We had finally arrived back home and to say I was excited was an understatement. I hadn't come up with a plan because I still didn't have a phone and every plan had something to do with me needing to call.
I know it would be easy to leave because he leave me in the house all day. A way was the only thing in my plans that's was messing it up. I couldn't call Patience and ask her to pick me up because I know she was bound to be with Chase so that was out the window.I couldn't call Kaydence because he was a fucking puppet, love him to death but he's was so young and dumb. Everything Melo asked him to do he did it. I couldn't call my dad because I didn't wanna put him in my situation.He had been booked with surgery for the last 3 months out of town. He used to do that when we were kids but this time it felt like he wasn't coming back, 3 months was the longest he'd ever stayed away from his home hospital. My only risk was to ask him about another phone. I could just walk but my pregnant ass wasn't walking no where. My body was already in distress
"When can I get my phone back " hopefully my question wouldn't start a argument
" when I feel like buying you one" I scrunched my nose
" I can buy my own phone I just need a way" I reassured basically reminding him he took my keys
" its too early don't piss me off talking about bullshit" I just shut up because I'm trying to leave
I took both of our clothes out the suitcase, they was already cleaned so I put them up. If I didn't he would've suspected something, so I made up my mind to pack when he leave.I don't know if he sensed that I was trying to leave but all of a sudden he was staying in the house.
" Kay you wanna go out to eat tonight" he yelled from the kitchen. I shook my head no like he could see me
" no thank you" I learned being out didn't always mean having fun with him,I honestly just wanted him to leave so I could too.
" patience and chase gonna be there" I did really wanted to go now because I hadn't seen Patience in like a week but I felt like he was playing with me. He wanted me to say yeah so he could start an argument about how I don't wanna be around him but wanna be around everybody else.
" no I'm okay"he already had workers in here painting the baby room. I don't know why because me and my daughter was leaving. He was making this pregnancy so stressful for me, I couldn't imagine being here when I gave birth.
He obviously wasn't leaving so I laid down. I didn't have a phone and technically no car, I was literally trapped under his wing. I couldn't sleep because I had bigger plans in mind so I got up going to sit on the balcony.
" Just jump" the intrusive thoughts clouded my judgement. I stood next to the ledge, only thing that was stopping me was the rail.I put my hand on it about to lift my self up over it. Before I could fully lift my self over I moved my hand
"I can't do it" I broke down on my knees and burying my face in my hands . I couldn't do it to myself or my baby.I was torn my life was not supposed to go like this, and I was too caught up in wanting to be with him. I didn't see the red flags clear enough.I sat on the balcony for about an hour before I drained myself with all the crying.
When I got back to the room he was sprawled out on the bed. I rolled my eyes and went to the bathroom so I could shower. Not even 5 minutes later the shower door open and he walked in
" what's wrong" he hugged me from the back laying his chin on my head. He never looked at my face to see if I was crying so i don't know how he knew I was upset. He had to sense it because he was literally just snoring.
" you" I kept it simple because it was no point in lying. I needed to be able to express my feelings to him. He didn't say nothing after that he knew he was the problem but never did anything to fix it.
He never uttered another word, he bent me over placing his dick at my entrance.
" sex won't make me better" I moaned out as he insert himself in slowly. He was literally making love to my pussy, it was like every movement he was touching an arousal button.
" Fuck i love you"he turned my head kissing me nasty, he was still inside of me. He didn't love me so I didn't feel the need to say it back. Hopefully after this he was leaving. Even though I didn't want him inside me, I couldn't deny how wet he was making my pussy.
I was a creaming mess, he was still trying to get his nut off. My pussy was so raw it ached but I couldn't help the pleasure he was making me feel
" oh Fuck Melo" I moaned out I was about to cum again. I felt his dick grow inside of me, he reached his arm around my body and played with my clit. He started going harder I knew he was about to nut
"Fuck kay" he eyes started going back as I felt his liquid fill me up. We sat like that for a few minutes before he pulled out
" are you leaving today" I need to know so bad I had to ask
" why" he was watching my body language to see if I was up to something.
" Mel it was just a simple question, I just wanted to know if we could go out somewhere" I had to lie because if not he would've suspected something
" I asked you earlier did you wanna go out to eat you said no" he looked at me suspiciously
" because we just had got back I needed to relax for a little" he had to see right through my lies, I know he did because he got quiet.
