Past Of Golden Hour (Helios Series #1)

08

I was shocked. My lips parted when the driver left us with those words. I look to Lucas who have a same reaction as mine. I cleared my throat.

"N-nandyan na 'yung tricycle... Tara na." Maliit na boses kong sabi.

He nodded parang wala lang sakaniya yon. Nag-back ride kami parehas. No more talk when we're on our way back to housing. I bit my lower lip to stifle my smile.

Nang maka-uwi wala akong nadatnan kaya naka-hinga akong maluwag. I change my clothes into 'pambahay' one before going down stairs.

Nilinis ko lang ulit ang baba at nag saing. Pumasok siguro si Mama habang si Papa ay pumasok 'din. Si Selene baka nakatambay sa library.

Nagluto na akong baboy na prinito bago umakyat nag aral muna ako at nag highlight nang infortant details. Nag kabisado na 'din ako. I was studying on my ass when my phone beep.

I check the notification and my eyes lit up!

Lucas Valdez accept your friend request.

Putangina. I was now free to stalk him. Kinikilig pa 'ko dahil mas madami akong baby picture niya nakita ko. Mahilig kasi mag post ang Mommy niya.

I smiled to myself. For the second time, hiniling ko na naman na sana ganun din ako. I listen when i heard my parents argument.

"Putangina ka, Joel! Kung hindi pa kita nakita hindi ko malalaman na nagloloko ka?! Wala ka na ngang ginawa kundi ipang sugal 'yang punyeta mong pera tapos mambabae kapa? Hindi kaba na hihiya sa sarili mo?!" rinig kong sigaw ni Mama.

"Tangina ka, Gemmalyn. Manahimik ka marinig ka nang mga kapitbahay!" gigil na sabi ni Papa.

"Tangina mo 'din! Bakit, huh?! May gana ka pang mahiya pag katapos mong mangbabae lahat-lahat?!" sigaw ulit ni Mama.

"Bakit?! Ikaw ba hindi ka din nangangabit?! Kala mo ba hindi ko alam na pumupunta ka sa kabit mo?!" sigaw ni Papa.

"Aba, buti at nakita mo! Alam mo na ngayon na matagal na 'kong nagsasawa sa 'yo! Punyeta kayong lahat. Isama mo 'yang tanga-tanga mong anak."

"Puta ka! Isama mo yan tutal produkto naman 'yan nang kalandian mo 'di ba?!"

I was stunned. The water start filling up the side's of my eyes. Masakit na masiyado. Tama na muna. I left my phone open while i was crying. All of my life i was living in lie, the reality is now out. I'm just a product of rape.

I heard the door of our house open. This time i heard Selene's cries. I want so bad to comfort her. I knew she heard everything. I want so bad to fix her even i was so broke.

"M-ma... Tama na po. Ang sakit na nang mga sinasabi ninyo kay Ate Sienna." Her voice cracked.

"Tama lang 'yun, sana hindi nalang 'yan binuhay!" Mama said.

"Malandi ka kasing hayup ka!" sigaw ni Papa.

"M-ma, tama na please... hindi lang si ate ang sinisira ninyo... Pati ako,"

I cried harder when i heard that. As i was crying i heard my room door open. Selene ran to me and hugged me.

"'Wag kang makinig sakanila ate... Nandito ako. Don't give up on yourself, naniniwala ako." her voice cracked.

My should is moving because of so much cry.

"S-sirang-sira na 'ko, S-selene," My lips trembled. "Why the universe is so cruel to me? May ginawa ba 'kong masama?"

"Hush... Every problem have a solution. We wi get out of this shit, please hold to me don't give up!"

She hugged me tight. Nakakahiya dahil Ate niya 'ko pero siya ang mukhang mas matanda sa 'min. Hindi kami naka-kain pareho dahil takot siyang iwan ako.

She's scared i might harm myself again. I was already having thoughs. When Selene feel asleep. I left my room and went out.

11 p.m na ngayon. Pumunta ako sa 7/11 para bumili nang makakain. I also bought Selene some food before i go to food court of the complex.

Dalawa lang ang tao dito. Isang babae at lalaki lang. Hindi ko na sila pinansin dahil tulala pa din ako. I can't process the revelation earlier.

Hindi ko napansin na umiiyak na pala ako. I wiped my tears away I bite the sandwich i bought. As i was chewing i felt someone joined me in the table.

"Why you're here?"

I immediately recognized the man's voice. I didn't bother looking at him so he wouldn't notice i'm crying.

"I just need to have peace of mind." I thank all saints when my voice didn't trembled. "You why you're here?"

"I just want have some space." He said.

"Then, Why you joined me if you want an space?" I asked.

"I don't know. My feet suddenly move and went to your table as my eyes notice that you're wiping your own tears," He said.

He forced me to look into him. When he meet my eyes, His eyes filled with so much care.

"Why you're crying? Are you okay?"

Those words made my tears start dropping again. I sobbed while he's patiently wiping it.

"Hush, I'm here. You can tell me everything..." He said.

Nahihiya ako dahil nakita na niya kaagad ang kahinaan ko. I use to hid my feelings but i was to transparent.

"Tell me everything that made you cry... Please," malambing niyang sabi.

I tried to calmed down before i start stating it.

"W-while i was... Studying. I h-heard my parents... Argument. I h-heard i was just a p-product of... Rape."

I cried again. "S-selene barged in and pleaded our parents to stop, but i already find out everything,"

He hush me again. I was about to talk when he covered my mouth with his big and warm hands.

"Shhh. That's enough. Lean on me please... I will try to fix you even I'm breaking into pieces." He look at me.

"The Golden Hour is beautiful to watch when you're smilling, let's escape together from our past..."

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#POGH08