**Authors Note**
Okay so the suicide scence set up and Idea came from a story I am reading called Fallen Angel by Dirpy Ditsy. She is a great writer go read her stories and fan her! If she doesnt get atleast 2 new fans I will stop this story! Yep I said it! Just kidding!!! I couldnt ever do that but READ HER STORY please!
I am just sitting there. Louis picks me up but I just stay stiff. He carries me downstairs and sets me on the couch. "I can still hear the music playing." I whisper. He gets up and goes upstairs and I hear it turn off. He comes back down. "I am about to call the boys and girls to come down here okay?" Louis asks me. "O Okay." I whisper. I am just I dont know stunned. I dont know if I am crying or not, I guess I am.
When Louis comes back in he wraps his arms around me. I just sit there. To stunned for words. "Why why why?" Is all I say. Louis tries to comfort me and assures me Niall will be here soon. I dont want Niall though I want Vallie and Louis thats it. "Can I see your phone?" I ask Louis. "Sure here love." He says.
I take the phone and dial the number, "Hello?" Andy answers. "Andy its its Alyssa can I take to Vallie please." I say. "Yeah sure whats wrong?" He asks. "I will tell you later I just need Vallie." I say. He calls for Vallie and then Vallie gets on the phone. "Vallie aka Roadie aka Dino aka Julliette aka creepy chick aka I am too lazy to say the rest." She says lauging
"Carly killed herself." I say. "Alyssa are you okay?" She says sounding concerned. "I I dont know can you get over her fast please." I say. "Sure." She says, I give her directions and she promises to be there within 20 minutes. I put down the phone. Louis calls the ambulance and everything and then he sits next to me.
When he sits down I just look at him then I hug him sobbing. "Louis why would she do this! Its all Harry's fault that womanizing jerk!" I yell. "Dont say that Alyssa no one knew she was that upset." Louis says. "NO IF HE WOULD HAVE STAYED WITH HER SHE WOULDNT HAVE EVER KILLED HERSELF!" I screamed. Then I hear a knock. Louis goes and answer it. Its the other guys and girls. Niall comes and hugs me. I hug him back super tight.
Then Harry comes in and he is sobbing. "Alyssa I didnt know, she had said something a couple nights ago about wishing she were dead. I didnt know!" He says. "Harry if you know what is best for you dont talk to me." I say. Then there is another knock on the door. I open it and Vallie and her boys are there. I almost fall crying. She hugs me, Then after I dont stop crying she kisses my cheek, "VALLIE!!! Why do you always kiss me if I cry for more then like 2 minutes!!"
"Because you know I think crying is a sign of weakness!" She says. "Well I did stop but still stop that!" I say. She just laughs. I hug her again. "How could she do this." I say tears coming down. "I dont know but dont blame yourself and if you cry again I will leave!" She says. I quickly wipe the tears. Then Andy comes and hugs me. "I'm sorry about your friend if you ever need a drinking buddy you know where to find me." He says
Then I hug CC. He grabs my ass of course but I really dont care. "Im sorry babe." Is all he says. Then I go and sit on the couch while the ambulance comes and collects the body. I look at Harry all alone in that corner crying. He wont let anyone talk to him but I am to angry to talk to him anyway.
He made Carly do this. I have completly shut down almost I will only talk to Louis and a bit Vallie. I just feel lost. Why does all this happen to me. I just start singing the only thing that helps.
I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere far away
I want you back
YOU ARE READING
