I hate that I love you // BTS Taehyung

58. First time

Y/n Pov:

I was sitting at the dining table eating my breakfast as the front door opened. First I thought it was my dad but once I lifted my head to look up, I saw that it was Taehyung taking off his shoes. It took me by surprise to see him there. He came closer and sat down next to me.

"You are already back?" I asked him a bit confused and he gave me a smirk.

What was this guy up to? Or what did he already do?

"Don't worry about Jia anymore. She will never even come near you again. Same goes for her friends." Taehyung explained and now I understood. I just hopped he didn't go to far in threatening her. Still I was happy that he took care of it for me. I stood up and went to give him a hug. While I did so, he pulled me on his lap and smiled brightly. I did so too and lent closer to give him a big kiss. Just before our lips connected, I heard something falling on the ground and I looked down. My smile faded as I saw a pack of cigarette laying next to the chair Taehyung was sitting on. I gave him a sad look which made him also look down and the moment he realized why I was looking that way, he sighed.

"Please stop with this." I quietly almost begged him and he lowered his head. I understood that he was stressed out and the last couple of days, maybe weeks, we're really like hell but I want everything to change for the better now and so I also wanted him to stop with that.

"It's not that simple." He explained and now I was the one sighing.

"I understand that. You don't have to quite right away. Just try to do it less and less and eventually you will be able to stop sooner or later. Please Taehyung, you already promised me once that you would stop. I am really worried about you." He finally looked up at me once I was done with my speech and pulled me close to himself. I wrapped my arms around his neck and waited for him to say something.

"Alright. I promise that this time I will really give my best to stop." He said and I really hoped that he would be able to stop. His health was really important to me.

"Let's go upstairs. I want to lay down." I said and he chuckled.

"Alright. Come on." We held hands and walked up the stairs into my room. To be honest I wasn't tired or anything, I just wanted to lay in bed with him. I wanted to cuddle.

"I will go to school next week." I started as I threw myself into my bed. Taehyung closed the door and also laid down next to me.

"Staying home isn't fun anymore." I continued and that made him glare at me.

"I'm sorry. Am I boring?" He gave me a questioning and also kind of pissed look. I chuckled at his cuteness and kissed his cheek.

"You know that's not what I meant. I love being with you but we need to do something else then laying in bed." Once I explained this to him his eyes lit up and a smirk grew on his face. Did I say something?

"I know something different that we could do." He said with a flirty voice and climbed on top of me. I got a bit surprised as he pressed his body against mine and placed a long and soft kiss on my lips. It didn't take me long to place my arms around his neck and kiss him back.

His hand slowly traveled down my body and he didn't stop until he reached my pants. Shivers were running down my back as his warm fingertips touched my bare stomach. Just as his fingers reached the sipper of my pants he pulled away and paid back next to me.

"Sorry. I got a bit carried away." He rubbed the back of his head and I could see his cheeks turning a light shade of pink. Specially because she was avoiding eye contact with me. He was so cute. I sat up in my bed and lent closer to him.

"Don't be sorry. I...think I'm ready." Once I said this his eyes lit up and he immediately looked over to me.

"Are you sure?" He asked carefully and I nodded my head. The moment I did so, he grabbed me around the waist and pressed his lips onto mine once again. We started making out and I started opening his jeans. I could feel goosebumps on his arms as I was touching him.

"Alright...give me one second." He suddenly pulled away and said. I gave him a confused look until I realized what kind of face he was making.

"Are you nervous?" I asked and placed my hand on his cheek. It was already obvious.

"Well...yeah. A little." He answered and I smiled at him.

"I don't want you to feel nervous. It's just me." As I said this sentence, I placed my hands on my shirt and started taking it off. His eyes widened as he saw my bare chest and covered his eyes with his hand frustrated.

„What is?" Now I was getting a bit confused that he was acting like that. I didn't understand why he was now all of a sudden this frustrated.

"Y/n are you really sure that you are ready? Do you really want it?" He removed his hand and looked me really deep in the eyes as he asked me. I shyly nodded my head and he took a deep breath.

"Well then. Just tell me if I'm to harsh." Taehyung said and after that he grabbed me once again and pressed me against the bed.

It took me by surprise at first but once he ripped his shirt off his body and my eyes landed on his perfectly shaped abs, I couldn't take it anymore.

"Y/n. I will eat you up."