The right choice (A Jacob and Bella story)

Chapter five

His face morphed into many different emotions at once I could only catch a few - surprise, happiness, concern, and one that made my heart skip - love.
"Bella, I'm not so sure you know what your saying." My heart broke at the cautious hope in his eyes, almost like he was scared I would tell him it was a joke.

I sat up off my elbows and carefully approached him as he watched me. I crawled forward onto his lap and grabbed his shoulders and pulled myself closer so we were chest to chest, the one thing between us being my shirt. Gently and ever so slowly, I placed both my hands on either side of his face.

"Jacob Black, I love you. I've made many mistakes along the way, learnt many things too to get here. When Edward left me I felt like I shattered into a million little pieces. You were the one who took the time to pick those pieces up and put me back together and tell me my cracks were beautiful. No one has ever been there for me like you were. When I'm with you I feel safe, happy, loved. Your the one stable thing in my life and I be darned if I had to leave you. And I'm sorry it's taken me this long to figure it out but I love you. I really do. And I know, I know, I'll have to figure out what to do with Edward. But I'm not going anywh- Jacob swallowed the last of my sentence as he pressed his lips firmly to mine in a long, slow kiss.

And when he pulled back I saw a few tears rolling down his checks. "Jake," I rubbed the tears off of his face and then kissed either side, "don't cry, I love you."

His strong arms wrapped around me in a tight hug embrace. "I love you Bella," he said pressing his face into my chest. I moved my hands up to his hair and began to play with it as I straddled his lap.

"I'm gonna have to talk to Edward soon and tell him that I'm going to break up with him. I don't know how to do it. I really don't want to hurt his feelings."
My voice cracked on the last word.

Jake pulled his face away from my chest and looked up at me, his hands on my back skidded down, cupping my arse he dragged me closer. My face blushed red and he smirked, pressing a kiss to my neck. "Bells, your such a good person. I'm not going to lie to you, the break up will probably hurt both of you. But if it's what you want then it's better then spending an eternity with someone who you aren't happy with."

I sniffled and then released a chocked laugh. "Yeah, it's what I want." I fisted his hair playfully, dragging his head back so I could kiss him on the lips. Jake groaned as I pulled away. "I don't know why that's so hot when you tug my hair."

I could feel the blood pump back to my face and he chuckled, "I'm never gonna get tired of you blushing, it's fucking adorable." Embarrassingly, his cursing turned me on. I wasn't used to this intimacy. With Edward we would kiss for a bit and then pull away because of his struggle to control his blood lust. But with Jake I could kiss him for hours and no harm would come from it.

"Bella I can feel you throbbing." I practically yelped as I scrambled to get off his lap but his warm palms grabbed my hips and pulled me back down. "I didn't say move. There's nothing to be ashamed of sweetheart, I'm just as turned on as you are." He brushed his lips over my throat.

His reassurance made me go redder but it did make me feel good that he was just as effected by me as I was by him. I mean the physical proof was between us, I could feel him hard against my inner thigh.

Curiosity bloomed in me, there were so many things I wanted to do with Jacob already and our relationship had just begun. I wondered if he was as innocent as I was or had experience.

"Jake?" I cautiously asked, he hummed acknowledgment against my neck. "Have you ever... you know." He pulled away from the kisses he was placing on my skin, his eyes dancing with amusement and lips pulled in a smirk. "No I don't believe I do Bells, could you explain?"

I smacked his shoulder. "Jake, cmon you do." He grabbed my hand that had just playfully hit him and kissed the tips of my fingers, a gentle action that gave me butterflies. "Your a big girl Bella, you can say it."

I scowled but I quietly whispered, "have you ever had sex?" He chuckled and nibbled on my pointer finger. "Yes bells, I have."

A surprising jealousy ripped through me, my mind suddenly whirling with questions I wanted to ask. Who? Do you still think of her? Did she mean anything to you? Was it one? Two? A few?

I glared out the window trying to control this sudden emotion. Jacob clearly intune with my emotions to a dime stopped his playfully assault and grabbed my chin, making me look back at him. "I've kissed a few girls from school, had sex with a few of them too. Yes I'm practiced but none of them meant anything to me. Not like you do Bells, I'm inlove with you. So that means you don't have anything to worry about, even though you jealousy is cute."

His words soothed the raging feeling in my stomach a bit, "I'm not jealous." He raised an eyebrow at me. "I'm not, really."
"Then why were you scowling out the window two seconds ago?"
"I wasn't."
"You were."
"I wasn't."
"Babe, you were." His pet names really gave me butterflies, my stomach feeling fluttery at his new name.

"Okay, yeah I was. But it also made me nervous. Cause Jake, I don't really have any experience."
Jacobs amused faced softened and he nuzzled into my hair. "That doesn't matter, I'll only ever do what your comfortable with. Okay?"
"Okay."

"Now let's get some food, I'm actually starving." I laughed and rolled my eyes, "what a shocker," I teased. He growled back playfully and lifted me over his shoulder as he stood up. "Maybe I'll just eat you."
I giggled and squirmed as he walked towards to the kitchen, his warm hand firmly placed on my arse. I could just tell he was smirking just like he could probably guess I was blushing.