Falling out of love

Chapter V

" Be honest, why you are here? sa pagkakaalam ko wala kang schedule ngayon Akira " Nagulat kasi si Frey nang makita si Akira na pumunta nang bahay niya, sobrang aga nito pumunta hanggang ngayong hapon ay nandito parin ito at wala atang balak umuwi. She's just watching movies while on her couch.

" I just missed this " Akira pertains about watching movie and eating some popcorn.

" No, that's not what i mean. Did something happened? " Frey worriedly asked, the news of Jin sudden return on the country was now in the internet kaya alam nito na nagkita na marahil ang dalawa.

Hindi parin umimik si Akira, ayaw niya kasi pagusapan ang bagay na iyon. 

Frey heared a beep sound outside of her house and look on the window and was suprised to saw Jin.

Nakarinig naman nang busina mula sa labas nang bahay si Frey kaya napatingin ito sa bintana. gulat ito nang makita ang nobya ni Akira, mukhang nalaman nito na nandito ang girlfriend niya na mukha ding natatago sa kanya.

" Akira,  Jin is here " Sambit naman ni Frey kaya nagulat si Akira, natataranta naman ito nang hindi malaman ang gagawin. ngunit bago pa siya makatago ay narinig na nila ang doorbell kaya huli na ang lahat para magtago pa. wala rin naman ito matataguan dahil maliit lang ang bahay ni Frey.

" Hi, i heard this is the house of Akira Manager and she was here. "  Hindi naman nakaimik si Frey nang buksan niya ang pintuan at makita ang mukha ni Jin, kahit naka face mask ito ay alam niya napakagwapo nang mukha nito. Ito kasi ang unang beses niya nakita nang personal ang mukha nang nobya ni Akira.

"Excuse me? " Tawag ulit ni Jin sa kanya nang makita niya ito na parang natulala.

"A-ah. Yes. Akira's here. nasa living room, Come in " Nahihiyang sambit ni Frey pero pinapasok narin si Jin

" That would be nice, Thank you " Tinanggal naman niya ang suot niyang face mask at ngumiti kay frey. 

Napaisip tuloy si Frey kung wala ba talaga itong babae sa ibang bansa dahil kayang kaya nito makaakit nang babae kung ganito ito kaganda at kagwapong babae. Idagdag mo pa na magaling ito sa sports. Sabagay, maganda din sobra ang girlfriend nito kaya halatang bagay na bagay sila.

Ginabayan naman ni Frey si Jin papuntang living room, nakita naman ni Jin si Akira na busy kumakain nang pop corn at nanunuod. Umupo ito sa tabi nang girlfriend niya pero hindi parin siya tinitingnan nito kaya obviously, sinsadya nito na i-ignore ang presence niya.

" Uhm.. I'll leave first. ill come back later " Frey said as she notice there's an awkward atmosphere and gave them space to talk, tumango nalang si Jin bago ito umalis para bigyan sila nang oras para makapag usap.

" Hey.. Babe, are you still mad? " Jin softly said and hold akira waist, and still akira didnt budge, she still ignoring Jin.

Jin sighed and decided to kneel down in front of Akira, kaya wala tuloy choice si akira kundi ang tingnan ito.

" Look, when i say that we should think about us. I mean, let's figure out things together " Paliwanag ni Jin kay Akira

" What do you mean? " Naguguluhan na tanong ni Akira

" Let's go on a date, enjoy our time and do things together, that would help us to figure things out right? " Jin is doing her best to convince Akira, ayaw naman kasi nito na magbulag bulagan nalang sa nangyayari sa kanila

" Then, what's the point to think twice about us ?" Seryosong sambit ni Akira, hindi talaga nito maintindihan bakit pa nila kailangan pagisipan ang relasyon nila.

" if you decided to still be with me despite the conclusion we might have at the end of figuring things out, we will stay however if you suddenly doesn't want already, then.. its up to you. " Mahinanong paliwanag ni Jin kaya napabuntong hininga nalang si Akira.

