Y/N's POV:
I was feeling better today so Pansy allowed me to go to my classes. I can't believe I actually needed her permission.When I joined the first class, no one looked at me weirdly. They had no idea. I sat down next to Pansy and she gave me a reassuring look. I rolled my eyes and smiled at her. Yes I'm sure I don't need another day to rest.
I didn't even check if Malfoy or Riddle joined as well, I didn't need to. I don't care anymore. In fact, I'd be really thankful if I didn't see them today. One, I know that if I met Malfoy, he'd try to apologize over and over and started saying bullshit like how it is not even his fault. And two, I know if I met Riddle, I'd probably had to stop Blaise from beating the shit out of him.
I spent the rest of the lesson half overthinking and half actually listening to Snape. I actually did try to listen though, it's impossible. Impossible if you don't have a crush on him like Pansy, she was looking at him with hearts in her eyes.
And Blaise almost bursted into tears from laughing and Pansy almost bursted out laughing too.
Her laughing afterwards is the only thing that's keeping me from thinking she's being serious about it.
I tried to ignore everyone today except these two idiots. I mean I can't really ignore them even if I wanted to. After all our classes, we all went to the Great Hall to get lunch.
I only noticed Malfoy when he spoke to Astoria, saying "See me after lunch in my room."
You moved on really quickly, Yesterday you were almost begging for forgiveness and now you're hooking up with Greengrass again. Wow. Just wow.
What does he even see in that basic bitch?I followed him with my eyes, he looked like he was in a hurry. He didn't look back once.
"Do you think I should walk in on them?" Blaise whispered, making it obvious he overheard them talking as well.
"That's so stupid" I shook my head and continued eating, even though the food was really hard to swallow. Or maybe it was the thought of Malfoy banging Astoria again.
"Whatever you say" Blaise shrugged, "I still gotta go, see you later ladies" he smiled and gave Pansy a quick kiss on her forehead.
"Where are you going?" I asked, "I swear if you're going to do it anyways-"
"Quidditch practice" he said walking backwards.
I narrowed my eyes, wondering if he's lying or not.
"Make sure she finishes that plate" he looked at Pansy before he turned around and left the Great Hall.
"Oh come on, I'm not a baby" I rolled my eyes as I played with my food on the plate.
"He's right, you need to gain some strength and energy" she smiled at me and squeezed my hand.
"I'm being serious, you two always act like I'm your child. I can't wait for you to have your own babies and stop caring about me so much" I chuckled.
"That's never going to happen, you know you'll never get rid of us" she laughed.
"Unfortunately" I laughed too.
When we finished eating, she said she's going to watch Blaise and join me later. I hugged her and headed to my room.
"Y/N!" I heard a familiar voice calling me.
"What's up?" I turned around. It's impossible to ignore these two too.
"Where were you yesterday?" Fred walked up to me with George right by his side.
"I just wasn't feeling well" I laughed it off.
"Are you skipping classes with Riddle? He never showed up either" George raised his eyebrows with a smirk on his face.
"No" I shook my head immediately, "we don't really- we aren't-" I stuttered but it seemed like they both understood what I meant.
"It was about time" Fred rolled his eyes.
"FRED!" I yelled at him and he started laughing.
"We all know he was no good for you" he put his hands up in defense. I just rolled my eyes with a smile on my face.
"Well, it seems like you broke the cold-hearted king more than he broke you" George pointed out.
"Oh stop it guys. Do you have um... A joint with you by any chance? I've been really stressed lately and I probably don't have any other option" I whispered.
"We got back our old Y/N!" Fred started laughing and clapping his hands.
"Don't make a big deal out of it" I shook my head annoyed.
"You're a lucky one, I have the last piece in my pocket" George reached to his pocket and gave it to me.
"Thanks. Last one? You guys never run out of that shit" I chuckled.
"Last one I had with me" he made it more clear.
"Makes more sense now... Anyway, I gotta go. See you guys later" I smiled at both of them.
"It was nice seeing you again" they said in sync.
Other than that, the hallway was empty. Everyone was still at lunch. And I was very thankful for that. I reached my room and as soon as I closed the door, I let out a loud sigh. I survived.
I survived another day in hell.
I was doing my homework when Pansy finally came back. We talked for a while and then we joined our friends in the common room to have some fun. I know I always say how much I don't want to see anyone and just be by myself in my room. Pansy even had to convince me to go there and I actually didn't want to go at all but as soon as we entered the room, my mood suddenly changed. I loved being with them.
It felt like all the voices in my head finally shut up, like the pain went away and I could finally live again. Almost like I want to live again. Not survive, live.
They brought up our annual sleepover under the stars by the lake.
"We have to bring something to play our hymn" George said.
"Our hymn?" Tim asked him confused.
"Yes, Everywhere I Go by Hollywood Undead, you uncultured kid" George shook his head.
"We should also bring more blankets than last time. Adrian stole mine and I was freezing the whole night" Cedric complained.
"Dude it was literally mine" Adrian rolled his eyes.
"It was yellow. Like Hufflepuff" Cedric opposed and at this point everyone was laughing at this stupid argument over one blanket.
"It was dark I couldn't see!" Adrian shouted.
"Okay! Okay! More blankets, we get it!" Pansy yelled at both of them, trying her best not to laugh.
"But where was my blanket then?" Adrian said with a confused look on his face.
"Yeah about that..." Fred scratched the back of his neck nervously.
"You brat!" Adrian stood up from his chair and started chasing Fred.
I fell down on my back, I was laughing so hard I couldn't control it anymore. Adrian got Fred and pinned his head with his arm and gave him a Dutch rub.