"Melo" I was getting nervous because he was behind me and not saying nothing.He didn't say nothing so I washed and got out
" Ma mama said she wanna see you" he walked out the bathroom with water droplets rolling down his chest. He knew I was up to something. I couldn't tell him no I didn't feel good because I literally just asked him could we do something
" Are we going now or" I dragged on
" WE not going nowhere she asked for you" he was being sneaky he wanted me to go over his moms so he could leave and do whatever it is he please
" every time we over there your quick to leave" talking to him was like showing a newborn how to tie shoes
" I got shit to handle" he said simply, I don't believe shit he say
" okay well ask your mom could she come over here" I said stubbornly, he grilled me but I could care less
" ya mouth gonna be the death of you" I looked at him crazy like did he just threaten me.
" I didn't even say nothing wrong" I walked out of the room after getting dressed. I honestly need a break from him mentally,physically and emotionally.
I overheard him on the phone with his mom telling her to come over. I started making lunch because if she was coming I wanted to giver her the same treatment she give me. I had made lasagna, garlic bread and toss salad.I had never made or ate lasagna but this little girl craved it. By the time I was pulling out the garlic bread his mom was walking out of the elevator.
" Hey baby" she spoke excitedly, his mother was so warm hearted. She hugged me giving me three big baby bags
" ma what's this" Melo walked in the kitchen rolling a blunt
" well damn boy hey mama would be nice too" he laughed pulling her into a hug
" hey mama" I watched them interact for a while before he walked off going wherever he needed to go
" I tried to call your phone, it said something about not in service" i contemplated on just telling her but I didn't because bad enough I was always getting in trouble. If I told her he probably would just beat my ass again
" I lost it when we was in Miami Melo said he gonna take me to get another one" I lied right through my teeth
" well let's go get our nails and feet done and I'll take you to grab one" My plans was coming in to play. We ate and left, I didn't wanna waste no time because he was bound to double back
We stopped at the nail salon first, I didn't need nothing done because we literally just got off a trip but she wanted to treat me.
" have y'all thought about names for the baby" she spoke we was sitting getting our feet done
" I like Rae'Lynn Kairi Anderson but of course your son don't like the first name" I mentally rolled my eyes because he thought he was gonna control everything,even MY child name. Not this one.
" That's beautiful, please don't let him change that" she spoke jokingly.
" I'm not he better call her by her middle name" we both broke out in laughter.
We had been at the nail salon all together for about 4 hours.It was time to go to T-Mobile to get my phone. Little did she know she was helping me escape her arrogant son.We had finally pulled up to the store and I hopped out before she could fully park the car.
I walked in the store and immediately got help
" Welcome to T-Mobile, how can I assist you today" this young boy had walked up to me, he looked like he was around my age if not a year younger.
" I wanna start a new plan, I wanna purchase the iPhone 14 max" he walked me to the desk so I could give him all my information. Soon as I sat down Melo mom walked in
" oh ma you didn't have to come in I know you probably tired" she waved me off and sat next to me. Every information he asked for I gave him
" okay so the amount due today would be $125.89 the first bill you have would be the higher bill it would be about $135 for the first month and after that you'll be paying $85 unlimited everything " I was cool with the whole shabang so I told him I'll take it
" what color would you likeand how many gigabytes ?" He asked so he could check and see if they have it
" do y'all have the purple one and I'll take the highest y'all have " I had my eye on it since it released, and I needed all the gigabytes I could get.
" let me check for you" he walked to the back, before he could come back ma phone rung.
" what this damn boy want" she looked at her phone answering it
" what Ro" I couldn't hear what he was saying but I'm assuming he said where you at or what you doing
" At the phone store getting Kay kay a phone" I felt my heart drop she wasn't supposed to tell him that. Next thing I know she was passing me the phone, I hesitated to take it but did anyway
" yes Melo" my palms started sweating. I moved the phone from my ear a little because he started screaming
" WHEN YOU ASKED ME ABOUT A PHONE WHAT DID I FUCKING TELL YOU" he yelled, it was no point of saying anything. I knew I was being sneaky but could you blame me
" Come back to the house if I find out you got the phone imma beat ya ass with that same phone" I held my tears in because I didn't want his mom so see me crying
" okay" I felt so defeated, my plan was never going to work
" you okay" I couldn't fight the fact my eyes watered
" yes could you tell him I don't wanna do it no more" she saw me getting up so she passed me the keys. I went and sat in the car crying my heart out. This was not okay
