||Wild At Heart|| Johnny Depp

Undercover

JOHNNY

I tried to stay focused on my guitar and just getting lost in playing rather than on all the cameras surrounding me. After all these years it probably shouldn't make me nervous anymore, yet somehow I still feel that pressure
on me. But I can't lie, there was also another thing that could make me calm by catching my attention and not letting me go for longer than I'd like.

The thing had black, wavy hair almost reaching her shoulders, and the sudden memory of how it tickled my skin when we secretly kissed backstage, before recording the music video now, carried me away from the present moment. Just her.

Well, fuck, now all I wanna do is kiss her and I can't. Kiss her neck, shoulders and everywhere she likes. By this time I got addicted to all the little sounds she makes and the way her eyes close from pleasure, but I don't plan on getting any rehab. Not from this.

Only after a moment I noticed the stupid grin that somehow formed on my face as I kept watching her focusing on the part she was playing. She seemed to be doing the same thing to avoid cameras and nervousness.

I dragged my gaze across the room and instantly locked eyes with Alice. His lips formed a little smirk while still looking at me, and then he broke off the eye contact and continued doing his thing.

He noticed. Did he figure out the truth, though? Maybe he thinks I just like her. I don't know, he always seemed like he's seen through me and knew every little secret, but he has never said anything to make sure. God, why am I overthinking it right now? He's given me that look many times, so maybe now, that he is actually right, I start to get nervous?

I sang the rest of the song, then we all played and we recorded, what I think is, a pretty good music video. We will probably have a meeting later to decide which one, the one we did few months back or today, will be the official music video to Heroes. Berlin was actually a good choice after all, though it is even more literally boiling hot here than in America.

We got a break after the directors told us they gotta see if it will be enough of material, but I don't think we'll have to film anymore. We did what we could best, and that's basically all that was needed. Not mentioning that for, like, two hours straight.

After I set my guitar aside, Alice asked if I want to get some coffee. I agreed, though it seemed kinda suspicious that he didn't invite the whole band, but one thing I was sure about is that he wants to talk.

I asked him about El, does he know if maybe she wanted some coffee, too, but he said she walked out of the room, for a cigarette or to the bathroom, before he got the chance to talk to her. I nodded and we started walking towards the little cafeteria.

"So," he started. "I noticed you and Elektra hang out somewhat more lately."

Here we go. Just play it cool.

"Really?" I asked confused. To be honest, deep down I totally agreed with him, but playing dumb was my best idea by far.

"Yeah. I thought you didn't want anyone in your life after.. all that happened." he softly replied.

I got what he was on about. "She.. she's different, Alice. She feels different, that's for sure."

She feels like a safe place in the middle of the scariest storm, and I wondered how is it possible she had me opening up so fast about the things I promised myself not to lay on other people's shoulders. It wasn't even that long after it happened, but I had that weird trust in her, a trust I didn't think I'll ever gain again in other human being. I guess she really is different. She has me. She always did.