A scouts Journal

Entry 17- Year 850

Right now that shits all done with. Rod's dead finally and my love was crowned Queen. Now it's time for a little bit of catching up that I missed. Here we go.

First things first turns out Me and Mikasa are also related to Levi somehow cause he's also an Ackerman. Same with the man who lead the Anti-personal squad, Kenny.

Never would've guessed that I was related to more than one murderer even if technically I'm one too. Who knows maybe being a murder is generic for us Ackermans. Anyways I should probably explain the Anti-Personal squad shouldn't I? Well put simply they're entire purpose was too fight humans, specifically the scouts.

They had specialized ODM gear that had guns instead of blades. Each canister they had could fire off one shot before needing to reload. While this was a weakness one of them worked around it and that's how Hange got hurt. They used the anchor to shoot into Hange, kinda smart actually.

These Anti-Personnel guys ended up being more interior MP's that worked directly for Kenny and Rod. It's weird that Kenny ended up working with them since before this he went by Kenny the Ripper. He was a infamous serial killer that ended up slitting 100 MP throats.

I heard that story when I was a kid but Levi brought it back up when we went to save Jaeger and Historia. Speaking of Historia. She was actually the one to deal the final blow on Rod.

I'll get back to that later since I need to talk about this. Hange fucking scares me. Like yeah it was a bit weird how she was horny for non-existent titan dick but I looked past that since she's our Section-Commander. Plus there's a lot of there was a lot of weirdos in the scouts. But with how loud the MP was screaming when she tortured him the other day was horrifying.

When Levi did it he was loud yeah but Hange. I swear it sounded like this man was screaming like he was about to be torn apart by titans. What the hell did she do to him? Like I thought what I used to do and what Levi did to him before was bad but my god.

Note to self and anybody reading this, DO NOT PISS OFF HANGE! I'm pretty sure this woman made titans look like a saving grace to this man with what she did.

Whatever she did got him to tell us about Rod being the true king and Historia being the heir to the throne. At least I won't be the only treating her like royalty now since she really is.

At least now that she's been crowned Queen I don't have to worry about her getting hurt or killed by titans. Even though whenever I'm not busy I'm still going to watch over her even if she has a personal guard.

Is this how Ymir felt in the 104th? Worried that anything slightly bad might happen to her? Well I can't really ask her can I? At least now I know she'll be safe. If after anytime I get back and there's a scratch on her, they're gonna wish that Reiner and Bertholdt destroyed the walls.

Anyways when she dealt the final blow to Rod the other day she was blown out of the air. I swear I felt my heart stop when I saw her fall to the ground. I dived down to try and find her. My hands were shaking the entire time cause I didn't want to think what could've happened.

I can't even explain how panicked I was when I saw her laying on a cart. When I landed next to her she woke up and looked around. I was so relieved when she did this now that I knew she was alive.

When she saw me she shot up and held onto me. We just sat there on the cart holding each other for a while. That's where she told me that she loved me for the first time. We were about to kiss but the civs came.

Fucking cockblockers

I'm glad they were all genuinely worried about her. I mean she did just save their city from a titan twice the size of the colossal. I helped her stand up and that's where she told them that she's the true ruler of the walls.

Yesterday was her coronation and the premier decided to have her crowned on the gallows where we were supposed to be hung. Bit morbid but whatever works. Best part of that day was seeing her punch Levi.

But when she did that the impossible happened and I swear this is how I know the world is finally ending. Levi. Fucking. SMILED. I didn't even know his body body could do that.

Last night I was going to add to the journal but Historia wanted to just cuddle and wouldn't let me up to write. I wasn't complaining since sure the bed was comfortable but being with her in the moment was better. Plus we finally got the kiss we wanted earlier that we couldn't get.

Reiner I know you aren't ever going to read this cause next time I see you I'm killing you but. Get absolutely Fucked Reiner.

Today was boring mostly but Historia brought me  to a meeting she called for with the higher ups in the military. She said she wanted to open up more orphanages inside the walls for the less fortunate kids, specifically the ones in the underground. That shithole.

Levi agreed to it since he grew up there after all. In the end the rest of the higher ups agreed to it also but surprisingly Historia and Levi waited for my answer. I get Historia but why Levi? Does he know?

I told them that it was a good idea since from what I've heard that place is no place for a child to grow. So starting tomorrow we're going down there to get kids onto some ranches that they can be held, work and play on until they find better homes.

I'm not looking forward to going down there. I think I should tell her about my past. I told Annie but we weren't even together and now me and Historia are with each other and she has no idea. I'm gonna tell her and hopefully she won't hate me.

I need to stop writing cause she keeps coming over and giving me a sad face. She's even more clingy than she was at Utgard and in the cabin. I love her.

Let's hope tomorrow doesn't go to shit. Even more so let's hope Historia doesn't hate me after I tell her my past tonight.

Things would be so much easier if Noah and Mia were still alive. You guys could give me advice on what to do here. Than again if you were still alive Mia you probably would've confessed already. We wouldn't have to explain our past.

Alright that's that all caught up? Good. I'm gonna go probably say something that might end my first relationship. Hey Ben if you can hear me little man I need you to protect me for once. I know it's a lot since I failed you last time but just this once little man. Remember, I trust you.