1/11/22
My stomach hurts like hell. Flesh cravings are back. I just need a chunk. Feeling phantom koukaku. Shoulder area kagus are itchy. Scleral greying, and a black vein-looking thing in my right eyeball. Large lump in my bikaku area that just went back in. Felt like a squishy yet strong sac of blood.
02/11/22
There's a bit of a warm tone to my eye. Amberish, almost. I can feel my rin kakuhou. Ukaku hurts like hell. Apparently I also have koukaku because that hurts too!
03/11/22
Toronto ghoul confirmed two things via telepathy:
1. Real kakujas are more like how the partial ones are portrayed.
2. Naturally caffeine rich foods are good for ghouls, as caffeine is helpful for RC cell production, hence why ghouls can drink coffee.
My mask has arrived. Rinkaku are trying to come out.
At first you will have smaller/less kagune, and you will not master your kagune instantly, so says Toronto ghoul.
Swelling in my rinkaku area.
04/11/22
Ukaku are itching to come out. Bikaku area hurts.
05/11/22
Can't eat food without feeling like I'm going to throw up. Ukaku are trying to push out. Felt something physical emerge from my back in the ukaku area and just kind of be there. Sort of like a lump pushing through then forming into something flatter.
06/11/22
Ukaku are trying to push out.
07/11/22
Ukaku really hurt.
12/11/22
Eugh... emptied my guts again. The dietary shift is becoming even more hellishly agonizing for me with each day. That is to say, it is coming along steadily, becoming more agonizing each day. Rinkaku are very angry and trying to come out. My back is burning.
19/11/22
Ukaku stabbing pain.
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AdventureThe journal of a young Canadian ghoul who's just trying to figure things out and get by. A journal full of my progress as a ghoul. It is publicly updated on a monthly basis.
