Betrayal *

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by tomlinsonsangel103

by tomlinsonsangel103

WARNING
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•DEPRESSION
•SUICIDAL THOUGHTS
•SELF HARM

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Numbness.

It surrounded my entire being. Colors turned dull and time slowed down to a near stop.

Was it something that I caused? Was I the problem?

Nothing made sense anymore, was it all a lie? Were they false senses of joy?

I just want to curl up, let the dark consume everything around me.

Lying on the carpet with my arms tightly wrapped around my knees as tears fell and a tightness formed in my chest, I couldn't help but think that it was my fault.
That it's my fault they turned on me, my fault they lied and cheated.

Breathless.

The sobs so immense that breathing became harder and harder, it was all my fault.

How could I be so stupid to not see it? Right in front of me.

Stupid.
Stupid.
Stupid.
STUPID!

Sobs wracked my entire body, my soul crushing ever so slowly at the thought of how long this has happened.

Recently? Since the start? Before it even began?

I can't believe I could be so stupid! To think someone would actually give a damn about me for once. I should know better by now that I'm worthless, a nobody. Why would this ever change?

My chest felt as though it were slowly being crushed due to my desperate attempts to breath in between the sobs and coughs.

I'm worthless, why would I even continue living? What is even the point anymore? I'm a waste of oxygen at this point, an accident since the beginning.

I feel my body begin to tremble, the cold air only now making itself known. I'm too exhausted to even move, never mind to even care about the cold I feel when the anguish is much more present.

My cries have softened, just the sound of choppy breaths. My everything hurts.