Save me from myself.

Chapter 2, but Billy likes me this way..

I remember the first party I went to with Billy. It was Dylan's. And I guess it was me and Billy's first date.. and Billy wasn't the type to take girls out to fancy restaurants or even a walk on the beach. And I knew that when I met him, I knew what I'd signed up for. And it may sound strange, but it was exciting. In all my other schools I'd been the outcast, I'd hide away.

But Billy made me want to stand out. And I was thankful for that. He wanted me to feel comfortable with him and let loose. The only problem was, his way of letting loose wasn't at all what I had expected.

I closed my bedroom door and connected my phone to my samsung speakers. I went to my playlists and chose the one I always put on while getting ready. I turned the volume right up and headed to my wardrobe. I grabbed my black mini dress, my ripped black tights and my silver wedges.

Billy had bought me the dress. It was a surprise.. A boy had never bought me a dress before. And it wasn't like Billy to buy me a dress.. I hadn't worn it yet and was hoping it fit. I laid out my outfit on the bed and headed to the bathroom.

I got into the shower and turned the tap. The water was warm and I tilted my head back until my hair was completely wet. I grabbed my coconut and lycee 2 in 1 shampoo and conditioner and massaged it in my scalp. I rubbed it in till my hair was covered. I rinsed my hands and reached for my shaving cream. I squeezed out a good amount in my hands and rubbed it on my legs. I picked up a razor and shaved my legs.

When I was done, I rinsed them and got my dove shower gel and washed my body. I stood under the shover and rinsed my hair and the gel. I turned the shower off and grabbed a towel next to me. I quickly dried my body and towel dried my hair and put it around me.

I went into my room and went over to my drawers and picked out matching lace bra and thongs. I put them on and walked over to the outfit on my bed. I put the tights on and then unzipped the dress and stepped into it. Here goes.. I pulled it up and I only realised then it was strapless and.. very very short.

I went over to the mirror and turned around and bent over. Woah. I was wrong.. This was exactly like Billy.. I held my stomach in and zipped it up. I could just about breath in it. I stood looking at myself in it. It was sexy.. But was it me? And I knew it was.. Well the me that everyone knows now.. thanks to billy. No, billy had helped me stop hiding and be confident.. The new me is what everyone likes.. It is who I am now. But did I like this new me?

I had no time to think about it. I grabbed my hair dryer and ten minutes later straightened it and then sprayed hairspray all over. I then put my makeup on. At parties I always wore heavy makeup. Billy liked it that way. I went back to the mirror and slipped into my silver wedges. I loved how high they were. I stared at myself, turning around and then back to me. This dress was sexy.. And it did compliment my tiny figure and the curves I had.

My phoned buzzed and I unplugged it from the speaker and opened up messages.
Billy: outside 10 mins
hope ur wearing that sexy dress ;p

I grabbed my silver clutch bag and shoved my keys, lipstick and phone in it. A light flashed at my window and I heard a car beep. I went downstairs and stood outside the living room where my mum was watching tv.
'Bye mum. I'm going out.. See you later.'
'...' no reply.

I went to the front door and grabbed a cardigan and put it on. I opened the door and shut it behind me.
*Beeeep*
I looked up at billy's car and his window opened.

'Babe, hurry up.' he called out.
I sprinted over to the other side of the car and got in.
Before I even sat down his lips met mine and kissed me hard.
I shut the door and he squeezed my thigh.
'You look so sexy.'

I smiled and looked at him. He looked so hot. He was wearing an almost see through white shirt, black leather jacket and blue jeans. And his hair was messy but sexy and he smelled great.

'Don't look so bad yourself.' I replied.
'Oh, I know.' he laughed.

He always said that. He pulled out a pack of chesterfield cigarettes and he grabbed one and handed me one. He handed me the pack to put in my bag and I knew he had another pack in his other pocket.

'You got a lighter?' I asked.
I put the fag in my mouth and he pulled out his lighter and I sucked lightly until it lit the fag. He lit his and started to drive.
We didn't speak as we drove to the party. Which was normal, he put the radio on and I couldn't even hear myself think.

I was mouthing the words and he threw out his fag and placed one hand on my thigh.
He turned to look at me and I just about lip read his words.

'I wouldn't bend down in that dress if I were you, not until we're alone anyway'
He winked and then pulled up the car.
I looked to see Dylan's house.

There were already loads of people outside. It was probaley packed inside. Everyone who was everyone came to dylan's parties.
A red porsche pulled up next to us and a guy opened the door, I didn't recognise him.. He closed the door and I saw a girl in the passenger seat. She didn't get out. Then the guy walked to the other side and opened her door. She smiled at him and he closed the door behind her and they both walked to the house. wow.. I thought opening doors for girls only happened in movies..

Billy cut the engine and opened his door and got out. He shut it and I didn't get out. For some reason, I wanted him to open my door. He stood there for a while and then walked over to my door. I actually got excited. He bent down and tapped on the window.

'You coming or not?' he said.
I opened the door and got out. Was it weird to say I was disappointed?

No.. It wasn't me who was weird. It was that guy. The guy who opened girls doors.