Loving Her {GxG} #Wattys2015

Chapter 4: Nicole - Losing Self Control

Honestly last chapter, I cried while writing it. Just a bit.. Okay maybe more, or not $.$ . I hope ya'll enjoyed the last chapter and this one too. (My big heart to heart moment was deleted. Do not ask about it please. It is better off gone.)

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Enjoy the chapter and my little broken heart moment just above here.

Edited on 7.16.15 . Onto the story!!

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Chapter 4: Nicole- Losing Self Control

Nicole

Hearing her whisper than softly kiss me, I went into shock for a few seconds. I snapped out of my shock stage when I felt Kelsey slowly starting to pull away. Wrapping my arms around Kelsey's perfect waist and pulled her towards my body more. Slowly starting to respond to the kiss, I can feel deep down somewhere inside of me, I could possible be happy with her. I can feel Kelsey starting to smile softly before wrapping her arms around my neck. Feeling myself lose the control that I try so hard to keep slowly starting to slip as I pick Kelsey up by her thighs and wrap her legs around me.

Walking backward, I sit down on my bed and hold Kelsey to me as we kiss. Losing myself control even more, I try to keep from losing anymore as I slowly pull away in the kiss. I can feel her heart beat racing against my chest and how our breathing matches as it picks up a bit. I need to stop, but I don't know how to. I feel... Happy. And happiness shouldn't exist in my world. I don't wanna hurt her.. I fear hurting someone as fragile as her.. Leaning my forehead onto hers, breathing heavily. Finally feeling like something snapped in me, I pick Kelsey up and place her on my bed as I pace my room, thinking to myself 'god Nicole way to lose the self control you been trying to keep forever and oh not being able to show emotions kicks myself in the ass about right now.'

I stop pacing around my room when I feel soft hands wrap themselves around my body at my torso line. Sighing as I feel Kelsey hold me against her chest, I close my eyes. We stand in silence, but I know Kelsey wants to ask me questions. Kelsey is a good girl with a bright future in front of her, but me? I am a bad bitch with a troubled past.. We don't fit, opposites do not attach each other in our situation. I don't want her to get hurt, psychically or mentally...

"Nicole.. What's wrong?" I hear Kelsey softly speak against my bare open back. I wanna answer her with the truth, but I don't want her afraid of me either.. God.. Why did you let this happen? Now of all times? "Nicole.." She says my name again, hearing it roll off her tongue, is driving me crazy. Sighing to myself to the point where she cannot hear it anymore, I slowly turn in her arms, and prepare myself for what I have to do..

"Kelsey.. You need to go.." I say this softly, I can feel whatever happiness I had somewhere deep in me vanish as I say this. I have to protect her, even if it means her hating me for life. Kelsey looks up at me through her beautiful long lashes and pouts softly. Before I can say anything, I hear my bedroom door bust open. Reacting on instincts, I push Kelsey behind me and turn to face the person who is rude enough to break into my room. Looking at the man, I know who he is. He is the boss, my boss.

'Fuck!' I yell this thought through my head as I keep Kelsey behind me. The boss walks to me with a smirk, but stops once he sees I am hiding someone. I watch as his facial expressions change from smug to stern in t-minus three seconds. "Awe, you're trying to hide someone from me Hayes. That's not very nice, especially since you brought the piece of space into MY  gym yesterday." The boss man, whose name is Jason Truman, snaps this at me. I need to get Kelsey out of here before she realizes the truth of who I am and what I do for living.

Keeping Kelsey behind me as I walk left while facing the boss, I quickly push her into my bathroom and lock the door behind me. Kelsey doesn't pound on the door like I thought she would, like she knew this wasn't the time for any schemes or stupid movements. "What are you doing in MY house and in MY ROOM?!" I yell and snap at my boss, knowing it may be dangerous, but I am pissed off.

"A little birdy told me you brought an innocent cute girl, who I assume is in the bathroom, into the gym while you trained. Tell me Hayes, does she know you for reals or is she just a toy to you for now?" Jason asks me with a smug smirk, but stern serious eyes.

"That is no ones business in who I bring or what I do in my free time. Was it Gus who said something? Because Gus will die in a fight sooner or later, by some random dude or I." I snap at him and turn my whole body towards him, protecting the door behind me, knowing an innocent little beautiful girl is silent and hoping I explain later is in.

Jason stands up and smirks at me, then says "I hope to meet her-" he pauses and points to the door- "one day." Watching Jason like a hawk, I glare as he leaves my room, closing my door, and out of my house. 'Hopefully for awhile..' I think to myself. Breathing out a heavy breathe, I slowly open my bathroom door to see Kelsey sitting on the edge of the tube trying to keep calm. Sighing softly to myself, I walk up to her. "Are you okay Jones?" I ask her.

Kelsey lifts her head and whispers "who are you really Nicole.. Because the girl who kissed me back is not here anymore.." Shaking my head softly, I say the one thing I really do not wanna, but I have to. "It's time for you to go home Jones, get up or I'll carry you." Seeing Kelsey shaking her head in disapproval, I sigh heavily running my hands along and down my face in stress. Fine if this is how she is going to be. Leaning down quickly, I pick Kelsey up, much to her now trying to escape me, and walk her over to my main room door.

I put Kelsey onto her feet and cross my arms. Kelsey has balls, how do I know that? Because she is brave enough to mock me and cross her arms across her chest too. Shaking my head at Kelsey, I know for a fact. If she stays any longer, I'll lose myself control again. I really do not need it to happen again..

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-Jada aka starrchick28