaned his name as my walls clenched around him and came. Right after he moaned as I felt him twitched and cum inside me. He slowly thrusted a few more times before pulling out. He stayed hovered over me as I pecked his lips, "I need you.''


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