" You know that's hard Jin. I dont want that agreement. " Akira was stern on her decision, she doesn't want to figure things out, she want things to remain the same.

Jin became silent for a minute, hindi na niya alam paano pa kukumbisihin ang girlfriend niya. Alam kasi nito na kapag nagpatay malisya nalang sila at nagpanggap na parang wala lang ang nangyayari sa kanila, mas lalo lang lalala ang sitwasyon nila.

It's best to face the problem immediately than ignoring it like Akira was doing.

" I am afraid. " Pag amin ni Jin at hinawakan ang kamay ni Akira

" Why? " Aki couldnt understand Jin saying why would she will be afraid.

" Im afraid also if we go down in this road, you'll let me go and i'll let you go, im also afraid that this might tear us apart and im afraid of so many things.. " Jin started to show her vulnerable feelings, she wished it will go through Aki's heart.

" But i want to figure out, what i am feeling right now. Why are we like this. I dont want to run away from this problem and ignore it, i want to be able to properly face my feelings for you once again just like how we started, it might lead us to be more stronger if we face this right? " Aki was on the verge of crying hearing those words from Jin, Akalal niya siya lang ang natatakot sa mangyayari pero maging pala si Jin ay natatakot din.

her eyes was on watery as she felt Jin sincere thoughts and feelings, she felt hopeless that Jin want to acknowledge that they might be falling out of love and wanted to face that issue properly just like how she confronted her feelings when she fell in love.

" Babe..I-im sorry, youre crying " Natataranta naman na humingi nang tawad si Jin nang makita na umiiyak na si Akira, she immediately wipe it using her hand and kissed the forehead of her girlfriend. Ayaw padin nito na umiiyak ang girlfriend niya, isa ito sa mga kahinaan niya.

Naiintindihan naman na ni Akira ang nararamdaman ngayon ni Jin, that was also the thoughts and feelings she doesnt want to face so she ignores it and knows she is on a in-denial stage.

 Aki was always assured and plan the Jin will be her end game and no one can replace her. She can't believe that from being so in love, it is possible that they might fall out of love also.

" F-fine.. but whatever the conclusion about, i'll never break up with you " Naiiyan na pagpayag ni Akira habang humihikbi.

"Let's decide that at the end of this road but i assure you we are doing this together. " 

Niyakap naman ni Jin si Akira, niyakap din siya nito balik. Akira even burry her face on Jin's neck and started to sob again.

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" Should i drive both of you home? " Nagaalalang tanong ni frey kay Jin na buhat buhat ngayon ang girlfriend niya na nakatulog nalang sa bisig niya kakaiyak, marahil din ay hindi ito nakatulog nang maayos kagabi.

" N-no. i can manage. Thank you for taking care of her " Magalang na pagtanggi ni Jin, tinulungan nalang niya si Jin na ipagbukas ang pintuan sa backseat para mahiga doon si Akira.

" Uhm.. Jin " Frey hesistatedly call Jin who was about to enter the driver seat kaya napatigil ito sa pagsakay.

" I hope the best for both of you, you're perfect together " Komento ni Frey, hiling nito na magkaayos din sila ni  Akira. Jin smiled at her and thanked her once again, and drive home.

Upon arriving at home, akira still asleep at the back, she looks peaceful right now and doesn't have any problem in the world. She carefully carry her and lay her down on their bed before she lay down beside her.

" I wonder what we used to be like  " Mahinang bulong ni Jin sa sarili na iniisip kung paano nga ba sila dati ni Akira. Sa tagal na tagal nila magkasama, malamang ay marami ang magbabago at may mga bagay narin sila nakalimutan tungkol sa isat isa. It's normal for someone whose been in a decade of relationship.

Hindi naman nila masisi ang isat isa kung bakit nila ito pinagdadaanan, kung hindi ba nila pinutol ang paguusap nila kahit sobrang busy nila ay pagdadaanan nila ito? 

Ngunit alam ni Jin na darating talaga ang araw na pagdadaanan nila ang ganitong problema, it might be a normal phase for them to strengthen more their relationship or it might be sign that they are not really meant for each other.