Chapter 5 Daily life part 5

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"D-damn, Monokuma wasn't kidding. Oh man, our sanity will be gone before we know it," Kazuichi suddenly said.

He stuttered in the beginning of his words, I thought.

"And can we really believe him? Come on, could this really be someone's memory? I hardly say so," Minami said with an aura of proudness to her.

"Really? Has being stuck in the game taught you nothing! That damn bear has too much power over us! We don't know what we're dealing with! Monokuma has proved that his word is law and how easily can someone fall to those words and fall into murder," Ed explained.

"True and we still don't know who controls Monokuma which is the scary part. It could be one of us," Mukuro said.

"Huh? Who said anything about one of us controlling Monokuma?" Susie asked.

"There are three options. One, Monokuma could be controlled by someone in this game, right here and right now. Two, Monokuma is controlled by an outside force but who are still watching us from afar. And finally three, this is the least likely to happen but Monokuma has his own will and isn't controlled by anyone. Despite technology being advanced, would there be an AI who had free will and a mind of their own?" Mukuro asked.

"If Monokuma is controlled by someone here, then could they be here? Like right now here, standing where we're at!?" Hibiki asked.

Everyone looked at each other with shocked faces and distrust.

I took a step back, my breathing starting to become quick and rapid.

Nononononono! I always had a suspicion that someone was obviously controlling Monokuma but one of us? No...NO NO NO! I refuse to believe that! I can't believe that! I don't want to get stabbed in the back by someone I knew! No no no!

Then I felt unimaginable pain going through my head.

My hands instinctually went to my head and I sank to my knees, whimpering in pain.

"T-Tommy? What's wrong?" Leafpool asked.

"My head....hurts," I managed to mutter out.

"Do you need to go and rest in your room?" Isabelle asked as she approached me.

"NO!"

That escaped from my mouth and frightened everyone including myself.

Words began to form before I could stop them.

"S-stay away from me! Please! Just stay away!"

"Tommy are you ok?" Hibiki asked.

"Like hell I'm ok! Get away from me!" I snapped, feeling very cold and felt like I was shivering.

It was getting hard to breathe.

My breathing became more rapid, my head was starting to pound and it felt like my whole body was freezing cold.

Why was I acting this way?

Why?

"Tommy you need to go and rest in your dorm. You're not feeling well, here I'll walk you there," Leafpool offered.

"No, Leafpool no...I'm fine got it! I'm fine!" I snapped. I was feeling dizzy.

"No Tommy, you're not! You need to go and rest," Leafpool said sternly.

"How do you know that's good for me!!" I yelled.

"Because I care for you! I know you're panicking right now and I get it. This is hard situation for anyone. I'll walk you to your dorm and try to calm you down," Leafpool explained softly.

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"But...but...but how can I care for you? How can I care for you all if you're all going to die anyway? I don't want to see any of your corpses next! I don't even want to be here!" I ran off with so many protests behind me.

I, unknowingly, went to my dorm and slammed the door behind me.

My breathing began to slow down and it was easier for me to exhale and inhale normally

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My breathing began to slow down and it was easier for me to exhale and inhale normally.

Well normally for me.

My head was still pounding and it still hurts.

After a while of me trying to calm down, what happened finally began to dawn on me.

Oh god what have I done? I yelled at everyone and even at Leafpool! That wasn't big man of me! I thought.

Guilt washed over me as my mind decided to repeat the scene in my head.

It's ok! It's ok! They'll understand that it was just a panic attack and I didn't mean any of that! It'll be fine...right? I thought.

Tears were running down my face as I thought of what happened.

"Ah...n-no...," I choked back a sob.

I want to go home.

I want to see my friends and family.

I want to feel safe and protected.

Why do I have to suffer? Why do they have to suffer? What have we done to deserve this?

I went over to my bed and lay on it, still sobbing.

They'll understand...they'll understand, I thought.

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Knock knock!

I fell face plant on the floor as I heard the knock.

"Coming," I murmured as I folded down my clothes.

I opened the door to see both Mukuro and Ed standing there.

"Oh hey guys...what are you doing here?" I asked awkwardly.

"Coming to fetch you for dinner. You missed out on lunch but we decided to let you rest after what happened in the morning," Mukuro explained.

I winced with guilt washing over me.

"Look I'm really sorry about tha-," I said but got cut off by Ed.

"We don't need an apology. We know you didn't mean it. If I have to be honest, what you said about how can we care if we're going to die anyway is something that I was thinking of since the first death...no since Monokuma explained how this game works. So you're not alone in that regard," Ed explained.

"I...really Ed?" I asked and he nodded.

"And I should be the one apologizing to you, Tommy. I brought up the mastermind stuff and placed that pressure on you. I'm sorry," Mukuro bowed her head.

"Huh? Oh no no, that's ok! I don't blame you at all!" I reassured her.

"I'm seriously sorry. Even if you forgive me, I won't forgive myself," Mukuro said sadly.

"Hey, what's been done has been done. There's no use crying over spilled milk. We're all in a difficult situation," Ed said sternly.

"Yeah...," Mukuro and I said.

We walked towards the dining room. Some people were already there. Not all but some.

Minami and Isabelle looked up and saw us.

Minami looked away while Isabelle walked up to us.

"Hey," was all she said.

I gulped and looked down.

"Hey...look I'm really sorry for what happened this morning. I was panicking and I said some stuff that I didn't really mean. The pressure and sh*t...I was scared," I explained and whispered the last part.

"That's ok. We all had a talk about it after you left. There has been a lot of pressure on everyone and how would one of us would have a breakdown like this. It's completely normal no matter the situation," Isabelle assured me.

"Thanks Isabelle," I said.

"No problem!" She smiled.

"Yeah same. Isabelle took the words out of my mouth," Minami said in a low voice.

"I guess so," Isabelle sighed.

Thump!

Hibiki fell front face on the floor.

"Hibiki?" Mukuro asked.

"Y-You guys got to come see this," Hibiki looked pale.

"Oiiii!! What happened?!" Kazuichi and Susie arrived.

"C-come on!" Hibiki sounded frightened.

My stomach dropped as we followed Hibiki.

Follow him to the technical room.

Follow him to the room where that press is.

Follow him to the scent of iron.

Follow him to the place where someone is no longer here with us.

Follow him to one we call cared about.

Follow him to the one I never apologized.

Follow him to the one I was meaning to apologize.

Follow him...


To see the dreadful sight.

Dead Body WARNING! POTENTIALLY TRIGGER (I can't really draw dead bodies but I'm still putting the warning here)










































Dead Body WARNING! POTENTIALLY TRIGGER (I can't really draw dead bodies but I'm still putting the warning here)

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A/N: guess I'll make people cry

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