THE RIPPER (Sunstreaker & Sideswipe)

Chapter 33. Date

Sunstreaker had his arm casually swung around my shoulders. He had taken the task on giving me a good date taken very seriously. I had to admit that it was adorable. 'So?' He asked as we reached his alt-mode. 'Did you enjoy our date.' I leaned against his alt-mode, staring at him. 'I did, thank you.'

He lovingly nuzzled my nose with his. I definitely hadn't seen this affectionate side of him before. So gentle, so sweet. Perhaps this is his true face, the way he was before people ruined him. Tortured him so many times that he went crazy and acted out of hatred and pain. As he met my gaze, his usual soulless icy blue eyes had replaced for this beautiful, ocean blue. I studied the details of his eyes. 'That's the true color of my eyes,' he spoke, grasping my waist a little tighter. I laid my hand on his cheek. 'They're... beautiful.' Even his voice was gentle and calm. 'This is a side of me no one besides my brother ever got to see.'

'This is you. This was you before everything happened.' He nodded slowly. 'Why are you showing me this now?' He shrugged. 'I want you to see I'm not always a monster.' I leaned into him, an hug and perhaps not just for my own comfort. Sunstreaker's hands rubbed my back. 'Do I get to see more of this side?' His chuckle vibrated through my body. Sunstreaker leaned in again. The kiss as gentle as it had been before. 'You can... if you work for it.' I buried my face in his neck. 'Well, well... look at you, hugging a psychopath.' I snorted and stayed where I was. 'Shall we go home? Watch a movie?' I nodded and stepped back, hopping in his alt-mode.

Sunstreaker drove home and parked next his brother in the garage. 'So? How was it?' Sideswipe sipped from his beer. 'Went well, enjoyed each other, I guess.' Sunstreaker smirked. 'That's all you've to say about it?' I snorted and poked his ribs with enough force to make him jolt. I smiled and passed. Sunstreaker was right on my heels.

'We would watch a movie.' I hummed and opened the armoire. 'In comfy clothes.' Sunstreaker settled on my bed. I took off my clothing and unhooked my bra. Sunstreaker watched intently. His eyes didn't miss a single movement I made. I swirled to face him. He got up and approached, his hands landing on my hips. 'Has anyone ever told you how beautiful you are?' I rolled my eyes but rested my hands on his shoulders. 'And has anyone told you ever that you're a shameless flirt.' He buried his face in my neck. I gently wrapped my arm around his neck and rubbed his scalp. A low purr escaped his throat.

'So affectionate.'

He hummed and withdrew. She pulled on her comfy clothes and settled on the back. Sunstreaker was right there to curl up next to me. I rubbed his scalp gently and savored the heat of his muscular body. I never imagined falling so hard for anyone, especially not a psychopath. My blood chilled. What would it mean? How would he act towards me if our relationship grows. Possessive? His father had been cruel and abusive. He wouldn't take over his traits. Would he?

'What's wrong?' Sunstreaker rubbed his thumb over the curves of my ribs. Gosh, I hadn't realized I had lost so much weight. Sunstreaker lifted his head. His beautiful eyes staring down at me. I brushed some lost hairs from his forehead. Silken and smooth between my fingers. 'Who knew I would ever do this with you.' His thumb brushed over my lips. 'You want me?' I shivered at the tune in his voice. There was no possessiveness there. Just longing and love.

'I can be yours,' he murmured against my ear. I tipped my head back. A silent request. His lips grazed over my skin. 'You want a messed up wreck like me?' He perched his head up. 'You're not messed up. You're hurt. In a different way than I am, but I get where the anger comes from.' I ran my hand over the smooth fair skin of his bicep. His muscles were relaxed and firm under my palms. 'How does it even work? It's generally known that psychopaths lack of certain emotions and considered your history with women...' I inhaled sharply.

'You never told me where the hate comes from.' I could guess but I wanted him to open up. Tell me things. Just anything. Sunstreaker stared at me for a long time. 'You're afraid I hurt you?'

'Not necessarily.'

'Right...' he rolled away from me and laid on his bed. 'I'm jealous. I don't want other males to talk to you. It makes me angry enough to consider killing them. Torture and then end up in the most gruesome way possible.' I arched a brow but he didn't look at me. 'If can't have you... I don't think I can live with the fact anyone else can.' I sat up. His eyes drifted back to me. The ocean blue had vanished and replaced for that cold icy blue. 'You are threatening me now?' My voice whetted in an edge. 'I am.' The calmness creeped me out. It was the same lethal calmness he used to size up his next victim.

'You think you can just claim me like that? You think that I accept your stupid jealous behavior? Why are you telling me this now? You know damn well it makes my blood boil.'
'Because it's the truth. You asked me how it works for me and I answered fairly.'
'This has been a bad idea from the start. I should've known better than to let a psychopath in my life. Exactly what I needed.' I slid off the bed. His keen eyes followed my every move but he didn't have a remark on my statement.

'Get out, Sunstreaker.'

He didn't do much as blink. 'Didn't you hear me? Get the fuck out!' I pointed at the door. Sunstreaker slowly slid off the bed and towered over me. 'Careful, sweetspark.' A cold shiver ran down my spine. Unsettling was an understatement. He walked up to the door. 'I don't care if you kill me. I've told you before and I'll tell you again then there's no one that will mourn or even show up at my funeral. The only thing you reach with it is adding another female to your stupid list. I was willing to give it a try. Some stupid part of me thought that you could move past it. Apparently I'm nothing but a stupid ignorant human.'

He swirled with feline grace and glared. 'You asked me! I told you how it works for me! What I feel. You can't get mad at me for being honest,' he hissed. 'You claim me like some sort of feral beast! How can I accept that!' His face flashed with hurt. 'Is that how you see me? Just because I'm different you think I can't be a good mate? You think I can't give you the same thing as a normal person?' I blinked. 'I loved you from the second I saw you. Ever since I laid my eyes on you, I tried to get closer but every time I tried, you pushed me away. I took all your hateful comments, all your assumptions about me and my past. You still don't get it, do you?'

He snorted. 'And I thought you started to care for me. The only stupid one here is me. I won't kill you, I think letting you live, all alone without family and friends is punishment enough. You can rot away here, alone and no one will ever care for you, but if you ever set one foot im my territory, I'll murder you.' With that, he stormed off.