Letters To Him || James Potter

Letters To Him [8]

September 1, 1977

Dear James, 

It's been months since I last wrote to you. It's September now, a new school year, with new dreams and new hopes. A lot has happened in the last couple of months. Regulus is now a death eater. 

I'm such a horrible sister, James. First, I couldn't stop my twin from getting tortured. Now I couldn't even stop my brother from becoming one of those horrid people. I tried, though. I tried to stop Regulus, make him realize what he was going to do, and not make him pledge his life to that monster. But he didn't listen. I tried to convince Mother but she turned a deaf ear to me and said that Regulus will make our family proud. 

Another major event that took place in these months was my betrothal. Yes, I'm betrothed, James. To someone else, someone I don't even know or love. He is two years elder than me and is a pureblood. He belongs to the Sacred 28. He is everything my parents wanted as my husband. I always knew I would have an arranged marriage. But I thought that my parents would at least ask me if I was okay with the marriage. Guess I was wrong.

I went blank when I found out this betrothal was decided before I was even born. I couldn't feel or think anything. I was numb. I just sat there blankly as Mother sang his praises. My whole life was planned before I was even born, James. I tried to protest, but no words came out of my mouth. That night, I cried. I cried for my miserable life, for my unfortunate luck, for Sirius, for Reggie, for you, and for myself. I must have slept around 4 in the morning. I had a massive headache when I woke up and could barely keep my eyes open. 

Just a few more months. A few more months where I can live my life peacefully. Because after that, there would be no you. I wouldn't get to see you every day, even if it's just a glance. And I would belong to someone else. Someone who doesn't even love me. 

I love you James, and I always will, no matter what happens.

Love,

The Unlucky Slytherin