Dylmas - Until After the End

Chapter 7 - Coma

Five years.

Five years had passed since he had left me.

Five Christmases had passed... and that memories always came back to haunt me.

How could I move on? How could I continue to live without him? How could I overcome the loss and continue to live? There was no way. It was impossible. Believe me, I had tried. Obviously, I gave up when I realized it.

"Of course the time has passed... it always passes." Ki Hong whispered, and only when he wiped the tears that rolled down my face, I realized I was really crying "Look at you... Everyday thinner, sadder... Withering away slowly. I can't let you do this with yourself."

"He took everything that I had, Ki Hong..." I said with a strangled voice, and as much as I tried, I couldn't lift my gaze to him "Except me. Why didn't he take me with him... Why did he left me alone?"

"It's not his fault, Thomas..." He hugged me again, and by the tone of his voice, I knew he was crying too "

I rested my chin in his shoulder, breathing deeply as I didn't for so long, and I stared at the nothing. The silence deafened me, the absence of answers to my questions were driving me crazy.

All of those questions were burning under my skin, and no one seemed to know how to get them out of me. So I just left them burn me, slowly turning me into ashes.

I didn't doubt that I already had been completely devoured by anxiety and loneliness.

"You know that you can always count with us." Ki Hong sniffed, pulling away from me and quickly wiping his tears, returning to place his hands on my shoulders "We will never leave you. Ever."

"Thank you." I smiled weakly, even though it cost me a few seconds of pain. I didn't express happiness for so long...

"Please... accept our invitation and go the party with me" He begged, looking deep into my eyes, and I couldn't turn them away, try as I might "It's been so long that they don't see you... your friends miss you, Thomas. A lot."

I closed my eyes for a moment, letting out a sigh. I was exhausted. I felt like I was a robot, running mechanical actions and totally empty of any feelings, unless the loneliness and agony that consumed me most of the time.

I thought on my friends. Kaya, Dexter, Will... Everyone always so loving, so fun, so full of life.

After the accident, I knew they were very depressed, almost the same way as I was. In a way, I even thanked for having been in a coma for few months after the disaster. I would faced them as void in the middle of the chaos. But this period, that I certainly would have spent agonizing, was spared from me.

Sometimes, I could have enough strength to at least thank to God for that.

The image of Kaya came to my mind. Her pale, exhausted face was the first to come into focus when I left the coma, and when her eyes fixed on mine, a sweet smile appeared on her face. Since this moment I knew that Kaya was much more than just a friend. Now she is a piece of me. The piece that most remember him.

I opened my eyes, feeling my lips turning into a warm smile. It was very rare something like that happen, but yes, I was really smiling.

Suddenly, I felt a spark of life lighting up inside me. Very small but perfectly noticeable. Yes, theoretically, I was still alive.

In those rares moments of lucidity, I wondered something really stupid, but that made me feel well.

Would he be encouraging me to get out of the sort of coma In which I was still?

"I'm going to need your help," I whispered, lifting my moist eyes to him, and for a moment, I had to swallow my traumas to continue talking "It will be hard... But I'll try. For all of you."

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Update, yay.

Small chapter. Again.

Hey guys, I'm here to say that I think this fanfic won't have more than 13 chapters... And why? Because I rushed the car accident so much.

Well, I will start a new fanfic soon, about (Y/N) and Newt (: The name will be Dream, and I have so many good ideas for this fanfic.

It won't be a short fic like this one. I hope so.

That's it. Thank you for reading and I'm sorry, again, for that accident hehe