Billie's birthday trip was probably one of the best moments that happened in my life. After we came pack from Paris, we got busy with music and shows. It's been stressful trying to get any sleep with so much on my mind. And on top of that, Billie hasn't been feeling good lately. She's been constantly throwing up and nauseous 24/7.
I just figured she caught a bug on our trip or got food poisoned. So basically we've been dealing with a lot at once. I sighed tapping my pencil on my office desk, brainstorming about song lyrics. I just couldn't think of anything at the moment. I stood up and made my way downstairs where Billie was sitting on the couch. "Hey baby" I said to her. "Hey" she mumbled back. I sat down next to her. "You feeling any better?" I ask her while rubbing on her thigh.
"I feel like absolute shit" she says frowning. "Aw baby, do you want some tea?" I ask. "I guess so if it settles down my stomach" she says. I kiss her forehead before making my way into the kitchen to make some tea. I pour some water into the coffee maker to warm up the water. Afterwards I soak the teabag in the boiling hot water. I then let it sit for a few minutes to cool off before giving it to Billie.
"Thank you babe" Billie says taking a sip of the tea. I wrap Billie in a blanket with me as we cuddled while watching a Netflix series. Billie dug her head in my neck as I placed small kisses on her forehead. I checked my phone to see that Ariana texted me.
Ari 💕
Hey girl
Hey Ari wassup?
I just wanted to know how
u doin ^^
I'm fine but Billie hasn't been
feeling good lately 😕
Rlly what's wrong?
She's been really nauseous and
vomiting like everyday
Oh no I hope she gets better ❤️🩹
Me too :\
Ik I've been feeling crappy bc of
my fucken period 🙄
Omg I just realized something-
What?
Billie hasn't gotten her period this month
Wait... r u sure it's not just late?
Ari Ik when Billie gets her periods and when
they're late
Omg Mala u need to go get a test!
Shit Ari
Read just now
I sat in silence. What if Billie was pregnant? I couldn't imagine myself as a mother. I had so much on my mind and am way too busy to be a mother. I didn't know how to act. I stood up causing Billie to sit up. "Where are you going babe?" Billie asks me. I didn't respond and made my way to the backyard.
I inhaled a large amount of air for a while before exhaling. I put one hand on my hip and the other on my head walking around in circles. Soon Billie joined me with confusion. "Hey, are you good?" Billie asks me. I sigh loudly in frustration. "Billie, did you get your period yet?" I ask with no filter. Billie looked at me with such a unquestionably expression. "Um, no why?" She asks. I clench my fists.
"Fuck!" I exclaimed before hitting the wall. "Hey, what the fuck is wrong with you!?" Billie yells at me. "Baby, don't you see the pattern? You're pregnant!" I exclaim. Billie blankly stood silent for a moment. "Why would you assume that?" She asks chuckling. I stare at her with an 'are you fucking serious?' face. "You haven't had your period this month yet and you always get it during the middle of the month!" I shout.
"Okay so? Periods can come late baby" she says. I frown. "Baby it's a week late!" I yell. "And? One of my friend's periods came a month late" Billie says. I sigh louder than my last one. "I don't give a fuck about your friend's period! Your body and their body are different from each other's, and can't you see that it all makes since? The nausea every morning?" I ask.
"It could also be a sign that my period is coming" Billie states. I rub my head in frustration. "Can we at least take a test to be sure?" I ask. Billie holds my waist. "Whatever makes you stop worrying about me, I guess" she says before kiss my lips.
I felt myself sink in gilt as she held onto me. "I'm sorry baby, I'm just scared. I don't know what to do if you're pregnant" I say. Billie smiles, rubbing my back. "Whatever happens, we'll always have each other right?" Billie asks. "Right" I say hugging her back.
Later, I made my way to CVS picking up a pregnancy test for Billie. I felt awkward just buying the test by itself so I purposefully grabbed a bag of skittles to add to my bag. Afterwards, I left and my way back home to Billie. I nervously waited for Billie outside of the bathroom. I sat on the floor, biting my fingernails, shivering.
Eventually Billie came out of the bathroom with the test in her hands. I stood up quickly. "The test said to wait for at least five minutes for the results" she says. I nodded my head signaling that I understood her. Billie laid the test on the counter before guiding me to the living room couch. We sat down in silence for a moment.
"You're nervous huh?" Billie asks me. I softly smile before quickly changing it into a nervous frown. Billie rubs her hand on my knee. "Everything's gonna be okay Amala" she comforts me. She places a small kiss on my nose (like I always do for her when she's nervous). I smile and kiss her back.
Five minutes passed by and I shook in fear. Billie tried to comfort me, but this time it didn't work. Nothing was working at that moment. The test results were positive.
I had so many emotions going through me at one time. A mixture of angry to sadness to fear to sickness. Billie didn't do anything but kept trying to tell me that it was gonna be okay. But no. Nothing was gonna be okay. My whole life, my career. My whole dream, down the fucking drain...
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alone • doja x billie
FanfictionAmala Ratna Zandlie Dlamini is the shy kid in school who struggles from trauma from her childhood which has caused her to struggle with anxiety and depression. She has always felt self conscious about herself and everyone around her until she met Bi...
