heartsick | junhao

8

minghao drove to junhui's house,  speeding as he went as he was barely able to contain his nervousness. it was basically spilling out of him,

he and junhui never discussed anything after their last conversation, junhui just knew when minghao was picking him up.

minghao dressed as casually as he could, though he was worried he was going to be underdressed. he didn't want to seem too nervous to see junhui, but he didn't want to seem super excited either.

minghao typed a quick i'm here to junhui before dialing in joshua's number. "hey, you know what i was telling you about?" minghao asked the second joshua picked up the phone.

"oh, uh, yes. i do, why?"

"i think i'm gonna do it today—i'm not entirely sure if it'll go well but, i'll find out."

"why don't you think it'll go well?" joshua asked, shifting in his seat.

"i know me and junhui have done stuff but, maybe it was just all an escape," minghao admitted, "from everything, maybe i was just sorry for hurting that bastard and just... did whatever would try and distract from it all."

"well then, why did you kiss him the second you saw him at the party?" joshua asked with a chuckle, "i saw. it seemed pretty passionate."

"i.. i don't know. i didn't feel anything really," minghao admitted, "although, my dick definitely did. but that doesn't mean anything, just 'cause it was excited didn't mean i was."

"okay, well, tell me how it goes when you get back." joshua said, hanging up the phone.

minghao looked up from his phone to see junhui shutting the door behind him,

junhui's face lit up upon seeing minghao. it almost made him feel sorry for everything.

minghao unlocked the car doors and let junhui in, "hey," minghao said.

"hi," junhui answered, they sat there as an awkward silence filled the car. "why is it so quiet? you weren't like this at the party," he laughed lightly as he buckled himself in the car,

minghao wished he could be as carefree as the boy,

"i don't know, maybe i'm just nervous," he said,

"hm? why?"

"i don't know, it's our first time hanging out in a public place like this,"

"well," junhui said, placing his hand on top of minghao's. "don't be! this will be fun, i promise!"

this was gonna be hard.

-

when the boys got to the park, junhui almost jumped out of the car and ran to the entrance.

minghao followed behind, it didn't even feel like a date. it just felt like he was taking care of a big child,

junhui and minghao for their wristbands and entered the park, minghao was already regretting his every decision to come to this expensive place,

"don't go crazy," minghao said to the boy, "i know it's fun, but i'm still a broke highschool student after all."

minghao watched the boy's face scrunch up in a big smile, "i promise i won't. i just want to ride some rides, and maybe get some food with you if that's okay?"

minghao nodded his head as junhui interlaced their fingers, "i'll let you lead the way," he said. junhui immediately went to one of those rides that go super high in the air and fall back down,

"let's ride this one!" junhui said, looking at minghao. minghao couldn't say no to the boy—this was a pretty important day to the boy. so he agreed.

-

minghao and junhui were seated side by side in the cart, the ride was only big enough for those two. minghao closed his eyes as tightly as he could as he held onto the over-the-shoulder restraints for dear life.

he opened his left eye and saw junhui, smiling from ear to ear as they started the ride.

him and junhui immediately started going up into the air, junhui was just laughing like a little kid as minghao felt his soul evaporate into thin air.

the ride stopped at the highest point of the ride, minghao opened his eyes for a bit and looked into the sky, "ohmygodohmygodohmygodohmy-" minghao panicked, junhui laughed,

"do you wanna hold my hand to help you feel better?" he asked, minghao gripped into junhui's hand so tightly his knuckles went white, "just don't look down, okay?" junhui attempted to comfort the boy.

minghao was screaming all kinds of curse words, begging the guy who operated the ride to start it again. "he may not be starting it again because you keep screaming hao,"

minghao immediately shut up after junhui said that, and no too long after, the rollercoaster started going down again.

whenever minghao got off the roller coaster, he almost fell down. his legs felt like jelly. junhui had to hold him up, "maybe we shouldn't get on anymore rides," he suggested, minghao nodded his head quickly at the suggestion.

"let's just go get some food, are you hungry?"

"yes, we should." he agreed as they walked to the nearest little restaurant at the park.

-

chan woke up a couple hours later, his hair was a mess and he felt like he was on a whole different planet.

mingyu knocked lightly on the door, before walking in. "man, you were crazy last night." he said,

"i've heard," chan responded, smiling lightly. "where is jun?"

"he's out with minghao, i'm sure he'll be back soon." mingyu said, "now, let me tell you about all the shit you did last night. oh my god,"

"i'm not sure if i wanna know, who knows how bad it got," chan responded,

"well, bad enough to the point you kissed junhui." mingyu said, "do you remember that?"

chan felt all the air get knocked out of his chest, "no? i kissed him?" he asked panicky, mingyu cringed.

"maybe i should have asked what you remembered first," he said.

"yeah! you should!" he yelled, "ugh, i kissed him?! really?" chan asked, wanting closure.

"yes.."

"oh my god, how did he even face me this morning?!"

"junhui is a nice person, i'm sure he's not mad. so don't stress about it too badly,"

-

minghao and junhui walked out of the restaurant after finishing their meals, "hey, there's something i need to say," minghao said, facing junhui.

"um, what is it?" junhui asked, blushing slightly. he started fidgeting with his fingers and picking at the bases of his nails,

"i don't think we should see eachother anymore, junhui." minghao confessed, looking at the ground. he wasn't able to look at the olders face.

"what? what happened?" junhui asked,

"i just— you were someone i went to when i wanted to touch someone. there were no feelings behind it," he said, "i can't lie and say i don't feel bad, because i do."

"no you don't," junhui said, tears silently running down his face. "i was just someone you came to when you wanted to touch someone, you said it yourself." he stated. "i just want you to know, i never felt anything but love towards you,  though now i know my feelings were wrong." he finished, turning away from minghao and storming out of the park. 

a day that was supposed to be perfect, and almost was, was completely ruined.

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lmfao this is a pretty short chapter, and i'm sorry for not updating two days in a row 😭 i was busy