Am I Worth It? (Narry Storan Fanfiction)

**Nialls Pov**

Why me? Why am I still alive? Why did I have to be so stupid? Why am I so ugly? So disgusting? Why does he have to be Mr.Perfect?

                Why doesn't he love me back?

All these thoughts were circling in my head and it was giving me a headache. I have been lying in bed all day just thinking about what happened. About that day, over a week ago. The day that sent my world crashing down.

* 1 Week Earlier *

"Niall,babe we need to talk" Harry, my boyfriend at the time, came into our room. "Sure, what is it Haz?" I didn't think twice about it, I thought everything was ok. I was wrong. 

"We need to break up" he said almost emotionless. I was shocked, why would he do that. I thought we were a pretty cute couple, we always got along and I think I'm a pretty good kisser.

"w-why" I barely managed to croak out.

"I found someone else, someone better. Listen I'm really sorry Ni, I-

"It's Louis isn't it?" I interrupted.

"what?"

"It's Louis, right? He's the boy you love?

"err...ummm yeah" he said awkwardly while scratching the back of his neck.

"I understand Haz, don't worry. Friends?" I said as I faked a smile, while I was dying inside.

"Best friends" he smiled.

"I think I'm gonna head to bed now. G'night Harry"

      * Present Time *

He thought i went to bed that night. I didn't. I stayed up late that night, leaving reminders on my body about how much of a failure I am, how I never was and never will be good enough. I was a wreck. I stayed in my room most of the time and no one knows why, well Harry and Louis know but it's not like they care. Louis has never liked me and Harry is to caught up in his romance with Louis to notice my absence. I don't really blame him for breaking up with me. I don't deserve him.

I'm worthless,

        stupid,

   ugly,

           fat, 

   disgusting'

never good enough.

So every night I stay awake and carve those into my body as a reminder of just how screwed up I am.