Betrayed

session four

Whats been going on? The counselor asked us and Yerdua spoke today.
I've been working and Chris comes for his vacation in 32 days. Work keeps me busy but we're going to a different Wednesday nights group now.

And why's that?
Akvir was making friends with josh and slowly trustinf him thinking he'd be a safe choice.to trust a guy again. He is but his girlfriend isn't. It was when Akvir was really happy and smiling and goofing off like she use to. Finally got her back but two weeks ago. After a Wednesday night as she was in bed she got a text from his girlfriend saying that she couldn't leave it be and told her to leave him alone because akvir hanging out with josh was making her.uncomfortable and she tried to explain that he was just helping her and then she said no it's just that it the girlfriend had noticed beforw with .... Robbie and would prefer if she just stopped and she said she was.sorry and said shed just stop talking to them. Bit.noooooo. the girlfriend had to go and act like nothing happened at all and tried to be.nice to her.and talk to her and try to cet her to sit.with her. The girl hurt my sister and acts like its nothing.
And why did that bother you Akvir?

Why? Because josh knew...knows whats going on and is just trying to get me to smile and laugh and not treat me any different and then im told i cant.even make.friends the right way.without hurting someone in the process. I just wanna make friends and be myself again and it doesn't help that robbie is everywhere. I dont wanna stop going to the placea i go just because i think he might be there and want to avoid him at all cost. Because just i forgave him doesn't mean i want anything to do.woth him. And he gets to go about acting like lifes normal and chat.with the same.people i know amd they're none the wiser and everytime i see him chatting some girl up i just wanna shout to the world what hes.done and on top of that im told.that i cant.even make.friends without making someone uncomfortable. So its like its all my fault when hes the one who did something wrong not me! I did nothing wrong and its still all my fault and i dont even know how its my fault but it always turns out that way and it sucks and its like everyones against me and it sucks.
Now im avoiding josh and his girlfriend like the plague like i am robbie and its horrible bc i can't tell anyone why. Because.robbie is like everyones friend whom they all love and josh girlfriend is a giel whome everyone we know loves and.adores and in their eyes neither.person could ever do any wrong. And its like if i told.them they wouldn't believe me.anyways and said person wluld deny it all and id be left there standing like a fool because.they wpuld believe the person and not me. So its not even worth it and all i wanna do is scream and cry out all the pain these people have caused me but all the people i know they know and no one wpuld believe me anyways and its all so frustrating and useless and i god i just hate them and i hate myself and i cant even talk abouty problems because.that just causes more problems and i dont wanna.deal with.it.